its just the memories...tats all...

All of a sudden things just went from clear to confusions, curiousity, anger and heartburn. I guess it's a really bad idea to talk to your ex about the past. Stupid brain of mine! Why do you have to think about things that are already in the past?!?! Why can't you think about the present or maybe the future perhaps?!?! I really am speechless right now. I cried while I was chating. These tears somehow just pour out of nowhere. The one plan I hope with my true heart that would come true actually didn't made it. Now that I have learnt that what you plan is not neccessary at all to come true. Like what my ex said to me, 'we were really really close to making that plan work...but sadly everything that we do, it also depends on each others feelings'. I take that statement as a lesson in life. Apart of that, I also realise that, whenever you plan something, make sure you have the conffident to do so. However, I really do not believe that someone could just all of a sudden change their minds and twist to something different in interest. Seriously, I think all this is a big mistake! It should never have to be this way. It should never have ended like that! Everytime a relationship do not work out, people tend to say things like that. Then, they will start blaming the other side for the relationship break down. Isn't it weird that we do not see ourselves as being at fault? There is no such thing as a perfect relationship. I always thought that when I'm with someone new, things would change in all means and that would be a perfect relationship. I guess I had the wrong theory. What I'm trying to say here is, i shouldn't have judged a relationship the way I use to. I will never ever predict the future anymore. I would not see us both as being together in the future. I am going to leave it in the hands of whoever is in charge of it. I'm just going with the flow. Out of all my ex relationship, only 3 out of 6 previous relationships left me a huge impact on my life. Everyday I make a mistake and I learn from it. If I were to be given another chance, I would really like to restart all my relationship and see where it leads me now that I know what we did wrong. For now, I'm happy the way I am. I'm glad I found you. As for the others, I would like to wish you all a happy life with whoever that replaced me(hahaha)....Felt useless...