...you love me or her....wanna be wif me or her...

hei an zhong de wo men dou mei you shuo hua
ni zhi xiang hui jia...bu xiang ni hui jia
ji mo shen de xiang hai tai rang ren hai pa
wen rou ni de shou..qing qing rou zhu wo de fa

ni de mei yan shuo ni hao ke wang wo yong bao
ni shen ti que zai pin ming tao dang yu wang zai ran shao
ni ai wo hai shi ta shi bu shi zhen de ta you bi wo hao
ni wei shui zai zheng zha
ni ai wo hai shi ta...jiu shuo chu ni xiang shuo de zhen xin hua
ni dao di yao gen wo hai shi ta
ai~ai~ai~ai~

zhe shi bu shi ming yun dui wo de cheng fa
ai ni ye mei ban fa hen ni ye mei ban fa
xian zai zhe ge xuan wo zhi xiang zheng tuo ta
la zhu ni de shou que rang wo ye bei tuo xia

ni de mei yan shuo ni bu ke wang wo yong bao
mei dang ai bian cheng le jian ao ni jiu kai shi yao tao

ni ai wo hai shi ta shi bu shi wo ke yi zuo de geng hao rang ni bu zai zheng zha
ni ai wo hai shi ta wo zhu yuan ting dao can ren de hui da ye bu yao zai bei shuai
ni ai wo hai shi ta wo wei ni zhao le yi bai ge li you wo jiu shi na mo sha
ni ai wo hai shi ta shi fou chen mo dai ti ni de hui da wo ying gai ming bai ba

ni ai wo hai shi ta ni du yi kan bu dao wo men de hao wo huan wei shui qian gua
ni ai wo hai shi ta shi fou chen mo jiu shi ni de hui da wo men du bie zheng zha

you were mine...

I Can't Find A Reason To Let Go
Even Though You've Found A New Love
And She's What Your Dreams Are Made Of
I Can Find A Reason To Hang On
What Went Wrong Can Be Forgiven
Without You, It Ain't Worth Livin' Alone

[Chorus:]
Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night
And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name
What Right Does She Have To Take Your Heart Away
When For So Long, You Were Mine

I Took Out All The Pictures Of Our Wedding Day
It Was A Time Of Love And Laughter
Happy Ever After
But Even Those Old Pictures Have Begun To Fade
Please Tell Me She's Not Real
And That You're Really Coming Home To Stay

[Repeat Chorus]

I Can Give You Two Good Reasons
To Show You Love's Not Blind
He's Two And She's Four, And You Know They Adore You
So How Can I Tell Them You've Changed Your Mind

[Repeat Chorus:]

I Remember When You Were Mine

i just got back....

in my last entry i said i wasnt allowed home...but then i got a call frm my dad early the next day (tuesday) asking me if i really wanna go back. he say if i really want to then i can provided i can get a flight back to KL before the funeral (meaning i have to fly out on tuesday itself lor - speechless)...i was very happy to hear tat...so i tot maybe i would be able to go back cuz maybe i will get a place..but i forgot about one ting. it was skool holidays and it was impossible i could get a sit. i called 3 agents and they said all flights to KL on tat day were either fully booked or all bookings and stand by are closed!! left me wif oni one alternative which is to take a plane to S'pore and find my way back to KL...and they told me that there isnt any available flights tat can take me to KL tat day cuz it was fully booked as well!! then i felt very dissapointed...being so naive..i went to an agent outside my house and asked again if there was a flight directly to KL...nope there wasnt...and so i smsed my parents and told them i wasnt able to make it back because got no flight back....*sigh*....then i came back and on9...Mel and Rave were both helping me to find a way so tat i could go to KL when in S'pore. a bus? a train? a flight? and even Mel driving down to either Johor or S'pore to pick me up~!! at first i agreed tat Mel drive down to Johor and i took a taxi there..then i tink and tink..very inconvinient and it was a very messy plan...so i said i dun wanna go back anymore. then they still helped me find ways to go back...Rave helped find flights on9..then Mel found out that there is a flight frm S'pore to KL via MAS at 11pm. then the plan was tat Mel flew there and booked a ticket for me so tat we go back together...(cuz tats wat the stupid MAS ppl in KL told Mel...say cannot book frm M'sia for me -__-")...then Mel called other agents..they say can book frm KL by giving me a ref number once it is paid in KL so tat i can get the ticket in S'pore airport. i tink got conned or someting..the flight was super ex!! RM586 for just one way to KL ( RM486 + RM100 for service charges??)...nevermind..i pay...

i had a very unpleasent flight frm Perth to S'pore!! i puked twice and i had a bad headache!! got to S'pore lagi siao!! i landed in T1 but i had to go to T2 to get my tic and fly off frm there..do u noe how far is T1 and T2?!?!?!?! i walked till my leg almost break!! and the worst part is i had oni less than 2 hours to get the ting settled!! i ran my life out....walked like a crazy lady tat is lost!! finally got everything settled...changed and then waited...reached KL and then ok jor. went to pray my grandpa then went to Steven's corner....the next day was the funeral...u wouldnt wanna noe how i looked like on tat day and the days before and after...i looked so damaged...so pale and my eyes were terribly bengkak!! i wasnt suppose to cry but i cant control in tis kind of situation..im orite now...just miss my parents very much...i was just very very thankful tat my grandpa didnt suffer at all when he took his last breathe...he just went off peacefully in the doctor's hands...my mum was the only one tat was accompanying him on tat day...when the doctor asked my mum to step out for a moment so tat he could check pulse rate..he had oredi gone...just within a minute tat my mum let go of his hands...i feel for my mum...being the last to see him is a very unforgetable moment..if its me...i dunno how i would take it...mum...i feel sad for u..for all the sleepless nitez...take more rest now...he lead a wonderful life before and now he is in the hands of God....and back to his darling wife...he should be fine...dun worry...

the next day after the funeral....my grandpa's spirit came back to my house...we suspected it because someting happened and there wasnt any reason y it happened besides him coming back to where he belonged....i was glad to noe tat he is still around....watching over us...wat happen the other day was incredible....

so now...here i am..back at Perth. yesterday i spent the nite in S'pore!! so now there isnt any excuse saying tat i haven been to S'pore cuz i have~! my aunt and Sean picked me up from the airport...went for dinner at Newton foodcourt..then drow around S'pore. went tru Orchard Rd...went to the East Coast....Clark Quey..Bok Quey (correct ah?)..the 'durian'-Esplanade...saw their version of KL KLCC shopping mall...and other places..i cant remember the names...then went back to Serangoon where they lived. while in the ct..we passed by the 'Crazy Horse'...guess wat tat is..i didnt noe at first..hehe...then Sean wanted to go clubbing i tink...bt i wasnt in the mood for it...sorry Sean..next time we go together la...

im very tired now...i hardly slept on the flight..afraid tat i will puke again...wanna go rest lor...tomolo have to study jor...so many days oredi i didnt study...must really do it tomolo if not im in big trouble..got test coming up somemore..but no matter wat i am very glad i went back...and u noe wat made my parents change their minds?? my mum's boss called my mum up on tuesday morning..saying tat they have to let me come back...and tat he will pay for my flight...my mum say cnt accept..but will let me fly back....when i knew about it..i went to the office to see the boss and told him thank you very much and told my mum not to accept the payment...it shouldnt be tat way...althou i would like someone to pay for my fees....if someone should pay...it should be my uncle and aunties tat should pay....its oni logic...well one of my aunt say she is willing to pay half of my fare...no need la...im meant to come back after all.....so my overall fare back to KL and back here is RM4000~~

may u rest in peace...

today is a very sad and emotional day for me...
i got the news tat my beloved grandpa has left the mortal world...
left me without saying goodbye....
it is very hard for me when i got the news from my mum...
my grandma left me 2 years ago...
now my grandpa...
like my grandma..my grandpa is the second closests ppl in the world after my parents...
i grew up wif them..i stayed wif them for the longest amongst all other grandchildren...
i am the favourite of the lot...
i get all the best things...
now both of them left me...and both without saying their last goodbyez...
at least for my grandma..i get to attend her funeral...
but wat about now?
i dun get to attend my grandpa's funeral...
i cant accept the fact tat he is gone and now im not allowed to return home...
it is not unfair...
i just feel my presence there is needed and is a must tat i be there...
at least let me see him for the last time...
maybe they do not understand how i feel...
i just feel hurt and upset...
i think he will be disapointed to noe that i am unable to attend his funeral...
unable to see him leave...
on the other hand..i noe he will understand the reason y im not there...
he luves me and so he shall forgive me...
grandpa...i promise to go to ure grave when i get back end of this year...
i will bring all that i have not to u and hope u forgive me for the late comings...
now i noe ure soul and grandma's will re-unite...
now u wont be lonely no more...now tat u got grandma by ure side...
i hope you and grandma will have the most wonderful afterlife ever...
the times tat grandma parted u was hard and i noe u struggle to be strong...
ive been there for u in times of needs so i hope i did my part as a grand daughter..
i thank you for all the luv u have given me from the day i arrived on earth...
i thank you for being there for me in times of needs...
making me larf and treating me wif all the goodness a grandchild could ever dream of...
i dun have anything wif me tat belongs to u but ure luv and ure warmth...

i promise to be strong and be the best of me...
im sorry you cant see me graduating...
im sorry for not being able to treat you once...
im sorry if i made u feel uncomfortable...
im sorry if i didnt wrap your bandage nicely...
im sorry for not being there at ure last moments...
im sorry for everything that i have done...

i promise i wont forget wat u tell me...
i wont forget the times we spent together...
and i hope u take wif u our memories for the past 19 years ...

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When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be....

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i just spoke to him on friday and now i wont get the chance to hear him speak anymore...
i hope to hear ure whispers from time to time...
i hope you would watch me from up above...
i hope to see you in my dreamz...

may your soul rest in peace....
on this day dated 17th of April 2006..
the time he parted 12.55pm....
your memories lies deep within our souls...

***in memories of my beloved grandpa***

ive made a very funny fren today....

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====tis is me....f you are so curious to noe my teddy bear lookz...lolx====

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ok..i noe i should be doing my assignment but i was tooo lazy to start typing..found some info on it but haven started putting it together. so...someone chatted wif me...her name is sil...and she is a chef...excellent! she is such a crazy fella leh..from KL, 24 and its her bday tomolo....so HAPEI BDAY TO YOU SIL...she is damm siao..called me just now..keep saying she is my patient and all...*pengsan*...she was in a bad mood i guess but after toking to me she said she larfed and felt better...hmm..everyone seems to say tat after toking to me. am i tat funny?? then she sms me saying tat my voice is so cute...am not being perasan..but many said tat too...i find my voice very rough leh....cute??? i guess its cuz im fat..tats y u tink my voice is cute..hahaha...then we started sms like orang gila...i can say i spent about 20 sms wif her today...i have to keep deleting my inbox n outbox cuz it was soo full....*siao*....and im running out of credit....sorry sil...u come on9 la..then i dun have to sms like crap....i guess she and her partner got some problems ler....tats y she's upset..keep asking will i treat my partner cold when im having examz, will i not care if tis and tat happen..sorry to hear about it sil..bt i hope u guyz had patched tings up oh....as for now..i need to resume on doing my assignment... very tired oh...wanna go uni to study but dunno uni open onot..its easter monday tomolo leh...even shopping malls arent open i tink...tats wat my cousin told me...and i spotted a very nice jacket frm myer...*sigh*...no money buy .. its on sale..about AUD$60....no money..cannot buy..sigh...wanna please myself oso cannot...*spent too much on rubbish*..so i deserve it now tat i cant buy wat i desire...*big sigh*....

no mood liao...signing off for now la...
good nite..and happy easter to u all out there...

oh no....outfit clash!?!?!

just came back frm dim sum in the ct...northbridge there la. packed wif people...until have to wait outside...book oredi but still have to wait..no tables! got the table but it was too small..table for 10 but we had 12..squeeze and cramped lor. wat to do...aiyak..then i saw my cousin sis...she was wearing someting similar to mine..pink turtle-neck top. i felt so paiseh leh. outfit clashing is the worst thing you ever want when u go out...nevermind la...then there's dis waiter...aduii...fell down and made the place dirty...*oopz*...hope he didnt get scolding from the boss oh...had a great meal...very full...cost less the AUD$150 according to my cousin...with tat amount..can eat 5 star hotel dim sum in KL oh...*heartache*..althou not i pay :P

gtg do my things lor..happy easter sunday oh....
have a nice day ya all..
muaxx

wuwuwuw...i wan my mini cooper...

*sigh*....my dad sold the mini cooper oredi....so sad oh...i lurfed tat car a lot.more then my jazz now (obviously)..ever since i got my driving licence i have driven a few cars before...(starting frm good to bad)...

1.Mini Cooper
2.Toyota Camry (d huge and ugly piece of shoit...)
3.Mercedez A-class
4.Honda CRV
5.Toyota Sera (my KL baby...)
6.Honda Jazz (my recent Auzzie born baby...)
7.Proton Wira
8.Perodua Kenari (my college car..how unfair!!)
9.and last but not least the worst of the lot...Perodua Kancil (L-plated..)

so..these are the list of all the cars ive driven...but still my all time favourites are the Mini and the Sera...sadly daddy sold the mini oredi..cuz its so inconvenient to get in and out...its 2 door daddy..wat do u expect?!!?!?! perfecto for me mah..not for u..hehehehe...so since my bro and i not home anymore...he sold of the CRV and got the A-class. just enuf for the both of them and enuf oso when me n my bro goes back home...very spacious for a tiny lil car...i still prefered mini!!

i remembered the first time i drove the mini...it was to my grandma's grave in Nilai Memorial Centre...wohoo..i made my cousin bro frm spore so damm bloody jles..i made him sit behind and cramped the hell out of him...even before we took off he oredi said he wanted to drive the mini..i say cannot cannot..u no licence..(he is 2 years older then me :P)..but he keeps insisting that he has a military licence which is a useless piece of card..muahaha...then i tink my dad got so pissed off cuz he kept bugging my dad to let him drive..so my dad asked me to give him the key when we reached the Memorial Centre..he drove for about a meter and tats it..hahaha..his mum nagged at him so much he got fed-up...*sigh*..i really missed the car...gonna buy it when i start working..hopefully it will be my first OWNED car...(besides the jazz :P)...i cant wait...and the best part of it is...its under BMW..my dream car manufacturer~

enuf for now...gotta dry my hair and watch the iron chef...

konbanwa...

a nite of cruelty...

firstly..i would like to wish everyone a happy good friday...still got 6 minutes till its over and its gonna be easter saturday...

spent the whole day cleaning my wardrobe...*wow*...tatz a whole lot of clothes i have in tat cupboard...i got so pissed off when i couldnt find the shirt i wanted so i threw everything out of the wardrobe and packed everything tat i didnt like into a luggage..hahaha...anyone wants my clothes?? just kidding...i wont give away my clothes unless i cant wear them. dun larf ah..i noe this might sound a lil crazy but i still have my all time fav dresses when i was young, my kindergarden uniform, primary skewl uniform and my secondary skewl uniform. i hope my mum haven thrown them away though. i guess she will if she opens my wardrobe back home. hehe...

ok..so tat was in the afternoon..then in the evening after dinner...wanted to watch tv but got distracted by my frenz...oni when i wanna do someting that i get so many msges...irritating leh....nvm..forgiven. had video conversation wif one of my darlingz...then had video conversation wif rave....told orange some stuff..and got scolded of her cuz i shouldnt have done someting...

hmm..rave cut hair ede wor....looking good...and wif tat headset on ure head u look like a receptionist...muahaha..just kidding...

now..movie time....dunno y tis few days hor..tv show those ancient kinda shows...like hanibal: rome's worst nightmare, genkhis khan, the ten commendments, passion of christ and so on...i am so into those war-aka-fighthing showz...but i owayz watch a bit then switch channel..see someting interesting then forget about the previous channel...then when the ad comes around....i switch back...*oopz*...wat happen then?? haha...

anyway..watched genkhis khan just now...yer..so cruel..those mongolianz...wat they did to the chinese and their prisoners...CRUEL!! burn, kill, slotter, and then rape...tats wat these men are good for...uneducated barbarians (one of my darlingz fav phrase)...kill nvm...of of the ways they killed their enemies...boiling them alive...*puke*....i am so gonna get nightmares man....*hair raising*...then i watch passion of christ....my fren say it was banned in msia wor....*no idea*....wahliao..tat one lagi cruel...i may not be a christian but i watched the show anyway...the way they treated 'jesus of naterzath (forgot how to spell tis)'.....it was worst then threatening a beast!...i cant continue..it scares me...and i ended up crying...cuz of the cruelty of those men....

**a man who kills with a sword will die with by a sword**
**love your friends like how i loved you**
**drink my blood and it will clear your sins**
(not to sure about tis phrases as well....sorry....if i said someting wrong)

im really sorry if i offended any part of the christian religion in this entry...im no christian so pls forgive me for if i said someting wrong...

its after 12 and its easter saturday...hope you all christians and non-christians have a wonderful easter weekend...enjoy all the over-joyous tastes of chociez.....carefull not to eat too many kayz..watch ure diet and watch out for those nasty pimplez...i oredi had so many just eating one little egg...*sobz*...face full of pimple...pimple queen..who wants me now...wuwuwuwuuwuw.....

signing off as a blue easter bunny...nite nitez~~

hidden luv....

How can I begin to explain?
This feeling that bonds me to you like a steel chain,
It holds me back, when you are near,
When I'm afraid, when I'm in fear.
Every night in my dreams, I feel you near,
Are you so blind, you cannot see?
What I feel for you is so, so real,
But, should I tell you how I feel?

Why do I feel this way?
The same emotion day after day,
How could I know our friendship would turn out this way?
Am I doing the right thing by telling
you how I feel?
Or when I wake-up, will this just NOT be real?

I'll always remember the talks we shared,
That sometimes could last all day,
When we were comfortable say nothing,
The silence would be okay.

For you, I would gladly walk a mile,
If that would give me a chance to see you smile,
I'd call you my friend, but that's a lie,
You mean more to me,
but I can't explain why.

For you are more precious to me
than all of the world's gold,
But I can't tell you that,
how can I be that bold?
If I spoke what's on my mind,
would you accept me?
Because without you,
I don't know where I'd be.

Things you don't know, feelings I don't let show,
Secrets, hidden deep in my soul,
I would love the chance to show you what you deserve,
A chance to give you more than the whole universe.

I can't describe how much you mean to me,
For SHE is always there - clouding your vision,
so you may not see,
I don't even try to explain, how my heart yearns for you, Because I know I can't compare to her -
no matter what I do.

I don't know if I should forget it or just give it time,
I wish I could keep my heart from controlling my mind,
I know someday, I will eventually find
But only when it is right and in God's due time.

So until the day, that her spell is broken,
I must keep my love for you - unspoken, As I sit and watch the calm, gray sea,
I wonder if true love between us can ever be.

from the beginning till the end..

Naege or su eobseur georago igen geureorsu eobdago
Jebar geumanharago nareur daraeji
Jeongmar ijeobeorigo sipeo borsu eobdamyeon
Nareur jabgo ineun neo oe modeungeor

Chorus:
Naega ugo sipeurddae mada neon nareur ureobeorige mandeu nigga
Eoneugeo hanado na oe ddeudaero neon har su eobge mandeu neungeor
Niga urgo sipeurddae mada nan ireohge muneojyeo beorigo manigga
Amuri ijeuryeogo aereursseo ijeur su eobge hanigga

Jeongmar ijeobeorigo sipeo borsu eobdamyeon
Nareur jabgo ineun neo oe modeungeor

Repeat Chorus

Da hansarangeur saranghaneunge itorog himneun irinjur nan jeongmar
Morasseo

Repeat Chorus
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English Translation

You will never come back to me and you can't do it,
please stop doing so, you comfort me like this..

If I can't see you again, I really wanna forget..
all about you that hold me back.

Whenever I wanna laugh, you make me cry..
You keep me from doing even one thing as I want..
Whenever I miss you, I break down like this.
Even though I try to forget, I cannot do it..

*If I can't see you again, I really wanna forget..
all about you that hold me back.

Whenever I wanna laugh, you make me cry..
You keep me from doing even one thing as I want..
Whenever I miss you, I break down like this.
Even though I try to forget, I cannot do it..
I didn't realize loving one is so hard like this

I really cannot do it....I'm sorry...

my memory....

everything seem so clear now. i can see now that im just an ordinary gal who is waiting for someone. the wait is killing me and i decide not to. im giving up and im gonna move on whether onot ure coming back to me. ive waited long enuf and knowing you're not making any move...its all over. the thought of having you is extremely calming. but to tink that ure hugging someone else is a nightmare. i cant imagine having to share you wif someone else other then myself. i am greedy..isnt luv suppose to be tat way? well...you're generous enuf to share and tat is y im quiting this game. quit playing games wif my heart...it was once broken into rough pieces of glass but now its all crushed into dust and its blown away wif my soul.

have you watched winter sonata? i wish our luv was like chun siang's and yu chen's. strong as ever. if getting into 2 mobile accidents would make our luv tat strong...i oni wished it happened. i wished tat my memories are erased and i could luv u all once again, as a different person mentally. if it means i have to give up someone tat luves me truely..i will. the fact of knowing tat you luv me so much makes my heart bleed. how can i be with someone who luves me when out there...someone else who once luved me and still does...and is waiting for me to return? its impossible. i dun wanna care wat other people has to think of us both. i dun care even if our parents disagree. i just wanna be wif you and nothing else matters because i know you luv me too. being able to see you and be in your arm at nite is good enuf. i wont ask for more. when we start to age...i hope we age together. with you beside me im not afraid of anyhting. i know when i put out my hand you will grab it and hold it tight. i know that if i fall you are there to catch me. we went tru so much just to be together...i just hope tat ppl could see our luv and let us go.

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Modu gi eoghaeyo geu sungan
Nuneur gameumyeon aju jageun irdo bo ineyo

You are far away
Daheur su eobneun gose
Saranghandaneun mardo gidarindaneun mardo haji mohago

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Jeongmar morajyo geudaer ireohge
Daji manar jureun saengag jocha mohaesseojyo
Ajig neor saranghae ijerado nege gobaeghargge
I wanna love you forever
Neuji anhadamyeon ireohge nawahamge yeongwenhi

Oraedongan
Geudaen na oe gaseume

Manheun sigan heureodo aju meori isseodo
Sara isseojyo

Repeat *
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I remember everything....
I can’t see even a little thing when I close my eyes.

You're far away, somewhere that I can’t reach,
I didn’t say I love you or I will wait for you,
I really didn't imagine meeting you again...

I still love you,
I confess to you now,
I wanna love you forever if it is not too late,
I want you to be with me forever...

Even though my heart lived without you for a long time,
You were always in my heart,
I really didn't imagine meeting you again....I'm glad I did...

*edited the translation..couldnt understand the ori one....*

darrell's bday today...

oopz! today is darrell's bday mah?? im not too sure oh...i was checking my friendster then i saw his name on the bday list oh...correct onot wan ah?? anyways...happy bday to u darrell...last year we had dinner together and i didnt noe it was to celebrate ure bday...*big oopz*...solei oh...well...as for this year..i hope you have a smooth year ahead and yes..ure older by a year *hooray*...hahaha...now i have to add someone on my bday calendar...i must keep myself updated lar...so backwards jor...i oni remember a few important ppl's bday..others kinda not sure the exact date but noe the month....*aduuiii* really solei....come on...tell me when are ure bdays and i make sure it'll be the one i wont forget ever again...*blek*

once again.....HAPPY BURFDAY DEARY DARRELL.....have a wonderful day.....

loads of lurf...huggiez

looking good pal...

just finished toking to my best pal in melb now. so late liao and she is still up...as usual...she sleeps soo late and she still can manage staying up during the day...she does fall a sleep in class but who doesnt rite onot. :P she showed me her room...and those posters on her wall...*speechless* hehe...will help u find somemore if my uni got sell them oh..then i can post it to u..kakaka...her room is small....and kinda messy too *oopz*....no maid to help her clean up oh...poor thing...anyway...was glad to tok to her...felt much happier cuz she was so funny..toking and all...once i get my darn mic i shall be able to tok to many ppl...no need to type soo mafan...safe me on buying call cards somemore..muahaha..broke...

adrienne is soo lucky oh..she got selected amongst sooooo many students for ISV-International Student Volunteer...how kewl is tat..she told me about it and now she has to find money and hope her mum approves it....*fingers crossed*...good luck pal..u better go...its like a chance of a lifetime..its not tat often that u get selected for tis kinda things u noe...how kewl is tat...hearing u tok about it makes me wanna go to...but unfortunately..dun have tat chance...hopefully you will get the job u wanted...get some money for the trip and earn some money so tat ure wifey can go melb visit u oh...*sweet*....wish you all the best pal...

really glad to tok to u today oh....take care..and hopefully u are sleeping now!! or else....i cant imagine u falling asleep in the library again wif everyone staring at u leh..hhahhaha...

mizz ya pal.....cya tomolo..take care..muaxxxxxxxxxx..huggiez

as for now...good nite to all perth-ians....and m-sians....*shut litez*

should i larf or should i sob?

just recently, my nephew showed me this video clip of this chinese dude tat remade the harlem yu's 'qing fei de yi' mv...it was really funny. apart of being farny...it was a sad thing for me to see it. it was wat i experienced before and tat makes it bad. while i was watching it...i didnt noe whether i should larf my buttz off or just sigh softly inside. of cuz i larfed...wat was i suppose to do? my nephew was there...i noe im a cry baby...but tat doesnt mean anything *hiak* you just cant control ureself when ure in love rite? especially when the one you lurf is someone that you noe u couldnt have...not in tis life tat is...

i had a wonderful week last week...had a family gathering on april foolz day *weird* then had a family picture taken...wonder how it turned out.....im pretty sure i look awfully weird...sad case...owayz take picture oso not nice geh..not photogenic ler....sad sad sad...wonder if i can get my hands on one of the pictures..then i can post it here..

wanna go shopping tis sunday...but monday got 2 tests...*sigh*...how often do i go sunday shopping in perth huh? its open!! and i cant go...pretty sad la my life...wanna shop but no money..wanna buy wat oso must tink...tats the good thing about having a bf rite? at least he will consider buying someting for you once in a while...or even better...buy stuff even if you dun wan him to waste money on you...*im on a quest now* hahahaha...just kidding...i kinda miss shopping in kl leh...i can just buy watever i desire..without even looking at the price..here...i have to see the price tag..see where its made...somemore i have to convert and tats hurting my wallet....and wat i hate the most is im paying so much for china products..at least in msia..its made in msia or someting...i rather buy 'buatan malaysia' then 'made in china'!! hate tat...cheap stuff...*bluek*....its like wear and tear...*terrible*...

shopping shopping...oh i wan to go shopping so badly...shopping buddy is hard to find ler..especially when my shopping buddy is in Sydney..babe..i miss you so much!! hope your fren is fine oh....God will be there by his side all the time..no worries gal..he'll be as fine as a fiddle...

*please pray for my fren's fren in Sydney who fell from playing basketball*
*hope he is recovering ASAP*

...the weakness in me and you...it wont just leave...

I'm not the sort of person ... who falls in and quickly out of love
But to you, I gave my affection, right from the start.
I have a lover who loves me.......how could I break such a heart?
Yet still you get my attention.......

Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough?
Why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone?
...make me lie when I don't want to,
...make someone else some kind of an unknowing fool?
You make me stay when I should not?
Are you're so strong or is it all the weakness in me.
Why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?
I need to see you......I need to hold you.....tightly....

Feeling guilty,
Worried.......waking from a tormented sleep
'Cause this old love, you know it has me bound,
But this new love cuts deep.
If I choose now, I'll lose out...
One of you has to fall...
I need you....and you...

Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough?
Why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone?
...make me lie when I don't want to,
...make someone else some kind of an unknowing fool?
You make me stay when I should not?
Are you're so strong or its all the weakness in me.
Why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?
but I need to see you......I mean to hold you.......tightly......