mizeries are the IN thing for me this season~

im feeling blue, no one to share my storiez, no one to accompany me..
i feel lonely in every corner of this island..
every where i go i end up at a dead end...
my life has been like that ever since...the word misserable describes it all..
i'm not the gal u all use to noe b4...i have doubts about myself...
i spoke to GOD last nite...HE is the only one who understands me now...
HE is the one i can open up to...telling HIM everything that im going tru now...
how mizzerable my life is...this is the life HE has planned out for me...
it has been a tough year being all alone here...
i have frenz but these frenz are just casual kinds...
i havent found someone who can really be there for me...
i wanna find someone who i can tell all my life storiez to...
someone who will listen to me crap about all my mizeriez...
i tell my uni frenz about how my life is turned upside down..
but none of them seem to make me feel that i have a special bond between them...
adrienne on the other hand is my very best fren...
its different now coz i dun get to tok to her in person..
so im hoping to find someone to fill her spot while im here...
i thought that i will be lucky enuf to fill my current life wif joy and laughter...
but all i get is tears and sorrowz...
sometimes i feel so tensed up that i wanted to end it all...
but i thought hard...i thought deep...
i tell ppl that ending a life is ridiculous...so what the heck am i doing wanting to end it?
im being situpid now...trying to end someting when this is just the starting of a new thing?
im going to assume that this lesson is someting that i have to bare in mind from now on...
nth can stop me from doing what i am doing now..
life may be tough for me now..but im very sure it wont be after a few years..
as for now...im still on a quest to search for that special someone...
it can be anybody...anyone of any religion, of any age (mature enuf of coz), of any kind...
oh well...as for now..i'll stick to my casual frenz and GOD...hehe..
i noe that HE listens to me...
final exams coming...wont be on9 that often....
even if i am....its for research purposes...
will be going back real soon...hope everyting goes on well from now on...
adioz~~have a nice day...
muaxxx