another bad day....and i dun hate u for tat

another horrible day...
i oso dunno y im so upset...
the whole show haven even started...
the show where my best fren chose her gf over me..
at tat time...its goodbye for good between me n my best fren...
after 8 yearz...it all ends tonite maybe?
i so do not wan it to end...i really dun wanna loose my best fren....
tats like even harder to overcome then breaking wif bf lar...
if its really gonna happen later...i really will fall apart...
i wont even go for tat event in UWA...
all my access is deleted...lost a fren as well..for stupid reasons...
its oni fair tat i dun join any chan...i join yaya not because im op...i join san's chan oso not because of op...its because ure part of my virtual family...ure my best fren'z gf...i respect u...but shdnt u respect me in return?
u dun wanna join yaya...fine...but u cant ask me to choose between ure chan and yaya...
u told me b4 tat u dun like me joining yaya..but u said it was my choice n ure fine wif it...
now?? wat the..diff story?? so sick of it san...tats y after ad told me to choose..i decided to not joing any chan but one...its not yaya...nor is it ures....
i really feel dissapointed...not only u hate me for dumm reasons...u betrayed me instead...
well ad....im really sorry all tis has to happen...
but im really sure tat san will ask u nt to keep in touch wif me...
maybe even ask u to break our frenship...i noe tat would happen...
maybe it will put u in a tough position..maybe not...
if i were u...i will be having delema and difficutlies as well..
but as for me...i will jus give up my r/s wif my partner and go for my best fren...
u will neva come across many best frenz in ure life...
ure my best fren....i dun wanna loose u or anyone...
i prefer tings to be jus the way it used to be...
but i guess its a whole different story now isnt it...
i really appriciate u as my best fren...we may not do everyting together...but at least i noe tat i got ure back and hoping u got mine too...
tats all i want frm u...but maybe its not gonna happen after all...
i cant help it but sit and sobz....
it really hurts me to hear u cry...it oso makes me hate her for making u cry...
but i noe no matter wat...ure gonna keep crying for her...
giving up my frenship wif elaine was hard enuf...now u??
i really dun wan tat to happen....i may have many good frenz but ure my best fren...and i oni have one best fren...and tats u...
dont u see?? i dun wanna comment so much on san...i noe u love her truely...
so if judgement day is today....i wanna see wat u have to say and wats ure decission...