my dad, your dad, our dad...everyone's dad...wat diff does it make anyway?

haven been typing my blog for the past couple of weeks..
by now you should noe its cuz i am bz wif exams..
finished mid terms and finalz are coming oredi...
time flies so fast and before you noe it..first semester is over and 2nd semester is just around the corner....*wow*..and to think tat time passes so slow here...

it was my darling su ee's bday last 26th. didnt type it here..so HAPPEI BELATED BURFDAY DAR...she is the cutest and funniest gal in college..she never fails to larf..never fails to brighten someone's day and its amazing how her life is so perfect despite her parents who are going tru seperation...
she may be a happy-go-lucky person but when it comes to family...she has to be somehow upset that its gonna end this way...i dunno..tats just me...
luv ya dar~~

rite..just scrolled tru elaine's blog...and guess wat..i haven seen her tis mad in my whole entire r/s wif her.....
it was shocking..at first i tot she was toking about her partner...but when i read on..it was because of her dad....
it has owayz been tat way..jus tat i haven seen her like tat before...
i tink while she was typing tat entry...she must be so angry she wanna kill someone that instance...maybe even if given the chance she would wanna kill her dad?? maybe....who noes?
dads....great and small...fat and thin...fierce and kind....bald and with hair....loving and deceitful??
personally i dunno wat kind of person is her dad but from how she describes him...he is a nightmare for every child...
i wont describe him here...its just not rite..i have to respect him in some ways...
if your dad was a sexist..how would you feel?
if my dad was a sexist...i would feel even more horrible then how she is feeling now..
being the only daughter in the family..it is oni fair that i feel miserable...
i dunno if my dad is a sexist..does he favour my brother more then me?
does it have any advantage at all being a guy?

elaine..i really noe wat ure going tru now...as i have experience tis myself...
its not as extreme as ures but still..it made me the underdog and i hated it as much as u did...
ure dad may owayz compare u wif ure sis and ure bro..so wat?
just as long as u noe tat ure better then them tats all it matters..
y even bother wat others might say?
u noe its not true..and the more u tink about it the more ure damaging ure self esteem...
when i was younger..my bro gets better things then me...
he goes to private schools...boarding private schools...and it costs a fortune..
and whenever he gets into trouble i am the first to get blamed..
we were like cats and dogs..
we cant sit still together without starting a fight or an argument..
i remember when we were in primary skewl..he hit me on the back and tat made me so mad i wanted to kill him...and yet all he gets is a lil scolding and i get the worst cuz i was the elder one..
its really unfair sometimes because he caused the shit and i am to blamed for his shit...
time passed and i grew up to be a lady...u should be too...despite the physical appearence..
im not trying to say ure dad is rite onot..maybe there is another side to the story..
maybe he is doing all tis to make u a stronger person...
i noe u are oredi a stronger person but it maybe likewise from ure dad's point of view...
he may favour boys more and favour ure younger sis more..that doesnt mean he isnt proud of ure doings...
he is...he should be..which parent arent proud of their own child?
you may feel he is being unfair..and even if he is...you wont even get the chance to be in ireland...
u should be thankful about it...but i guess ure not?
i shouldnt be saying all this..who am i to even advice u or anything..
im just me...and to u..i am not even as good as u....
ure bright and you should be smart enuf to figure tis out...
stop tinking how bad ure dad is treating you...
just pretend he is invinsible and i can tell u....
u say u hate him now but when time comes...u noe u dun mean it...
ure lucky to have a dad...olthou he isnt wat u want..
appreciate him elaine....u oni have one dad..no more...
i may dislike my dad for wat he had done to me..but its all over...i dun keep anger within anymore..i let it go and i am a better person...
u have to forgive and forget.....?
maybe he thinks tat he earns so much for u all and he expects you all to shine..not just ure bro and sista...
every family has its problems...wats ures i dunno...
you may be soooo eager to leave ure country and dissapear forever?
thats kinda sellfish of you...have u ever thought about ure family?
wat do u tink ure parents would tink of u? especially ure dad....
he is the one who made it possible for u to be who u are in the future...
arent u a little thankful at all?
u oni speak of his negative sides..how bout wat he has done for u althou its just a small thing?
im really sorry for saying all this but u have to look at things a diff way elaine..
relax..u'll get wat u wan soon...freedom and a world without ure dad...
im just thankful for where i am today....without my mum and dad...it wont even happen..
i cant even afford any of this...and they made it possible even its financially not supportive..
i may seem like a burden to them cuz my mum is not gonna work soon and my dad..he has to work so hard in keeping his company going...
my parents are oredi old enuf...and yet they still have to pay off both me and my bro....
i feel greatfull.....i may not come from a rich family but at least i am happy...
i have seen many of my frenz..they are filthy rich but their lifes are as miserable as they are...
just be thankful....dun hate someone cuz u tink he hates u too...
tats wrong...very wrong...family members dun hate each other..
no matter how much they dun like u..they wont hate u and wish tat u were an accident...

chill elaine....*big hug*...luv ya gal!! *cheerz*