dun believe fine...

i just wanna cry now. now i noe im not even important in my family at all. my mum doesnt believe me because she thinks im dreaming. for the first time in my entire life..someone actually dun believe me. and tis is my mum. i had a test today. it was clearly stated that the test's duration is one hour, during the first hour of the lecture which is 2 hours. it ended up to oni be 15 minutes!! what the hell...the lecturer did not even clarify the exact time and when i started writing she said we oni got 10 minutes left. what on earth is happening? i got so pissed off i dunno wat i wrote in that essay. how possible was it to write a 2 page essay in 15 minutes? tats just stupid...oredi im so pissed i told my mum. she thinks tat i am lying and im dreaming in class. she didnt actually said i was lying in front of me but she was scolding my fren for calling her in the middle of a show just to hear me lie!! now i noe tat my mum is sexist! she oni wans to tok to my brother because he is a guy and he is all alone in china. what the hell..m i not alone? i am leaving wif my relatives so wat?? tat doesnt make any difference. i am more alone that u tink i am. i cant take it anymore. can someone tok to me? there is just no one her tat i could tok to. there isnt anyone by my side whom i can tok to. i have so many problems and yet u tink im happy. i am not. i keep my tears because i dun wan ppl to noe my weakness. i may have many frenz but so wat? i dun have them here wif me now. i cant tell anyone anything. i keep everyting to myself. i wan someone to share my sorrows. i wan someone to share my tears. its just so hard being alone here. now tat my mum tinks i lie..it makes tings even worse. i hate my life. i wish i was never born. i wish i am not here. i wish i was dead. then i dun have to cry. i dun have to tink about anything else....i wanna say goodbye to this cruel world......