Sunday, July 30, 2006

our luv...wo men de ai...

I fuzzily remembered when I was young, the clouds floated in the blue blue sky...
At that time you said, you wanted to hold hands with me, together walking to the end of time...
In the past I could not dare to look up to see, it seemed as if my sky lost it's colour...
From that day, I forgot to breathe, the tears forever no more, no more weeping...
Our love, after a while it will not return, it now knows I still quietly wait...
Our love, I understand , has already become your burden...
Only forever, I can not let go, the final warmth, your given warmth...
I don't want to ask whether you love me, now I only want the sky...

shoa nien...the teenage years...

你又想起某个夏天
You recalled that one summer again

热闹海岸线
The bustling coastline

记忆中的那个少年
The young man in your memory

骄傲的宣言
And his proud declaration

伸出双手就能拥抱全世界
Stretch his arms and he can embrace the world

相信所有的梦想一定会实现
Believing that all dreams will eventually come true

一切看起来都不会太遥远
Everything doesn't seem so far away

转眼之间过了几年
In the twinkling of an eye, a few years have passed

轻浮的语言都已经慢慢沉淀
His words have become less frivolous, more down-to-earth

即使难免会变得更加洗练
Though it's inevitable that we'll mature through experiences in life

我们不曾妥协
We've never succumbed to that

那是我们都回不去的从前
We can never return to that past

幸好还可以坚持当时的信念
Thankfully, we can still persist in what we believed then

世界尝试改变
The world tries to change

当初的那个少年
The young man then

那是我们都回不去的从前
We can never return to that past

当你站在那个夏天的海岸线
When you stand at the coastline of that summer

我们还是心里面
Deep down, we're still

那个偏执的少年
The young men with childish obstinacy

if i were in the dream u had....

i dunno if i ever appear in ure dreamz...
if i do...wat was i doing in ure dreamz?
were we happy together or did we end up arguing like b4?
who else were there besides the both of us...was she there?
im pretty sure she is....cuz u still tink of her without even telling me the truth...
deep down inside i noe u wan to see her again...hold her again..and patch tings up wif her again...
i wont let u do tat anymore....i will never give away wat was meant to be mine again...
i wont let u see her again..i wont let both of u be frenz again....i wont let u tink of her or even mention her name in ure dreamz...
i hate u when u lied to me...i hate it when u use hands which touched her b4 to hold mine...
u gave ure heart to her b4...dun return the heart she had b4 to me...
i dun wan anyting tat has been touched by her to be given back to me....
i hate hearing her name...each time a personality on tv tat has the same name as her..i will turn the channel..listening her name being called makes me sick to the tummy...
i hate her so much it makes me hate u equally as much...
she stole u from me....i wanted to make her suffer for wat she did to me...
but i guess wat u did to her is hurting enuf....i dun blieve u did wat u did to her..
i luved u so much i wanted u to have good tings....and for all i noe..she copied me!!
she gave u someting i gave u b4....wahliao..when i knew it i so wanted my version back...
mine may not be as 'nice' and as modern as hers but at tat time...it was wat u liked....
for all i noe.....she may have given u everyting i gave...just a later version of mine...
im sooo glad tat she is noting like me...if she is....im gonna hate myself too...
so if u wanna return everyting tat belongs to me...plz make sure she didnt touch it b4...if not..go cleanse it first..make it pure again then return it to me...
its not rocket science....its simple stuff..noting tat u cant handle....

Saturday, July 29, 2006

my star for tis week..

got tis from a magazine...it reads:

"Go-ahead planets galvanise u and set the scene for a successful foray into a venture. and while the thrill for u may be the chase, you will also be delighted with the result"

im not so interested wif the above statement but wat caught my eye was the bottom part of the page where it says..Happy Birthday today...

"Perhaps the past year is one you would prefer not to repeat but in hindsight u will see that it has taught u wonderful surviving skills. And with the belief no goal is too daunting, u will raise the bar even higher in the coming mths"

tis past few weeks i started to read my horoscope...and things tat happen after reading it seems pretty true...everyting went accordingly...i noe we shdnt trust tis tings too much...but tis is pretty accurate....and wat it said about my day today....it is exactly true..spot on!! last year really was a nightmare and i wont wan to repeat it ever again...

noting really..just tot i put this up...im just happy tat tings are really going smoothly for me..wif all the support i got from ppl around me..im just overwelmed...u guyz mean the world to me...without ure support i wont be able to stand strong again...thanx..for those who dunno wat the heck is going on...sorry then...i guess i didnt tell u....i wont wanna mention it again...so dun ask me la...its gone and is not returning...tats the last ive seen of it...-end-

another bday...

slept at 1 someting last nite...boil porridge wif a couple of frenz...
got wishes during my sleep...the phone rang a few times and i had to wake up and answered...
wanted to wake up at 10 tis morning but got smses frm a few ppl so i had to wake up..the sun was shining into my room...so i woke up la...
cousin rang said her car got prob...so later a bit oni go out...
she noe its my bday wor...hehehe...got calls and smses...its oni once a year where i get soooo many msges coming in at once...bz replying and toking till phone no bat :/ din bother charging...cuz going out liao mah...so just leave it la...now left one bar nia...
so went out....cousin treat me lunch...ate japanese food..yummy!! then went shopping...retail therapy...dunno wat to get for myself..ended up buying the same tings...wanted to buy a pair of boots...but din see one tat i like...so its clothes, jewellery, and bags again lor...
went to 3 malls today...karrinyup, inaloo and garden city...
had tea in GJ...cousin treated me again...i ate cake...so ok la...i did eat a cake for my bday..hehehe..just no candles no cutting...but good enuf...
got even upgraded iced choc drink...wahliao so damm full...tat time 4.30 jor....how to eat dinner!!
so now is 7 plus...i still haven eaten....waiting for my cousin come over then eat together...aunty n uncle went out for some dinner...got crabs tonite...hehehe...no its not sweet and sour crabs wif baked/steamed bunz...hahaha...just normal chili crabz i tink...
so yea...tats about it...tats wat i did for my bday....
no party, no clubbing and no drinking!! hahahaha...
im happy eventhou i din party like b4...at least i wasnt lonely la....i got company mah..
my frenz ask me to go out...but i didnt go...i rather shop till i drop...wahahahahaha...happy tat they asked me out oso la...
pretty tired...legs a lil tired...but my mind is still very energized....
any changes since i turned 20?? not really..im still me...maybe there will be changes soon..but not yet..im still growing and trying to leave my under 20's behind...(not like there's any diff)...
later my pal calling me....hehe...boil porridge on the phone again...
dunno in time to watch iron chef onot..hehee...i saw a book on tat show..*pengsan*
rite then...i go dry my hair then glue myself in front of the tv then once i finished everyting i will on9 and chat till morning....see ya~

yeepeee...happy bday to me....

2 and a half hours ago i was oredi 20 actually..in melbourne tat is...
but now in perth..im officially 20!! *weeeeeee*
thankz for all the burfday wishes from u, u and u over there...
thanx a lot....u guyz are the best!! luv u all forever!! im 20..so dun bully me ah....
i may be older by a year but im oso wiser by the year...muahahaha..
so dun take advantage of me or ure looking for unwanted trouble...muahaha...
luv ya all alot!! muaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx......happy burfday me!!!

Friday, July 28, 2006

im frustrated...

firstly...i noe i shdnt be toking about tis but i just cant stand her attitude anymore...
she is sticky...her breath smells...she's annoying...she is pethatic!!
like today...in the lab...we had histology...the ones in our lab were high tech where one table got about a dozen microscope but one mother microscope...where it projects out watever is on the slide..so someone needs to drive the mother one...
no one was sitting in tat position..i din wan to be the one steering the wheel cuz im not good wif microscopes..not even the manual ones...i played wif it last time but tis time cnt play la..cuz its a group tingy...and i hardly noe the other members on the table..
so tis 'fella' tat im annoyed wif...she has done a unit b4 and it uses a lot of this microscope ting..and she sorta noe's how to work wif it...
so the lecturer say if u have experienced wif it b4 then they shd steer...she was like damm bloody LCLY....folded her arms and sat on a rather stupid position as if she has got no backbone...she even raised her hand up when the lecturer asked who noes how to use that ting..but when asked to sit in front to steer she was like dun wan la...dun wan la...like 'jual mahal' (play hard to get)...wat the...frm tat moment i was like so annoyed...and someone even said she was the expert on tat table for using tat..and she was like larfing larfing as if she was really one...annoying!! and in the lab...she was so damm irritating..toking non stop!! it really got on my nerve...i controlled and tried not to have eye contact wif her...annoying lil 8 year old...i tink an 8 year old oso not so annoying like her...and she is the kind of person where if she's alone..she will stick to u...and if she's not..she'll pretend ure not even there...wat sorta person is tat???im really pissed off today because of the ego...other then tat...

my day was again another rushing one...

i woke up early to go to the gym..end up waking up late...wanted to go to the ct one but went to the cannington one...rushing and forgot to bring swim cap and goggle...crap...nvm...
i noe tis is stupid but i almost slept in the steam room :x hahahaha...i didn cuz it was uncomfortable..hahaha....couldnt imagine myself sleeping in the steam room...
rushed back home...hung my towel and swimwear then rushed to uni....then rushed for the bus to go down to the city to collect a book for my cousin...shoit then i realise i forgot my umbrella! i left it in my gym beg *crap*...the bus was late and tat ah pek driver was driving so slow!! i had lab at 1.30 and i omost couldnt make it...well blame myself..i dropped into one of the shops to buy clothes..hahaha..saw my fren..tok a while then faste grab my lunch and ran!! got into uni on time...still had time to go toilet..hehee..lab was pretty boring cuz it was just introduction...

pretty impressed wif the number ppl who wished me even b4 the actual day...and guess wat..i am oredi 20 in melbourne..hahaha....my bestest pal msged me and said tat...hahaa..huggiez pal...im officially 20 in melb but not perth...lolx..about 1 hour 25 minutez more...happy happy happy!! yeepee........i'll come back later..cheerzz

Thursday, July 27, 2006

pretend dunno ah?

u noe there are some ppl...they noe someting...
its obvious that they noe it but they pretend like they have no idea about it at all..
they dun even make an effort asking u whether its true...
tat really bothers me a lot...
if u noe someting and seem uncertain...just come up to me and ask la...
dun act as if ure playing a game of i hide and u seek...
itz so cold now i cant tink about wat im suppose to type next...
my hands are frozen and tat doesnt help much now does it...
heater by my side...i am so gonna 'roast' my hands for a bit to melt the 'ice-cube'...
its been raining the whole week and its gonna be like tat till next week....
ish...the ting about raining is tat i cant go to plces i wanna go or even do the tings i wanna do...
bad weather brings me down a lil...
rainy days makes me tink alot about tings...and my mind gets a lil distracted...
it'll start tinking about tings tat i shdnt even tink about...
tomolo...gonna rain again...but im going down to the ct...
i need to pick up some stuff...the docket gonna end jor..so if i dun go tomolo then aikz...dunno wat will happen tim...will definately bring my umbrellie...hehehe...
im still not used to getting up so early yet...
still in holiday moods but i am so looking forward to studying...
need to kick the hols mood away a.s.a.p or else im in big trouble...
like now..im oredi sleepy...
back when im on hols...my eyes are wide open now...about 2 or 3 oni eyes start to shut...
geez...y cant i do tat now as well...tat would be great...
dun dare try...later cnt wake up for uni next morning...
i so wanna go swimming now...im just luving the water too much apart frm the smell i get after tat...i wonder wat i did to get rid of the smell last time...or maybe i didnt...maybe in the younger years i just went to school everyday smelling like the pool :x
cant be ba...all i remembered is tat i had problems wif chlorine in the pool...it made my hair fall off..tat was my most upsetting moments in school...
well not fall off totally..just obvious tat i am having hair lost prob....
lucky tat lasted oni for a while...spent a fortune to go see specialist to get my hair prob fixed...
had to use some smelly shampoo..yuck...it smelled weird, looked weird, felt weird and cost so damm expensive...wif the price of one bottle of that shampoo..i could buy one aussie text book leh...but it helped me wif my probz so yeepee...i dun care how much it cost...neither did my mum...she was the greatest...helping me find the best specialists there is in kl...huahuahua..thanx mum...
i seem to be going out of topic here..y suddenly toking bout my hair??
not sure how tat started and didnt bother erasing it anywayz...
going to bed pretty soon....still unsure of my plans tomolo...shd i bring soup to uni?? but i din buy the french loaf!! i'll just hang around for a while..pack my bag for tomolo then slack around again..tats wat i recently like to do b4 going to bed...just walk around my room (not tat there's a lot of space for me to move)...touch tis touch tat..then satisfy jor then go bed..hahaha..weird..
nite nite bloggerz...hugzzz

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

do u noe how expensive medical related books are?!?!?!

geez...again i was in such a rush...
had lectures n labs tru out the day...
classes from one end to the other then back again...
i wore shoez tis time...so not really a prob...
in lab...interesting...we get to touch ppl's butt'z...hahaha...
not exactly the buttock but close enuf...
it was first lab and oredi we had to strip halfway...just unzip the pants and lay down...
we were suppose to identify the PSIS...and some other bone on the pelvis...
partnered wif my fren....i became the 'patient' then she did her ting la...if not sure can ask the 4th years student..so tis guy he identified for her and he pressed so hard!! geez...slow down pal...
then rotate a few ppl...then switch turns...i became the dr...not bad..i got it the first time i touched someone's butt...quite hard to find if u dunno where it is...easier to find if got dimples...
so get to identify diff ppl for the first day..yeepeee....
next week...bikini time...we have to wear bikini cuz ez to identify mah...
after lecture..went and pay for a 'spine' model...500 buckz!! dunno back home how much...
then went to curtin and walked my buttz off to the bookshop..lucky my fren was wif me...my gosh...walk about 20 minutez then bought 2 skinny books for another 450!! im so broke...but its for good use...and its good for referencing and so ok..money not wasted...hehe...
couldnt get my hands on 2nd hand ones cuz ppl not willing to sell...all wanna keep...
ok la...so mum asked me to buy new ones..no choice mah....
i soooo have to pay my mum back for all the money i spent on books and equipments...
got home at 6 pluz..tired crap....got so many sms...i couldnt even bother replying...
im out of credit...cz i called sydney wif my mobile so many times tis week...my bill is going sky high again..sighz....oh well....

haven bath yet...just ate finish so cant bath just yet...
dun tink i wanna watch 'house m.d' tonite...wanna bath then wrap my books...
then sleep..tomolo got 8.30 lab...tired!!! i hope i am not late for lab man...
alarmz...dun fail me now!! hugzzzz....

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

*weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

got home pretty late today...finished class at 2.30 then went to buy some books then cabut to the gym....
so many ppl la!! all finish work then pop in the gym....
a bit tired cuz a few days din go gyming jor...
got home...then got a burfday card frm parents...weeeee...

tis few mths hor...pretty bad ler...
first my cousin's mum passed away...then my grandpa then 2 of my uncle's frenz..
then a few days ago..another of their fren...then tis moring...another one...
OMG....its like one after another and its freaking me out!!

yesterday got mood swing le..dunno y...
temper went sky high....toking on the phone i raised my voice then while chatting i had a rough tone...even to my mum oso...*sigh*
but today was a great day...i was rushing a lil in the morning..but after tat the whole day was great...again...apart from getting wet frm the rain again....
u noe me...im so used to wearing high heels and platform...i just dun like wearing shoes..boots are an exceptional item....
everyone is like wearing shoes and shoes but im wearing heels...they all say im crazy...
i noe tat i am..but im used to them and i like it...
ppl wonder how i walk in uni wif heels...
i have been walking on heels for quite sometime jor...
in college everyday heelz...up and down 3 flights of stairs..tat doesnt bother me...
maybe i have to change...since tis few days its gonna be a wet weather..im gonna wear shoez...hehehehe...the oni diff is tat my toes wont get wet...hahaha...

got the O.C tonite..yay...i tink last epi...marissa gonna die...wuwuwuwuwu...
dunno who's gonna replace her tim...dunno got next season onot tim...
got onot wont bother me la...i just wanna watch..no big fan anywayz..kakaka...i knew about marrissa's death mths ago...my fren la...spoil my mood by telling me tat...*geez*
i mizz ya pal!!! hugzzzz.....

Saturday, July 22, 2006

damm tired..damm full...and damm broke...

spent one whole day shopping...
bought a couple of stuff..
bought a watch...im still considering whether to give it to u as a gift onot...
if i send then dunno u will like onot...if dun like then i will be damm hurt...
so im still not sure...but if i give it to u then i oso want it wor...
must buy another one ah? i bolui jor...
i oso dunno whether i shd send it out to u onot...sigh..
i really dun wan when u receive and tell me u dun like it lor...
i hate tat...i couldnt get a pic of it...maybe tomolo i try....
its a guess watch...i like it very much...maybe i shd just keep it for myself and add to my guess collection..muahaha...i am sooooo greedy....
ive got a drawer full of watches now...and i oni wear a few..the others i need to cut..damm big...
bought an esprit watch...wah..wat a bargain i tink...kinda cheap lor...maybe cuz its old oredi...but i dun care if its old model or watsoever...i like can d...
its like a bracelet-cum-watch tingy..so cute...
kay...i have another item same wif my cousin!! we gt the same watch!!
lucky i din buy the guess one same as hers..i din like her one...
bought another jacket...wanted to buy a dkny sunniez...so nice!! i look sooo cool in it..compliments frm ppl geh..i not tat perasan kay...
aus 50 ah....its kinda cheap for a pair of dkny sunniez but then i got so many sunniez jor...
sobzzzzzzzzzz.....nvm la....im happy wif wat i oredi have..and i dun need it anyway :P
bought a few winter clothings as well...so broke...but i need those clothes...hehe...got reason one la......hehehehe....
so now hor..im still deciding..shd i give u the watch...
dunno la..see first la..i wont use it yet..i still got plenty of watches in my drawer...hehehe..
haven even wear my white guess yet...tink tink tink first la...hehehe...
it will be very ex to send back home ler...so if i do decide to get u someting then i will buy then bring it back wif me and send it over to ure plc la...
dun wanna post..later lost in post i can cry man!!
kay...gotta go bath loo...so cold....was 0.2 tis morning...dunno got hales onot tim..:P
tata~huggzzzz to all....

Friday, July 21, 2006

cold nitez..

uni starting next week loo...woohoo...
4 weeks have gone so fast...count back the tings i did...
geez...i hardly gotten anyting done..
suppose to clean my room and clear my last sems books and materialz..
never got to doing tat...wat on earth have i been doing hah??
slacking...*duh*...tats pretty obvious..
knitting...m on my 3rd scarf now *weeeeee*
wanna make one for my fren but then...i haven complete mine so i guess tats gotta wait a long long time more...next year maybe :P
wait..its not just one...its a few!! man...im broke buying all those yarnz...
go buy one whole scarf oso omost the same price *geez*

its getting cold these days...
and who on earth say tat when it rains its not as cold as if it doesnt rain??
the theory oni works if the wind is blowing at another direction la!!
its really freezing now..maybe its cuz i need to go to the loo...hahaha....
well...tat was a relief....i feel much better dunno cuz i visited the loo or its cuz the heater is next to me...hmmmm...

anywayz...since uni is starting on monday..i have to wake up 'early' again...
tomolo will be a good start i guess...
need to wake up at 7 maybe to do my laundry then by 8.30 leave the house and go karrinyup for another shopping spreeeeeee....
im driving again...and i hate it...i have spent more then aud$100 just for petrol for the last mth...
i am seriously sooo broke and obviously some ppl dun realise tat...
once uni start...i will be bz and i dun tink i wanna be invited for shopping trips so often anymore...once in a while ok geh..provided someone drives and not me...and NOT my car thankiu...so as for tomolo..i hope i can find a black winter jacket thou...i have pink, white and brown but no black!! wat the....haven seen one i like recently..hopefully somewhere as far as karrinyup has wat i want...

kay...im gonna turn 20 next week...
time for me to say goodbye to my under-20's....
there goes my teenage life...sad case..i never wan to go into the 20's and so on...
oh well...i have to face the truth tat im getting older and time is flying past me so damm fast...
no mood jor..dun wan type anymore...
update soon....cheerz!

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

body aching all over...

dunno y i dun have the mood to type my blog last 2 days...
been slacking around doing noting...
had another gathering on sunday evening...
din go cuz tot it was gonna be all the oldies having tea and tok...
hesitated whether i shd go onot..then after dinner i told my aunt im not going la..i look after the hs while they are out lor...
roughly 15 minutes after they left...i got a phone call frm eric (my farny cousin)...
he asked me y i wasnt there...and asked me to get my butt there in 10 minutes..
im like make tat 15..hahaha...
hung up and rushed like mad...grab a shirt and ran...crap man..i didnt rush tat badly b4...
got there...a bit paiseh cuz everyone was there and i was like 'late'...
sat at the table and started playing cards...again...the larfz were unbarable...
im sooo lucky to have cousins and nephews and nieces like them...
how on earth do they come up wif such humors....the nite was just wild!!
i enjoy good larfs and i totally enjoyed their company...
i just wished the nite never had to end so early...cuz the next day many had to work....
drive back myself...freezing my butts off...
came back..threw everyting aside and came on9 str8 away..
din even bother changing...
then my cousin msged me and we chatted...
insane!! i luv u guyz sooo much...*group hugzz*

yesterday went to the gym and went for netball game...
i fell on my bum bum cuz the floor was slippery...*ouch*
how embarasing...at the end we still lost...*as alwayz*...short of players..handicaped...
cuz i was wearing short skirt and just a t-shirt..i tink i caught a cold..
tis morning woke up sneezing and blowing my runny nose...*sigh*
hope im not gonna get sick....
having body ache all over...maybe a sign of me getting sick...
so din go to the gym today....*sien*
went to the bank...bank in a cheque and went over to my cousin's plc...
finally!! i finished my pink scarf...yay for me...*woohoo*
althou it has 2 diff shades...it looks good...huahuahua...
now starting on a new one..tis time its feathery....blue in colour..
looks like a bug...hahaha....a hairy bug....
i dunno how to do fancy patterns ler...so i tink i'll just stick to my basics...
next time if got time oni learn pattern la....

the strangest ting happened the other nite....
someone as cute as 'him' looked at me...
and he even toked to me....told me someting farny and kept looking...
im like...looking left and rite...are u toking to me?hahaha...*blur*
well...tats just a one time thing....and its not gonna happen again...

kay la...tats all for today...wrote 2 days worth of tings jor...
wanna sleep...soon tat is...
wanna hear music first....la la la la..
nitey nitez..huggzzz and kizzess....

Sunday, July 16, 2006

oh crap....i am so slow...

i had a fantastic day today....
did my laundry..went out for lunch then went shopping...
made my cousin buy 3 tops and i bought a jacket...hehehe...
came back to realise i have another cousin sister...
took a super fast bath...my hair wasnt dried properly then rush out of the house to attend a family gathering at my another cousin sister's plc...
the food was great...over-ate...the choc cakes and the other deserts...wahliao...*stuffed*
tok tok tok tok then played 'president and a**hole'..its a card game..someting like dai-di...
everyone was either bored or tired cuz late jor...
then end the game and played a game called 'black magic' i tink the name is...
my gosh...i am super slow at tis game...i couldnt figure out how to play it...
it can be black magic, blue magic, pink magic or watever colour magic...
how to play this game u ask??
kay...i couldnt figure it out at all even they made it soo obvious...at the last few games...tot i got it..but i didnt then i got it...
here's how it works....i narrowed it down jor...get it then good..if not i dunno how to explain in simpler...
  1. select the colour of the magic the group wanna play (e.g: pink magic)
  2. someone of the group stays away from the group...(hide somewhere where they cant see wats going on with the group)
  3. the group then decides wat object they wan the spotter to guess...
  4. after deciding...the spotter is called in..
  5. one group member asks the spotter if its a specific object...
  6. if the spotter gets the correct item then they got the point of the game...
see ah..the clue is the colour of the magic...the correct item is the item 2nd to the colour-chosen-item...just say they chose a black vase on the table...i ask the spotter if its the blue cup, red dress, pink top, or pink vase...see the black vase is after the PINK top...so tats the clue to it...get it onot? i dun even understand wat im typing....so i wont expect u guys to get it either..but anyway....will play wif u all if got chance..hehehe...really got my brain working but it didnt work after so long...crap...

a lil headache now somemore....its not the time kay..its 2am jor and im going to go off la...tired yet over excited...will i dream about the magic game? hope not..if i do i will go look for my cousin...cuz he larfed at me and say i will sleep and dream about the game...*slap*

k la....had a brilliant nite....and yes..i am AUNTY JEE KATE....haihz....
nite nite everyone...aunty jee kate signing off now....be good u notty kids....

Saturday, July 15, 2006

we wont be like tat i hope...

You took my hand...
You showed me how...
You promised me you'd be around...
Uh huh...that's right..
I took your words...
And I believed in everything...
You said to me...that's right...

If someone said three years from now...
You'd be long gone ...
I'd stand up and punch them up...
Cause they're all wrong...
I know better...
Cause you said forever...and ever...
Who knew...

Remember when we were such fools...
And so convinced and just too cool...
I wish I could touch you again...
I wish I could still call you friend...
I'd give anything...

When someone said count your blessings now...
For they're long gone...
I guess I just didn't know how...
I was all wrong...
They knew better...
Still you said forever...and ever...
Who knew...

I'll keep you locked in my head...
Until we meet again...
And I won't forget you my friend...
What happened...

If someone said three years from now...
You'd be long gone...
I'd stand up and punch them out...
Cause they're all wrong and...
That last kiss...I'll cherish
Until we meet again...
And time makes it harder...
I wish I could remember...
But I keep your memory...till...
You visit me in my sleep...

Friday, July 14, 2006

i kena ffk today...sien

aih...i guess tis is the first time i kena ffk ler...
sad case....owayz i ffk ppl but tis time i had the taste of my own medicine...
crap...nvm la...like ppl say...there's owayz a first time for everyting...
dun wan kena ffk again...sien sien sien...

today i realise tat im loosing my old school frenz...
just one i tink...he's changed a lot....and i mean A LOT...
of cuz he has his new circle of frenz now...
i dun tink im included anymore...
we use to be very close...but not anymore i dun tink.....
he was like a lil brother to me....
like today..i msged him in msn...he replied and tat was it..
no further conversations...
haih....y does it happen to me leh...
is it cuz i dun make it an effort to tok to him?
sometimes i just dunno wat to tok to him..
its not like school days anymore where we gossip about the guys and the gals...
i miss him very much....but now i guess he's grown to be a mature fella and forget about me jor..
oh well...i hope my next trip back will allow me to spend some time catching up wif my old school frenz whom i have not been contacting for quite some time now...

again...im stressing about financial problems...
oredi having difficulties and my brother is demanding for stuff tat are not affordable anymore...
his 'holiday' tis time oredi cost rm5k plus...and another rm3k for his return to china...
sigh....all the unwanted usage of money...y cant someone just slap him and tell him the reality of our family tat we can no longer afford luxury like b4...like last year..he sorta lied to us saying there's tis stupid shoes tat are cheap..rm100 plus..so ok la..my mum agreed to buy...get there and the damm bloody ugly shoes cost rm300 plus nearly rm400...oredi say no money and he just dun believe it...oh well...im speechless about tat...its just hillarious sometimes...how did we end up like tat...y does our family get tis sorta luck...

i hope tings change as soon as possible...i hope my brother gets a reality check...hope my parents are off tis financial crisis..and hope tat i will have a successful journey towards my career and a brighter future...cheerz to all!!

Thursday, July 13, 2006

unwanted tears...

whenever we dun agree wif each others opinions...
whenever u dun support my statement...
whenever i dun stand up for u....
tats when unwanted tears fall...

whenever u let me down...
whenever i dun feel ure presence...
whenever u leave me out of ure life....
tats when unwanted tears fall...

whenever i need u...
u are never ever around...
whenever i call out ure name....
all i get is the echo of my voice..

whenever i look into the mirror...
i see a cheerful image of myself...
but whenever i turn around....
its just a face of sadness and darkness....

whenever u tell me tat i am wrong...
whenever u make my heart bleed...
whenever u walk out of my life...
tats when unwanted tears fall...

whenever i see u wif her...
whenever ure hands touch hers...
whenever ure heart is wif her....
unwanted tears fall deep from the heart...

whenever u tell me u luv me...
i pretend i didnt hear it...
but inside im smilling wif a tear on my eye...
u say u luv me but y arent u here....

whenever the time is rite..
whenever the place is rite...
whenever ure wif me again...
i'll hold on to u and never let u go again...

whenever u say u luv me...
whenever u say u miss me..
whenever u want me in ure arms...
i hope u say it as much as u mean it...

too much unwanted tears have fallen...
too much time have been wasted...
until the rite moment arrives....
the tears will continue to fall...

read tis in someone else's blog...

"But I think love is about trust. I trust that he loves me. There is no official piece of paper you sign that says you love someone, there's no vow you take or anything that guarantees you are in love. Yes there are marriages and Civil Partnerships, but that doesn't confirm love. Love is trust. I trust that he won't go off with anyone else, I trust that he won't keep huge secrets from me or go off and live another life. And I trust that if, one day, he decides he no longer wants to be with me then he'll tell me."

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"Fantasies are Wild"

A fantasy is a dangerous thing.
When barricades fall,
And desires take wing.

The temperature is rising,
I'm losing control,
In my dreams I have you
Now I want you whole.
My heart rate is climbing -
Your torturing me.
Well if can't have you,
Won't you just let me be?

It's midnight now,
And I just can't sleep.
The fantasies I have of you
Won't give me any peace.
I burn with a desire,
I just can't let go.
Will this heart-ache last forever?
Does anybody know?

Reality is blurred
When you're in this state of mind.
I'm looking for a love
That's so hard to find.
My soul is filled with lust.
Can't you see it in my eyes?
A warning to you darling;
My fantasies are running wild.
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"Eyelash wishes"

I want to lay close to you. On our backs, on a bed, on top of the covers. I want you to raise your left hand. As it is the closet one to me. I will lift mine to meet yours and intertwine our fingers. Lightly caressing the back of your hand with my thumb. I know it will give you a thousand shivers down your spine.

We don't have to say much in the beginning. Taking comfort in the breath of our love. I let go and turn to face you. Your eyes meet mine for just an instant. I bring my fingers to your face and stroke your eyelashes. Amazed at their length, puzzled by their softness. They are the protectors of such a beautiful part of your being.

You turn to face me and I notice one has landed on your cheek. You blink a few times and I kiss you before you can speak. It's like dying. Each time I kiss you I feel myself losing a piece of myself. Into you. Through you. Consumed by you.

I press my index finger to the lonely lash. I am overwhelmed by sadness. It will never be a part of you again. How sad that must be. To be a piece of you for so long and then never again. It clings to my finger and I hold it in front of you to see.

Make a wish

You look back at me. With a vivid intensity you look into me. It's just a wish but I can see now how much it means to you. It's as if you don't want to tell me because you're afraid it won't come true if you allow it to be reveiled. But you want me to know so bad. You want to be able to tell me with your eyes. Our stare unbroken.

My finger with lash in tow rests just in front of your lips. I watch as you take in a breath. You close your eyes and blow just hard enough for the loan lash to begin it's journey without you. I give up trying to spot it and return my gaze to your beautiful face. A tear streams down your temple making its way to one of the many pillows. I do what's natural and attempt to wipe it away. Before I reach your face another lash appears.

I pick it up the same way I had done with the first. You find your smile and turn to face me. And at that moment I learned that miracles can come in the smallest form. With the voice of an angel you spoke.

I wished for a thousand more lashes to make a million more wishes to spend forever with you.

And so the night continued. With you in my arms. Forever.

university.....

going into the Big U was such a big deal in the past..
now..its like attending kindergarden..its soo ez tis days...
its just a matter of which uni..wat type of uni..local? overseas? public? private?
have to consider a few tings..whether onot the uni has reputation, can ure family afford ure education there, are u willing to go there, etc etc...
some of my frenz are studying in local unis like IMU, UM, and other unis....
most of them doing twinning program..not too bad mah...
some just cant afford to even do twinning...
they are just greatful that they have been accepted in a local U...
tat is wat they want and as a fren...i couldnt say tat its a bad ting entering those U..whether onot its private or public..
i stand by them and not criticize the uni and how bad they are...
i cant say tat cuz i didnt graduate from those uni and i have no rite to say anyting about it..
there may be articles about how faulty the unis are so wat? dun believe every single word they write..they may not be true...
as a fren of cuz im hoping the best for them bt there are reasons y they cant get the best...
so just let it be...since they are oredi there just drop the topic and hope they get the very best of the best in their unis...
im just lucky im here....im not from a rich family and its hard supporting 2 children overseas...especially supporting mine....
i dunno if this is the best choice but tis is wat i want and so..im thankful im here...
if u say tat many local public uni graduates cant get a decent job..then like tat those uni should just be shut down..wats the point of even having it...
dun blame the uni if u cant get a job...blame ureself cuz ure not trying hard enuf...
not everyone see where u graduate from...its a matter of how good u are and not how good the unis are....there are ppl from top unis and still they dun get a proper job...wat do u have to say about tat?
i oso dunno wat to say anymore....i dun wan ppl to tink tat im opposing to watever they say...
im just saying wat i tink...it may be wrong...do ure best and strive for the best for the future...
...good luck to our future...

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

piratez 2....*ai..*

piss me off piss me off.....suppose to watch the 6.30 one...drove there and all FULL..6.30 full, 7.30 full, 8.30 oso suppose to be full but somehow we managed to get the tix...so i had to drive back home to have dinner then drive back there before 8...kek sei ngo!! u noe la i hate driving ppl around...i like to be DRIVEN...get tat peeps...no parking somemore...crap betul...then to make tings even teruk...went there and wahliao..the line!! the q was soo damm long to get into the cinema...stood there like 15 minutes and oredi expected those super front rows cuz its a small cinema and there were so many ppl!! crap...didnt sit toooo front...well sorta frnt oso...haven sat so close to the screen b4 eva! the ting i like about cinemas back home is tat we get numbered sits and we get to choose where we wan to be sitted!! if no nice spot then cancel..next timing thanx...here ah...must be early to get good spots...and wat i dun like is i dun have my goodies!! no popcorn no drinks...i tell u hah...if i were to buy the popcorn set..it will cost me more then my tic itself...crap!! popcorn is so expensive and yucky here..salty one *bleukz*....said it b4 and saying it again...HOW CAN U EAT TAT!! nvm nvm...no popcorn nvm la..go back and have all the movies and popiez i can get..ehehehehe...now i wanna watch 'lake house'..seems nice...seems touching...its about romance..so dun tink it will interest anyone here...maybe i go myself..if im desperate enuf..most prob wont..just get the dvd tats about it...i will never go for movies alone...NEVA!!

so now just got back frm 'piratez 2: dead man's chest'...so funny so funny..
i larfed till tears pop out..if my cousin werent next to me i would have larfed even worse...
it was just too much to take...the whole cinema larfed and it was great...
hillarious..recommended to watch...very farny show...but then of cuz u have to watch the first one in order to noe wats going on...now i cant wait for the 3rd one to launch...tat one for sure must watch cuz the 2nd ending was hanging...NO fun in tat! kept me hanging...btw..how come tat skeletan pirate isnt dead?? he is suppose to be dead jor..cuz he got killed in the 1st one .... *blur*...voodoo maybe?? stay tune and the truth will be revealed in chapter 3..muahaha...

enuf wif the show..js go watch...dun ask so much..just GO....
came back realising my dad sms me twice bt my mobile was switched off...
he called home and i wasnt in..so i quickly replied and went on9...
tok to my mum about wat they wanted...
not too long after tat was 12.00am...
haven changed yet u noe...so damm cold...

was someone waiting for me?
erm erm erm....im sorri....but i tot i told u i wont be back early...
sorri to have kept u waiting oh...
i'll make it up to u tomolo...hopefully...
to tat someone who waited...did u mean wat u say in ure blog?
if u did...u have put a smile on my face...a great big one...
if u do it more often i might just smile all day long....
i wanna go sleep lor...my eyes can hardly open cuz i woke up so early today :(
have a good nite..or shd i say good morning...
here are the hugz and kisses to everyone tonite...*bear hug*

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

doing my best...

if ure reading this i hope u understand..
i was really upset by wat u said last nite...
i tried to smile and larf just now wif my cousin but i just fake it...
seriously i noe im not as smart as u..doing medic and all...
i am trying my best to be as good as i shd be..i wan to be successful too...
i may have fallen out when i was in high school but im catching up u noe...
im not as stupid as u tink i am....i may not have paid as much attention as u have in class...but i still did..and i noe u would help me...
ure leaving pretty soon...
i have been chatting wif u so much lately and its gonna end soon...
ure going to med school and its gonna be very bz for u...
im starting uni soon and i'll be bz too..
we wont be able to do wat we have been doing lately...
im glad we did but yet we still dun understand each other well enuf..
im happy tat we could chat like mad ppl till late nitez...
all the larfs...how can i forget those?
u shd noe that im trying my very best to make tings work between us..
i wan u to have the best memoriez of me when u go to med school...
bring along those memoriez wif u to keep u company...
we may not go to med school together...may not live together under the same roof...sleep on the same bed at home...but i hope u will remember tat we planned tings together in high school and i wont forget those days...
i really am trying very hard to make tis mth the most enjoyable one of the year...
so i really hope u understand..wat u say last nite was a deep insult for me...
i am pissed and i could have said words u dun wanna hear..but i didnt..cuz i dun wanna hurt u anymore...if u tink u didnt do anyting wrong then let it be...
im trying to erase wat u said frm my memory...i dun wan it to ruin my happiness wif u...
hope u understand tat im doing tis for us...

i noe im not smart but im not stupid either..tq very much..

u may be smart..u may be bright..u had great results all the while...
i may not be as smart but im not stupid either...
i try my best in everyting i do but it just doesnt go the way i want it to go...
i may have mixed wif the wrong company...drinking and clubbing..
im trying to change but there u are...giving me tat 'sentence'...
ive done many mistakes in the past and im trying to change myself for the good...
ure suppose to support me and not insult me...
it certainly isnt a compliment...do u noe how it made me feel?
ure not me so u cant say tat wat u say isnt an insult...
i have been happy this past few days and recently i did well in my finalz and im proud of it...
im not smart like u...i admit tat but u shdnt have said wat u said...
it really made me mad and sad...dun say anymore..i dun wanna hear...
u can say tat i am ugly, crazy, weird, have att probs but u cannot insult me wif the amount of knowledge i have...

Monday, July 10, 2006

piratez...*aargh...*

since i didnt watch 'pirates of the carribean: the curse of the black pearl' when it came out last time...i watched it on tv lor last nite... it was hillarious..the way johnny depp acted...very very farny..i kinda larfed many times...dunno my aunt and uncle can hear me larf onot..muahaha...
i wanna go watch part 2...cousin say will go one day wor..when leh? anyone care to join me? tuesdays best...cuz half price..i dun wanna pay full..im broke kay...hehehe...
have to wake up early tomolo cuz a cousin of mine which i have not seen b4 is coming over...seriously i dunno how many more relatives i have ler....so many till i get blur sometimes..dunno tat person is my cousin, aunty/uncle, niece/nephew,etc etc....

im having a very happy and satisfying feeling rite now..
i cant describe it out...its incredible..and im luving it...
i hope i can feel tis way forever...i dun wanna feel stressed out..
dun wanna tink about wat happens to tis and tat...
i wanna have tis feeling for real..

so now i gtg sleep...and hopefully 4 alarms will wake me up b4 8am...
someone gonna shoo me in 4 minutes time..hehehe....
need to brush teeth and wash my pretty face..hahaha..
cya all...tata~nitey nitez

Sunday, July 09, 2006

results out jor..

kay...results are finally out...
i couldnt wait till tomolo so i went to check if its out today...
it did..and i did well!! yay....
thankiu to all that have been there for me and that have prayed for me..
thank god it went well....now for next sem..im gonna do my best again...
its gonna be tough bt i will do my best...pls continue wif ure prayers...
i hope u guyz had good results too...
thanx again!! im so happy today...hehehe...

tattoo....just one oso cnt?

ive owayz wanted a tattoo on my shoulders...
i just sked pain ler tats y i haven gotten it till now...
dun tink i'll be getting one anymore loo...
promised someone i wont have a permanent tattoo at all on my body..
y did i promised tat person leh? i oso dunno y ler...
its someting i really want and now i went and promised it to someone...
so all i can get is a temporary one...
i wanna have a butterfly on the back....cuz i find tat really sexy on bare-backz..
a tattoo on the side of the neck oso nice...very sexy and intimate...
haihz...no point toking about it la...i cant get one jor....not even a matching one...
if i do get one then u'll be sad ah? really onot? see first la...
i wan go sleep jor lor...12.40 jor..
mum staying up to watch football *pengsan*
want to stay up longer but then dun wan la...
go to bed and see if i can dream about us again tonite..hehehe...
nite nite ya all...*bear hug*

Saturday, July 08, 2006

my fragile heart..

A fragile heart was broken before
I don't think it could endure another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside of you
That's calling out to make you realize

That this new bond gives inspiration
To all who feel no love appeal no more
So how can I break this wall around you
That's aiding both our hearts to grow in pain

So forget your past, and we can dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for care and lovin too
It's hard I know, but oh
One thing for sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart

A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't think I could endure another pain
But baby in you, I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before

So don't let your past destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break my fragile heart

With all this fire that burns between us
There's so much to lose
Yet so much more to gain
And if I could, choose the world around me
The world I'd choose would all revolve around you
So help me complete the game inside me
And help to mend my fragile heart

Friday, July 07, 2006

jessica....

A kiss without commitment's
Like a flower without the rain
It only leads to pain
And it fills my heart with emptiness
Your touch without commitment's
Like a calm before the storm
The tears are starting to form in my eyes

When I kissed you I was curious
The child that I was
I never realised I would love you so
And in the magic of the moment
I was swept to the side
And I saw your heart
So small and tender

Physical is fine
But I cannot avoid the pain
I'm like an express train
As I surge towards the mountains
I am certain as I'm livin'
I cannot do this again
We're much too greater friends
To play games

When I kissed you it was
Everything I dreamed it would be
But I never dreamed it would mean so much to me
And our friendship is too valuable to carelessly lose
So today I choose
To really love you

Jessica your heart is
Like a newly budding rose
Expanding as she grows
Your petals have been bruised
But you have so much love to give
And it's so beautiful to see
You're beautiful to me, my friend

And when I kissed you
I believed it wouldn't get in the way
I want to stay your friend and have it fine
And I'm hoping that our God can make great things of our lives
His love survives
The greatest struggles

Jessica your gate is open, nothing in your way
A friend you'll always stay to me
Whatever else we're gonna be
A friend
You'll always stay to me

Thursday, July 06, 2006

my poor armz...

went to the gym today..worked out about an hour then go swimming since i oredi have my gears...
it felt superb in the water...it felt as if i was in school again...felt like i was in the team once more..swimming for my school and my club...
but the again..after a few laps...i omost pengsan...but i kept going cuz it just felt so good to return to the water...while swimming i didnt feel any pain on my arms...so i tot wah..not bad wor..after so long din swim im fine...then i went to the steam room to relax...wahliao..the pain!! my arms felt broken man...i couldnt lift it up cuz i wanted to brush my hair and it hurt so bad...i knew there was a catch..cuz cant be there isnt any pain mah...even first day in the gym oso i came back wif bad pain all over...now swimming...felt worse...
then i showered...OUCH...i cant lift my arm to wash my hair without feeling the pain...
sigh..struggle a bit...dry my hair using the dryer oso so hard...but i managed...
today Myer got some big sale...suppose to go wif my cousin but sked she couldnt make it so i go my own lor...i hesitated to go lor..cuz if i go sure waste money...
in the end..i went oso...i saw so many perfumes on sale...50% off somemore...wanted to get a few bottles but then waste money la...i still have many unused perfumes back home..then again..perfume shdnt buy for myself...its suppose to be given by ppl..
then i spotted one for man geh..smelled nice...forgot wat brand was it jor..wanted to get it for u..but tot u dun use cologne...so din buy for u...no reason for me to buy for u oso geh...
then i went to the men's section to look at the clothes...hmm...not bad....saw a tshirt..i pretty much like it to be worn by u...again..no reason for me to buy for u so didnt buy lor...
maybe next time la...we go shop together then i'll get u one...
so tats about it lor my day...very tired cuz of my arms...wanted to sleep but tis stupid fella...msg me non stop...fan sei ngo....ask for my suggestion whether onot he shd sponsor his gf 15k to open a silver-jewellery kiosk...
of cuz i said NO...been together not yet 3 years wanna sponsor such money...later someting happen btw them then the money gone la...siao...
if wanna open kiosk..then the gf shd come up wif at least half la..can somemore say the profit divided by 2...lagi fainted...
told her so many times dun do it la...its rather stupid...its not like she's ure wife...y bother...
no money still wanna waste 15k....sell these kind of jewellery..where can make money one la...
so many kiosk such as tis open not long then close shop...somemore wanna open the shop in sec14...tats the worse plc eva la...ppl in big malls oso cnt tahan u tink ures can ah...go dream la..can somemore tell me sales per day is 200++....enuf said lor...its ure money and ure gf...
dun come crying and regret later if someting do happen to ure r/s or even to ure 'biznes'...
if u tink u luv her enuf to trust her then go ahead lor..i have noting more to say jor lor...all i can say is tis much...the rest is up to u to decide...
frm the looks of it....the 15k he will come out lor...
all the best la..hope ure biznes 'pou pou kou seng' la...
i go back then be ure customer la...i like silver-jewellery mah..so u sure can do my biznes..
till then la...good luck to u both!!

ni hui ji de wo men de yue ding...

we both agreed to meet on christmas day of 2009...
dun make me wait...if u dun turn up then i noe wat tat means...
maybe i'll hate u for life maybe i wont..
but if u decide not to come..pls leave me a note..
it wont be under a christmas tree but it was where we got together...
we shall never speak of tis day till it really comes...
till then...lets just act normal...
im looking forward to tat day..hope u do too...
tinking about it makes me smile... :)
3 years....can u make it?
cya then....

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

the song reminded me of us...

the song i posted just now..
been listening to it for many times...repeating it again n again...
tis few days..everyting that i do reminds me of us...
do i sound as confused as i am?
wasnt paying much attention during shopping today...
very sien..cuz my fren didnt like shopping..she just wanted to tok to me nia..
i persuade her to buy a sports bra...hahahaha...it was a really farny experience..
i got a pink one..she took the black one...
wats wif me and pink!!
she suddenly ask me if i found a bf (fainted)...
i wan to tell her wats going on..but then again..dun wan la...
its just complicated...wats going on btw us..lets just keep it to ourselves..
lets not share wif ppl la...u noe i noe enuf liao...

please remember me...

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
the memories we made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
and we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
and you were there for me
And remember, Please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
and we were wild and free
Then remember, please remember me

And how we laughed and how we smiled
And how this heart was yours and mine
and how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ran so fast, we ran so free
I had you, and you had me

Please remember, please remember

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

so expensive ge meh?

the gym in cannington got pool oh...so of cuz i wanna swim lor..swimming is my passion oh...
so went across to buy cap and goggles lor...wahseh..so damm ex! it costs me 100buckz...
the speedo brand here lousy ler...compared to back home..stylo ler...
so i got dunno wat vorgee brand...both cap n goggle...
so leceh ler...i have long hair..i tried putting the cap on...look like siao poh...
all the hair coming out...must wet my hair before putting it on..
the last time i swam was at my cousin's plc..tat wasnt even considered swimming...
i miss swimming so much...yay!! now can swim again..yay yay yay!! go on thursday la..cuz maybe tomolo i not going gym gym loo..going 'shopping' wif fren...
no more shopping liao la...i very kuai de...hahahaha...

my burfday coming jor...getting older by a year! reaching d 20's...haihz...
wat happen to my teen years...i will miss it so much...
getting old!! nooooooo...i wanna remain below 20!! next year 21..lagi siao..i get key key!! i wonder my mum book the key for me oredi onot..muahaha...hope she doesnt take one of the house key and pass it to me...kek sei ngo later...
yay...i cant wait for the key key...owayz dream about having one....
owayz go jewellery shop sure look at the keyz...yuck...the gold ones...*puke*
i hate gold!! yuck yuck!! better dun give me anyting gold...i wont accept geh...kekekeke...
platinum and diamond purely acceptable..hahaha...

pretty tired ler today...din sleep well for the past couple of nites..
tot now holiday can sleep extra syok..but cnt geh...
no fun ler..wanna see one day if i can stay up and not sleep at all..
but wat am i gonna do leh?? hmmm.....any ideas? watch dvd's? sien sei...
chat?? who will stay up so late leh?? sien ah sien ah...
everyone working now..no time teman me ... sien!!!

Monday, July 03, 2006

uve done it dis time...and now im mad...

after hearing wat ure fren said...i cried...
i noe im sensitive and i cry for no reasons...
but if u were in my shoes u noe y i cried...
u hurt me over and over again...
how can u do such a ting to me?
have u no feelings or have i no feelings?
u played my heart many times and u just dun give up..
u gave 'hints' and expect me to realise its me ure refering to..
wat if i missinterprete ure meanings?
wat if im wrong? how can i face u if i am wrong...
ppl say its obvious u are saying tings about me...
the songs, those entries, those words!
they are all directed to me arent they?
y cant u tell me tat? wats wif the rite moment?
screw tat...i am fully prepared with watever words ure gonna throw at me..
im gonna hate u even more if i get informations frm ure frenz...
screw tat...tat suckz...im rite here..whenever n watever u need to say..say it...
they said ure scared and worried..about wat? wats there to be sked off?
enuf said...if u wanna say u say...there wont be anymore meaning to it if i keep forcing u to say things tat u owayz say halfway and then dissapear...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

im not letting go...

'i wont let u go until u let me go' - a quote from full house...

  1. how much do u luv me?
  2. do u still luv me?
  3. y do u luv me?
  4. why did u do things to hurt me?
  5. y did u use her to make me sad?
  6. wat have i done to deserve that?
  7. are u really att or its just a cover up?
  8. do u luv her still?
  9. do u luv her more?
  10. u have a choice..me or her?
  11. will u be there if im down?
  12. how well do u noe me?
  13. do u noe my fav food, fav colour, my birthday, my star..my watever?
  14. do u noe y i luv u?
  15. do u noe how much time i spend tinking about us?
  16. do u noe how hurt am i rite now?
  17. y u owayz leave me alone without telling me?
  18. u owayz promise but end up breaking it.why?
  19. can u just promise to luv me oni and not her?
  20. can u promise me now tat u wont hide things frm me anymore?
if u noe the answers to these 20 questions then u answer me la....

Saturday, July 01, 2006

how annoying tat gal....

i am so damm sleepy!! i slept at 4 again last nite and woke up at about 9 tis morning...
amazing how i can wake up at 9...i tot i will sleep till 11 maybe..
woke up..dun feel tat sleepy..eat breakfast then went to the city...
on the bus..so annoyed by this chinese gal..
she is damm noisy!! tok on the phone as if toking wif a loud speaker!! then her fren came on board...double the noise!! so pissed off man...everyone was looking at them...noisy like mad!!
and i tot i was loud...someone even louder!
then at curtin bus stop, her 'boyfren' came...free show started...they started kissing and i felt like puking~! the way the gal played hard to get...my gawd...i wanted to faint...
the bus was packed and they were playing..'kiss me babe'...

now i am so damm pissed off...my knitting got one big gigantic hole!! after all my hard work...got one big hole...noe y? cuz i was watching the tv!! was watching 'high school musical' and while they were singing..i ter-letgo my needle and the thing fell out...damm!! i dunno how to reattach it back so now got one damm obvious hole!! i dun wanna redo cuz i took so many hours to get to where i am now...damm la...wanna slap myself d...

want to write someting but forgot wat it was oredi...over distracted by tv till forgot wat i wanna say here...slept a while just now oredi mah...still not enuf meh? i wonder wat time will i go to bed tonite...the funniest ting is..the person i was chatting till so late yesterday even said wanna chat for 10 hrs str8 and make tat a record..not even 5 hours oredi out of bat...u will never be able to do it la...dun waste time...but surprisingly u can tok wif 'someone' for 6 hrs str8...*applause*...dun wan tok bout tat..make me mad...

memory not so good today...cant remember the song i wanted to put here oso...*slap slap*
if i remember then i'll be back...