doing my best...

if ure reading this i hope u understand..
i was really upset by wat u said last nite...
i tried to smile and larf just now wif my cousin but i just fake it...
seriously i noe im not as smart as u..doing medic and all...
i am trying my best to be as good as i shd be..i wan to be successful too...
i may have fallen out when i was in high school but im catching up u noe...
im not as stupid as u tink i am....i may not have paid as much attention as u have in class...but i still did..and i noe u would help me...
ure leaving pretty soon...
i have been chatting wif u so much lately and its gonna end soon...
ure going to med school and its gonna be very bz for u...
im starting uni soon and i'll be bz too..
we wont be able to do wat we have been doing lately...
im glad we did but yet we still dun understand each other well enuf..
im happy tat we could chat like mad ppl till late nitez...
all the larfs...how can i forget those?
u shd noe that im trying my very best to make tings work between us..
i wan u to have the best memoriez of me when u go to med school...
bring along those memoriez wif u to keep u company...
we may not go to med school together...may not live together under the same roof...sleep on the same bed at home...but i hope u will remember tat we planned tings together in high school and i wont forget those days...
i really am trying very hard to make tis mth the most enjoyable one of the year...
so i really hope u understand..wat u say last nite was a deep insult for me...
i am pissed and i could have said words u dun wanna hear..but i didnt..cuz i dun wanna hurt u anymore...if u tink u didnt do anyting wrong then let it be...
im trying to erase wat u said frm my memory...i dun wan it to ruin my happiness wif u...
hope u understand tat im doing tis for us...