=close for tempo...exams are coming and daily routine packed wif assignmentz and other excitement=

for my finalz are coming and that i still am given many assignmentz..i have to stop writing my blog for a while until my finalz are over...by then i will oredi be back home lor...maybe once in a while i will enter my blog and write things if i feel too stressed and needs a place to relax...this is the only place i can express everything...so..as for now...im jus too bz...at this time of the day im still awake..doing some touching up to my notes..guess i am sleeping late today...so,do take care ya all..luv ya loadz...muaxxxx..huggiezz

mizeries are the IN thing for me this season~

im feeling blue, no one to share my storiez, no one to accompany me..
i feel lonely in every corner of this island..
every where i go i end up at a dead end...
my life has been like that ever since...the word misserable describes it all..
i'm not the gal u all use to noe b4...i have doubts about myself...
i spoke to GOD last nite...HE is the only one who understands me now...
HE is the one i can open up to...telling HIM everything that im going tru now...
how mizzerable my life is...this is the life HE has planned out for me...
it has been a tough year being all alone here...
i have frenz but these frenz are just casual kinds...
i havent found someone who can really be there for me...
i wanna find someone who i can tell all my life storiez to...
someone who will listen to me crap about all my mizeriez...
i tell my uni frenz about how my life is turned upside down..
but none of them seem to make me feel that i have a special bond between them...
adrienne on the other hand is my very best fren...
its different now coz i dun get to tok to her in person..
so im hoping to find someone to fill her spot while im here...
i thought that i will be lucky enuf to fill my current life wif joy and laughter...
but all i get is tears and sorrowz...
sometimes i feel so tensed up that i wanted to end it all...
but i thought hard...i thought deep...
i tell ppl that ending a life is ridiculous...so what the heck am i doing wanting to end it?
im being situpid now...trying to end someting when this is just the starting of a new thing?
im going to assume that this lesson is someting that i have to bare in mind from now on...
nth can stop me from doing what i am doing now..
life may be tough for me now..but im very sure it wont be after a few years..
as for now...im still on a quest to search for that special someone...
it can be anybody...anyone of any religion, of any age (mature enuf of coz), of any kind...
oh well...as for now..i'll stick to my casual frenz and GOD...hehe..
i noe that HE listens to me...
final exams coming...wont be on9 that often....
even if i am....its for research purposes...
will be going back real soon...hope everyting goes on well from now on...
adioz~~have a nice day...
muaxxx

UWA spring festival a.k.a pasar malam....

wow...wat a great nite (sorta)
my first so called pasar malam in perth...
it was the spring festival hosted by students from UWA (Uni of Western Aus)
went there with Darrell and Valerie...
it was amazing when i saw the crowd and all the action tat was going on...
really amazed me....but of coz...99% asian...tats the ting i luved about...
at least it made me feel at home...
it was someting like a party oni a very boring one to me...
its boring coz i dunno anyone there at all...i so wished i didnt go...
but if i didnt go...i wont noe tat ppl here still had life!!(the asians at least...sorry to those auziez)
it was packed wif people young and old...kewlz!!
they had so many stalls there...all sorta asian food from roti canai to sushi rolls...YUMMYliciouz!!
but then of coz i didnt have a HUGE stomache to stuff every single food there..
i had nasi lemak, curry fish balls, sweet rice cakes and some kueh dadar tingy!!
amazing how they can create food from limited fresh ingredients here in auz...
well..can say its edible of coz...suprisingly...i came home w/o stomache pain...
many warned me about the cleaniness but i dun care much bout tat...im going to have food..and not to care so much about their cleaniness and wat not....
one thing's for sure...there were so many leng chaiz man!!
hey galz....its true....UWA and CURTIN certainly have HOT guyz compared to bored old MURDOCH!! (omg...did i just said tat out loud??)
y like tat..so unfair...how come i dun see any leng chaiz in murdoch geh...*sobz*
one more thing i liked about UWA....the buildings are SO beautiful...
it was like a huge castle where there were knightz and maidenz...
there was even a balcony like thingy under the clock (the all famous clock tower in UWA)....
remember the scene where juliet was on the balcony and romeo was down below...it was exactly like it...wow....tats really cool!
ok..enuf of all this...jus wanna say i had a sorta great time there at the festival (not as wat i expected)...
maybe i'll go again next year if i have the transport and ppl to go wif tat is...
if val didnt go tis time...NO WAY was i gonna go yesterday...
i dun wan darrell to dump me all by myself and he goes wondering off wif his frenz..
BIG NO NO!!!haha...
nywayz..thanx darrell...
as for my best fren and me...we're good...all settled...
glad tat was over...*phew*
orite then...back to my work...
spent more then half a day in uni yesterday trying to study...
damm bloody tired....didnt even bother taking my bath b4 going to bed...(oopz)...
adioz then...have a lovely day...
oh yeah...HAPPY BURFDAY TO MY DEAREST ANDREA (IN ADVANCE)...
muaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

another bad day....and i dun hate u for tat

another horrible day...
i oso dunno y im so upset...
the whole show haven even started...
the show where my best fren chose her gf over me..
at tat time...its goodbye for good between me n my best fren...
after 8 yearz...it all ends tonite maybe?
i so do not wan it to end...i really dun wanna loose my best fren....
tats like even harder to overcome then breaking wif bf lar...
if its really gonna happen later...i really will fall apart...
i wont even go for tat event in UWA...
all my access is deleted...lost a fren as well..for stupid reasons...
its oni fair tat i dun join any chan...i join yaya not because im op...i join san's chan oso not because of op...its because ure part of my virtual family...ure my best fren'z gf...i respect u...but shdnt u respect me in return?
u dun wanna join yaya...fine...but u cant ask me to choose between ure chan and yaya...
u told me b4 tat u dun like me joining yaya..but u said it was my choice n ure fine wif it...
now?? wat the..diff story?? so sick of it san...tats y after ad told me to choose..i decided to not joing any chan but one...its not yaya...nor is it ures....
i really feel dissapointed...not only u hate me for dumm reasons...u betrayed me instead...
well ad....im really sorry all tis has to happen...
but im really sure tat san will ask u nt to keep in touch wif me...
maybe even ask u to break our frenship...i noe tat would happen...
maybe it will put u in a tough position..maybe not...
if i were u...i will be having delema and difficutlies as well..
but as for me...i will jus give up my r/s wif my partner and go for my best fren...
u will neva come across many best frenz in ure life...
ure my best fren....i dun wanna loose u or anyone...
i prefer tings to be jus the way it used to be...
but i guess its a whole different story now isnt it...
i really appriciate u as my best fren...we may not do everyting together...but at least i noe tat i got ure back and hoping u got mine too...
tats all i want frm u...but maybe its not gonna happen after all...
i cant help it but sit and sobz....
it really hurts me to hear u cry...it oso makes me hate her for making u cry...
but i noe no matter wat...ure gonna keep crying for her...
giving up my frenship wif elaine was hard enuf...now u??
i really dun wan tat to happen....i may have many good frenz but ure my best fren...and i oni have one best fren...and tats u...
dont u see?? i dun wanna comment so much on san...i noe u love her truely...
so if judgement day is today....i wanna see wat u have to say and wats ure decission...

noe who ure frenz are....

i officially call yesterday (03/09/05) one of the worst day i eva had...
first...argued wif someone over phone bills and calls...
next my best fren somehow tinks tat im lying because of someting soo lame!
not oni is tat bad enuf...my msn really pissed me off as well...
all my emotions were deleted...interesting!!
everyting is just falling apart...noting left to hold me back...
seriously...amongst all...i was really really upset because of wat happened between me and my best fren...u noe who u are..
im really annoyed over wat happen to ure gf's channel and other ppl's channel...
its really lame and childish for someone to drop or hack or watsoever...
whateva ure gf or her fren said...i didnt!
ure gf may call me a coward a looser or wateva...
how do u even noe tat wat she read was even me who wrote it...
i dun go around spredding rumours u noe...
i have more important tings to do then to go around telling ppl that ure gf is a coward or wat not!!
im mature enuf to noe wat is lame and childish...foolish too...
oh well....i noe tat no matter wat..ure going to side for ure wife!!
a best fren is jus a name to u rite?
ive stood there for u...gone tru thick and thin with u...
feel ure happiness and shared ure sorrows...and tis is wat i get in return?
i was hoping tat u would show me some respect and gratitude...
all u give is colours...dark and gloomy ones..
i do not even deserve 1% of all tat ure treating me...
u noe i take it seriously when it comes to frenship...especially wif u when ure my best fren...
oh well..i guess ure partner is the most important one...
i knew u for almost 8 years....and ure believing someone u hardly know of 3 years???
enuf of toking...u dun have to explain anyting...i noe wats going on..
i can see it wif my own eyes...i wont blame u...
nor will i loose my temper on u...
and after all that happened...simple drop of tears will wipe all the sadness away...
all i still noe is tat ure my best fren and it wont change...
eventhough u treated me like im worthless and all...
i'll still share ure happiness and ure sorrows...tats wat true frenz are for...
i'll be there for u...no matter wat...
but the one ting in ure life tat i dun wanna get involve is ure relationship wif her...
ive had enuf...i will no longer bother wat happen to both of u...
i'll listen to wat u say..but i rather keep my mouth shut frm now on..
as i do not want anyting to happen n u putting the blame on me AGAIN!!
best frenz are not ment to have missunderstandings...arguments...and wat not...
we are both mature individuals and u noe wat i mean...
all that happened is no longer in my mind...i pushed the 'yes' button when they asked me am i sure to 'delete'...
its all gone....i saw the sun again...
i had a great time just now..
my nephew asked me for a movie..we watched a funny show-walles and groumet (if tats how u spell it)
i felt a lot better...at least when im watching i dun have to tink about all that just happened last nite...all i knew tat those bunnies are cute and the show was funny...
if ure my best fren...u shd understand wat im going tru...
i hope u oso understand tat im not going to side for anyone..
i wont say ure gf is rite nor will i say her enemy is wrong...
everyone shd jus open their eyes when it comes to knowing who ure real frenz are...
the point is...everyone u noe from the net is not the person u tink they are...
trust oni those u have physical contact wif...not virtual contacts...
get it rite...dun go crying when someone betrayed u...
will u betray me i have no idea...i hope u wont as i truly believe u wont...
if u really plan to betray me because of ure partner....get a life...it wont work...
im jus saying wat i really feel...
may our frenship last the whole eternity...
do take care and im solee i couldnt make it wif u for her bday...
i noe now tat she feels happy and relieved that im not going...
oh well....jus hope u noe wat ure doing...tats all i have to say...
wish u both happy together...may God bless u both!
huggggzzzz

how sickening...

healo my dear frenz...
its a very boring saturday as usual...
so much to do yet dunno where to start...
had so many examz last 2 weekz...
really killing me...the worst part was the practical exam for vet...
tat was horrible..n i mean HORRIBLE!!
first time in my whole entire life that i had a taste in real prac exam man...
it was a total nightmare i can tell u that...
here is how it works...
there are 25 stations in a lab with each station either having fresh speciments, radiography, bone, pictures, histology, or so on...(i dun even wanna keep going on wif the list!)
not oni is tat scary enuf..here's the horrible part...
each station u have 4 individual questions based on what is on the table...
tats not all....we are oni give 2 freaking minutes on each station...wat the...
2 minutes?!?!?!?!
can u imagine how fast 2 minutes go pass?!?!?!?!
its FAST!!! even before u noe it..its gone..after every 2 minutes..the alarm rings and we have to move on to the next station...
FREAKING HELL!!!
100 questions in 50 minutez?!?!?!
thats CRAZY!!! MIND BOBLING!!!
actually...its kinda ez i should say but the fact of having no time at all...i FREAKED out!! TOTALLY!!
knowing that u oni have a few seconds to answer the question...i almost passed out...
at the end...my mind went all blank..i din even noe wat the hack was i doing...
its definately experience!!! u wont noe until u do it on ure own...
i asked the others that have done..they say it was hard shit...and only listening to them say...i tot it was going to be orite...as im kinda well prepared...
but NO!!! it went insane!!!
oh well...its all over...FOR NOW!!!
wait till finalz come...that time i'll make sure i pass out!!hahaha....
the results are yet to be out...plz plz plz...hope i got a reasonable mark...
i dun wish to get like high distinction or anyting..jus give me wat i deserve!!!