i kena ffk today...sien

aih...i guess tis is the first time i kena ffk ler...
sad case....owayz i ffk ppl but tis time i had the taste of my own medicine...
crap...nvm la...like ppl say...there's owayz a first time for everyting...
dun wan kena ffk again...sien sien sien...

today i realise tat im loosing my old school frenz...
just one i tink...he's changed a lot....and i mean A LOT...
of cuz he has his new circle of frenz now...
i dun tink im included anymore...
we use to be very close...but not anymore i dun tink.....
he was like a lil brother to me....
like today..i msged him in msn...he replied and tat was it..
no further conversations...
haih....y does it happen to me leh...
is it cuz i dun make it an effort to tok to him?
sometimes i just dunno wat to tok to him..
its not like school days anymore where we gossip about the guys and the gals...
i miss him very much....but now i guess he's grown to be a mature fella and forget about me jor..
oh well...i hope my next trip back will allow me to spend some time catching up wif my old school frenz whom i have not been contacting for quite some time now...

again...im stressing about financial problems...
oredi having difficulties and my brother is demanding for stuff tat are not affordable anymore...
his 'holiday' tis time oredi cost rm5k plus...and another rm3k for his return to china...
sigh....all the unwanted usage of money...y cant someone just slap him and tell him the reality of our family tat we can no longer afford luxury like b4...like last year..he sorta lied to us saying there's tis stupid shoes tat are cheap..rm100 plus..so ok la..my mum agreed to buy...get there and the damm bloody ugly shoes cost rm300 plus nearly rm400...oredi say no money and he just dun believe it...oh well...im speechless about tat...its just hillarious sometimes...how did we end up like tat...y does our family get tis sorta luck...

i hope tings change as soon as possible...i hope my brother gets a reality check...hope my parents are off tis financial crisis..and hope tat i will have a successful journey towards my career and a brighter future...cheerz to all!!