worm!! *aargh*

firstly..i would like to thank darrell and khati for becoming our patients today for palpation..also thanx to other ppl who became our patients b4....thanx!!
low back pain.....we have to bend a lot while doing palpations....so hor..i need to go see chiro for myself...
was suppose to go gym after uni but then jerome say she got ppl to let us palpate..so ok lor..stayed back..had lunch..went for fellowship...then palpated....
saw our seniors...they were practising i guess...kewlz...
finished palpating about 2 plus i tink..then tok tok tok tok tok till 3 plus...
my gosh tat khati got soo much to tok about....he is such a good bf...seriously...i didnt expect him to be so good lor....
told us soo many stories about his year 12, his schools, his frenz...and his gf!!
pretty hot babe....so funny lor when he tok about his gf's formal prom and all tat...
he is damm smart somemore....wanna be neuro surgeon leh..dun play play...
after tat i went to aunt's hs to pick up someting..they were not home :(
maybe go tomolo...b4 uni start...*sienz*
handed in my report today...hopefully its rite...din noe wat to do wif it seriously..now got another report due in a fortnitez time.....*sien kau kau*

u noe hor...i am damm slow when it comes to games...like today..played 'the chopstick' game....it took me yet again so long to figure out wat was going on...like black magic la...slow like crap....its owayz towards the end oni i realise...they had to tell the clue then oni i knew i was rite..*uselezz*
tis saturday dunno going to kingz park onot...if juli goes then i tink i would to...just to relax myself..if not going then its another round of shopping....for a change i tink i wanna go kingz park...a few of my frenz asked me to go for quite a few outingz but i turned them down...
end of tis year their church is organizing some camping trip i tink...they invited me to join...but i wanna go back kl...they say tat can wait...i dun tink im a camping material...we'll see how it goes..if i have a job then tat might tempt me to stay a mth more b4 i decide to go back...but as for now....no job no commitment...so kl it is..hehehe...

ive got a fren who is desperate for a bf...have never seen someone as desperate as that...maybe she heard toooooo much about relationshipz that she wans a partner of her own....ppl keep telling her she'll get one but she keeps saying she wants one now...oh boy...tis is interesting...lets see if she would get someone tis quick...good luck gal...

oh b4 i forget...its merdeka day today...happy merdeka day to all msianz...
there is a dinner/party at the tavern tonite...couldnt bother going..
even CK isnt interested..he asked me if i was going...nope...not interested...
too expensive...:P
if im back home...there would be a celebration...but not for merdeka..for holiday!! ahahaha....
i just usually go out wif M if there is a public holiday...we would go for special dinners and a movie..its like other outings...just making it sound as if it has more fun in it..actually not...hehe...we'd go to my fav western food plc in klang..its not a restaurant...its open air and its not like i like the food there..i just luv the soursoup drink there..the waitress would make us a giant cup filled wif extra flesh....special one kay...hehehe...then after tat we would go for a drink at the opposite pub....M would go visit frenz working in there...M used to work there....so yea...i noe ppl there oso..dunno if they are still working there...they are one of the best ppl to hang out wif...they tok non stop..drink non stop and makes me larf non stop...they can really drink!! well they have to if not they wont be working there now would they...^^

when i was having dinner...i had chicken rice chilli...as usual i squeeze lime into it...eat eat..yum yum..then when i wanted to dip my chic into it...there it was!! WORM!!! still moving...geez..there goez my stomache....i hate tat!! the lime must be rotten...it looked normal frm the outside thou...yizh...anywayz..be back some other time..auzzie idol is on!! wild card time baby....muaxx

dun u miss me anymore? ^^

had another long long day...finished class at 3.30..then went shopping...
spent aud$168 for 3 clothes...got a dress, a top and a pants...dun ask..i went crazy buying those 3...
i din even look at the price tag...im really crazy now....wat the heck is wrong wif me....
its not like me at all to buy such expensive clothes...i must be out of my mind....
im just too stressed out tis few days...working on the poster, lab reports, other taskz...and exams...
i cant release stress by buying such expensive stuff ba...lesson learnt.....never ever do tat ever again...there has to be other ways to make me feel better....*slap*

yesterday a bit mang wif msn....dunno its msn or my connection or my mum's connection....so many times jor i cant get wat she say and she doesnt get wat i type...and then cant play webbie....she bought me 3 elle tops and wanted to show me...but i cant cuz the cam isnt connecting...im really pissed off...i dun need tings like tis to make me mad...i need to relax...too tensed i tink...relax relax...chill...

toking about guyz over lunch today..its funny how one of my fren gets all excited when she sees this guy...her face just turns diff..she can just larf as if she saw someting so funny...see the ting is the guy is a twin...his bro is in our class..and they both look the same....but one smiles and the other one doesnt...the one who smiles looks good...then tok tok about boys....then b4 tat me and my fren were having light lunch b4 class...she asked me how many ex bf did i use to have...i said 5 and i asked her y la...she say she's just curious wor.....she say im cute and cuddly....WRONG...im cute and bubbly...lol...i tink im just big and fleshy like a human sized teddy bear...nice to hug...im so rite....everyone says im just so nice to hug...
i oni wish i knew wat to do...then i wont be so lost in a relationship...im owayz wondering if ure missing me, tinking about me, wondering how im doing and tings like tat...im not expecting a perfect relationship..i just need someone who is compatible wif me..someone who can stand my attitude and personality...

each time i write about someting like tis my mood just dissappears...i start wif a positive attitude but end in a diff one....i find it quite hard now to express my feelings here...sometimes i dunno if i shd write everyting here...maybe i shdnt...but then again if i dun write here..where am i gonna write? ive stop writting diaries...so tis is where i go when i feel like letting it all out...oh well..for the time being..tis will be my spot....so pls...dun mind me....thankz....

i was there dear...

dunno wats gotten into me tis past few days...
im not backing away from the society..defitately not...
but somehow im backing away from u?
i wasnt feeling well yesterday..muscle ache...just not feeling to good...its like when im sick...
well...tat definately pays off...'aunty visit' time...
i was on9 last nite till quite late actually...
did some of my work...spoke to a few ppl...
didnt wanna sleep last nite thou....but i was really not feeling well so i pop in a few panadols and bang..i slept a while after tat....
had a long day yesterday and today...came back at 6 plus just now...
had a seminar...and a guest speaker in lecture..
excellent speeches...impressive....i so wanna get a copy of 1957's 60 minutes programme (its a tv programme if u dunno wat im toking about)...
its someting i really wanna see...but dun tink i will be able to get it...sobz...
i wanna try find a book tats written by Dr. Terry Yochum...its so damm expensive here...aud$300 per volume...i can go broke str8 away...im hoping tat i could get it cheaper or maybe if im lucky i could get it frm msia? rm300 is much better for me...its a radiaography book...he is an american chiropractor n radiologist...will get the title of the books and ask my fren check out for me...its like a must have book for my practice...

im tired...i still haven taken bath yet...im watching a bit of idol...coming in a bit..walking up and down...no mood ler....i need motivation...dead serious pushing!!
while i was doing my report i keep getting flashbacks frm the past...
dun tink its a good sign...i manage to smile thou...
day dreaming...my fav past time...teachers complain about me daydreaming in class ever since i was in standard 1 !!! 2nd one would be the chatter box la...who can forget tat..hehehe..
yesterday M made me worried and pissed off....i wanted someone to cool me off...but i didnt 'appear on9'...M didnt messege me the whole day...not even when i came back frm uni...nvm...maybe out of credit...then i msg b4 going to bed....no reply again!! ok...i worried a lil...it happened b4...and yes i was pissed off as well...and then i sent the 2nd sms scolding..cuz i wanna sleep and i dun wanna get a call when im 'asleep'....then M called...and guess wat...yumcha wif frenz...and didnt see my msg....shd i get pissed off?? of cuz i shd!! got pissed off too often wif M tis past few mths...tings are nt getting better...im not hoping for it to be better..ive just had it...one minute ure worried and the next ure not....damm u..im not a toy!!
then just now M called and say tis few days i dun give muax-es when i end the call..
yea..i dun wanna give anymore...i wan M to realise tat ive changed...no longer the old me...

damm!! my bestie got a job!! and i still haven!! she got there first b4 me...oh no....how embarassing.....she getting a job b4 me....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....for someone like her to work...tats like not a bad ting leh...she found a job in some carnival ting tats going on in melb..very very good pay...yish..imagine all the shopping she'll be doing down in melb...yish yish...oh oh..and now..her new fav plc to go is...CLUBBING...woohoo...how good is tat...tats sooo not her leh...she went clubbing the other day wif other plu frenz...and then frm tat day on she luved clubbing and wanna go more often..she told me how sexyly she danced wif the other gals...*imagining her and the other hot chicz...*...anyone drooling?? *duh*...can see all those jaw drop jor...my bestie is a very very stylo hot babe....sorry guyz...ure soooo not on her list...she's no guy luver...sorry dudez...ok..now i am sooo jlez about the job ting...cant stop grumbling tat she got a job b4 i do...*sigh*

im gonna spend aud$100 tis week on 2 tings...a top and a dress...if i like the material...cuz i saw it in the catalogue and it was sooo nice...its like a must have in my wardrobe..eheheheh...i went there today but the shop wasnt open...so sad...then i told myself better la..i dun have to spend money..then again...i cant do tat..u noe i cant..if i wan tat someting i mus have it unless its faulty and yucky...will go again tomolo i tink...another ting tat would stop me fm buying is tat if i look horrible in them..hiak hiak...u wan me to look good dun u? at least let me feel good around u..hehehe...i wanna look good but i dun have the body...and ppl tink i go to the gym to slim down...not really lor...i just haven been doing much exercise for a few years..just wanna stay fit...if i can loose some weight..i'd be happier..but as long as im fit and healthy...im happy...

when i was in the computer lab tis morning....while i was day dreaming....i was hoping tat when i turn around ure sitting next to me watching me do my assignment...but when i turned i just saw my fren....one day, im hoping tat when i turn around i'd see u?? might happen....anywayz..i am pretty happy when i read someting just now...*shhh* its for me to noe and for u to find out...*cheeky smilez*....be back soon...i just dun feel like typing cuz ive been typing so much tis morning....muaxxx

thankiu dr alison..

rite..ive made a card for the chiro i went and see yesterday..
its a thankiu card..its a blank card and i made it look nice...to me its nice and simple..
i enjoy decorating cards..in the family, all sorts of cards oso i design the words geh...
i dun make the card...no time to make so many!!
they are just blank cards and i decorate them...
ive sorta took a pic of the card...plain and simple..luv it!!

****just the greeting****


****the completed card****

nice? hehe...just now i went down and grab myself some cookies...tea time...
i sorta found tis cookie...ahaha..its so funny looking...

***weirdo cookie monster***

im so happy today, yet so sad and dissapointed...
a few ppl say they mizz me...my bestie, pingz, justince, rave n mel...hehe...mizz ya all too :(
now for the sad part...i read one of my good fren'z blog..she sorta have family probs i tink...then she moved out frm home..or shd i say she ran away frm home..to me she ran away frm home lor..or maybe she just couldnt stand being in tat hs...i dunno..so the other day i saw her on9...she was away but i left her a msg anywayz..i asked her how she was and tat im worried for her....
then today she sorta msg me and started wif 'yea?'...as if i was bothering her or someting...
i was so down...then i asked her how is she and she was like, answered me quite coldly...
she say she has changed her attitude towards ppl...and then i told her im worried for her..and guess wat she said! she say since when do i still recognize her as my fren...wahliao...my heart like kena cucuk seriously...its like im asking a lot of question and wasting her time...i was really upset...last time i dun like her then later we became really good frenz...then now she say i didnt keep contact wif her...so sad...its like everyting tat i ask was annoying her...then i say ok la...i wont bother u if u tink im so annoying...then she started to tell me her probs...she worked her arse off...sleep so lil and seldom tok anymore...*sigh*...then i told her when i go back i hope tat we could spend some time together like we used to last time..both gila gila owayz go mamak yumcha...then she was like i went back a few times and didnt contact her...oni went out 1/2 hour wif her b4 i left...i had my reasons...i had my grandfather to look after...then my last trip i went back for his funeral..tat was a quiet ting..i didnt tell anyone...and she said i didnt call her..really upsetting...total 360 degrees change in personality...i dunno if i still noe her onot...but then she smiled when i say end of tis year we are gonna spend more time together...then i knew ok..part of her is back wif me...felt a lil happy..but still the earlier conversations were really harsh...anywayz..i noe she's stressed up and all...sorry gal..i feel ure stress and hope u take care of ureself..i dun wanna go back end of tis year and ure not well...we are gonna be as siao as b4 end of tis year...i hope ure not toooo bz to go out wif me once in a while...luv ya tze...take care!! muaxxx....

so after tat i did some of my work and aunt and cousin came..chit chat a bit..taught me how to do lime jam..haha..ask me to make it next time :x hehehe...tze...i hope ure doing fine..sorry if i made u tink i wasnt ure fren anymore..u noe im owayz ure fren no matter wat...dun ever doubt my frenship...it hurts me....

so bright and luvly...

i just luv taking pictures of flowers...its really relaxing..and somehow i have patience doing it...u noe la...if i dun get a good shot for it i'll tend to get a better one...i noe my level of skill...
im not tat good in taking photos...but i luv flowers so much tat i luv taking them...
here is the newest member of the family..hehe...
her name is 'Asiatic Lilium'...
tis one is the orange less smelly one...
the pink ones have beautiful petals but it smells..!!
got red, white, yellow and tis one lor..orange...its really beautiful...
here..let me show u...hehe...

******de bold and beautiful Asiatic Lilium******

******if gt other colours i'd show but i dun,so jus orange******

arent they just gorgeous!! one day i wanna go to those erm..gardens where they have a display of all sorts of flowers frm all around the world...i can spend one whole day taking photoz...must put tat on my to-do list...hehe...

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i did my washings today...and hey...the PERSON suppose to do the washing didnt show up!! rave...ure fired...wahahaha....
i threw 2 towels, 2 home jumpers, 2 pants, many many singlets, socks, and many more 'others' into the machine...i noe tat if im gonna hand wash tat its gonna take like 1 hour..so machine la tis time...how often do i use the machine anywayz :P half an hour...done jor..hehe...
brought my lappie down...turn on to video hits and started typing my assignment...
cant summariez into one page ler...dun care la..they just have to give me a lil more space on the cardboard :P sorry guyz...
got a few tings done..ate lunch then came upstairs...help my cousin clean a few stuff...then came on9...
as usual..first tings first..check email...delete junk..reply mails...send pics....*sien*
checked out 'ure' blog...if the person u featured on ure blog is me...then erm...i dun tink im avoiding u...wat reason do i have to tat wor...unless u made me angry....then tats a whole diff story...
ok...now u triggered my 8-ness..wat was it tat u did the other nite tat made u sorta regret it...hua hua hua...im gonna make u tell..neh ni neh ni boo boo...hahaha...
u better tell or im gonna bug u till u leave kl...hua hua hua....
wanna try the bribe tingy ure frenz did onto u...
if u dun tell me then i wont tell u wat happen to abc and xyz..wahahaha...
tat is funny...can imagine tat jor...hehehe...
anywayz....i gotta go write a thankiu card now...and hopefully can send it tomolo...ask my cousin do tat for me...ehehehe..
btw....have U received my letter??? do tell me ah....wanna noe how long it took...*blek*

a chiro visit..

orite...so the chiro called me back yesterday..
she said she was happy to help me...so ok..made appointment at 9.30 tis morning..
i was so happy tat she said it was ok for me to observe her in practice...*awesome*
quickly go look at the map...ok...found the stree..pretty far..but who cares...
woke up at 7.30 tis morning...took a freezing shower clean up...dressed up...wow i look good..*perasan*..its the tie tat made me look great..hehe...
ate brekkie...at 3 slice of toast and a bowl of cereal..dunno wat time i'd be back so eat more so tat i wont be hungry there....
drow out....look at the map again and then zoom zoom...
it was quite ez to find actually..but i wasnt too sure about the parking..so i called and asked where to park...hehe...
got there...the receptionists were great...they all had similar tops oni diff colour...
so i left my bag at the counter and waited for my appointment...
got introduced to my chiro..her name is Dr. Alison Scott...so familiar..i swear ive seen her somewhere in uni b4..and i was rite..she had a few seminars in uni b4 and that's when i saw her i guess...she's young...graduate of RMIT and has been practising for 4 years now...*cool*
she was super nice..she asked me to stay till she finished her shift...good good...
i interviewed her..and 2 of her patients...they were great ppl...she let me interview 2 of her erm..more serious patients..
there's tis man..he has a really st8 spine...when i mean str8 its nt normal..normal spine suppose to have some curve to it..tis fella got str8 one...bad bad..so did a before and after x-ray....u can really see the diff b4 n after adjustments...*awesome*....
she had sooo many patients...and i asked her if its tis bz everyday..she was like tis is not even bz..im like wow...the patients keep coming...
everyone felt better after the adjustments...and i was like honoured to be there and watch her do her stuff..i saw her adjusting 2 kids as well...good job seriously...
got one or 2 patients tat just come for normal checkups...no pain no nth..just visited a chiro to stay healthy..and its sooo not cheap to see a chiro seriously...
a full physical examination costs frm $80 to $140 excluding x-rays...then each individual visit is $39-$49...wah...so expensive..and its like..not even 10 minutes per visit...im really amazed by her work...she is super frenly...and super cool...hehe...
so ok la..ive seen about 20 patients today...
pretty cool...i may wanna see other chiros in practice some other day...hehehe...
now im hungry :( and i tink we're eating rice...*sobz*...
need to get some tings done later...*yawn*....
be back later..muaxx

sleeping and crying...

believe it onot...i cried 3 times during my sleep last nite..
first one i cried just inside my dream...the other 2 my tears really fell and i wiped it off..i can remember doing tat...
for wat i cry u say? the first 2 was because of my brother and wat my parents did to me...
i came home one day to realise that my brother has taken over my master bedroom...
i quickly ran and asked my parents wats going on..they say he is gonna take my room for the time being..will switch back after a while...they say he shd have the master room insteed of me...
i dunno y i agreed to let him have my room at the first plc..so i got his room....poorly maintained..the door cant close nicely..and i didnt have any privacy at all....
then after a while i demanded my room back..and my parents told me im not gonna get it back...
it is now my brother's room...i started crying....i say no way and tat is my room..they say its no longer mine and i shdnt have that room..so they are gonna take all my belongings and put it into my bro's room....i cried for real tis time...i argued saying they promised me the master bedroom and my bro would get the other room...then they started saying y my bro shd have that room..he was the guy...and i was the gal...guy more important then gal....so tats y i now have to be in his room...it was unfair..my parents became sexist....i cried really badly cuz i knew frm that day on, they dun luv me anymore..they oni luv my brother and everyting goes to him....all my stuff now belongs to him except for my clothes and my accessories...my lappie, my mini hi fi, my cam, and my other electronic and valueble stuff is his...after wiping my true tears i woke up....i couldnt open my eyes...then i went back and sleep..i hope tis dream never comes true...
when i got back to sleep, i had another dream....tis time its a luv scene...we have been together for 5 years and we were out celebrating our 5th year nniversary...u brought me to the most romantic restaurant in town...u bought me a big bunch of roses and a huge teddy bear...the nite started off well, beautiful scenery, beautiful wine and meal...then all of a sudden u got up and walked towards the table behind me and brought a gal wif u....u kissed her and told me its over between us...i started crying and ran out of the plc....frm tat day on, we never saw each other again because i migrated somewhere else and started my new life there...5 years wasted on someone like you..i regreted...but in the end i was happily together wif my partner....we still never saw each other again after tat....

geez....i have no idea y i had these dreams...its not really pleasant i can tell u tat....when i woke up my eyes were swallen...and my eye bags were extreme...goodness me....i really hope non of these 2 dreams would come true...i really dun wan it to happen....
going to uni later...wanna eat fettuccini later...wahaha...yum yum...will be back pretty late...hope we could get tings done later...*yawn*....

beware of thieves!! both males n females!!

aduii....my fren called me up just now and told me she cant make it tomolo for lab...
she was crying on the phone...her purse got stolen!! in the city library!!
she dun have liscence so tomolo cant drive to uni...
the ting is...she has so many cards and she has to cancel all of them....
shoit..tis is scary..she just stood up and got distracted by tis gal and when she turned back..her purse was gone and the 2 gals ran so quickly...damm those 2 b***h...
so upsetting...now im sooo gonna keep my eye on my purse...
i dun wan to be cancelling all my card cuz of tat!! i'll be screaming!!
so peep of oz and back home...dun ever leave ure purse on the table!!
no where is safe!! dun tink tat its safe..its never ever safe no matter where u are!!
just tot i share tis wif u all...dun wan tat to happen to anyone...
just beware kay....look after ure personal belongings...
bath time..lalalala...

damm lazy...

i am feeling extremely lazy today...
i missed 'house' last nite...cuz i was arranging my clothes in my wardrobe (super messy and i couldnt find the clothes tat i wan)...
tis time..i colour co-ordinated my clothes...if i still cant find wat i wan then i'll scream!!
couldnt use the lappie cuz cousin toking to my other cousin about some tings...so i oso 8 abit here and there and missed my show :(
it was a repeat..so nvm la...*hate repeats*
so dis morning..woke up and wanted to wash my clothes cuz fine weather mah...
but aunt took it for washing jor...lucky its just a few small ones..
i didnt throw the big heavy ones in..so i tink tis saturday oni wash la...
i called the chiropractor just now...she wasnt in wor...will call me back later wor...
quite far lor tis chiro..but i wan cuz she is a woman...and there isnt many female chiros in practice..so i am determined to go see her...
i hate leaving voice messege....i get so nervous when i leave them...i keep making mistakes wif my words...*geez*
i wonder if she allow me to see her in practice...*fingerz crossed*
im nervous whenever i go for interviews..imagine now i am the one interviewing....
i wonder how tat will go...*gulp*...hope she isnt too scary and nasty or even grumpy!!
i can just go to the one around my area but thats like a guy i tink....
tis one im hoping to go see hor..my uncle's fren's whole family goes and see her for chiro care..
they say she's good...so im even more determined to go check her out hehehe...
i really hope she approves and when she does..im gonna have a lil prob....i am not 100% sure how to get there!! its in freementle......i look at the map...looks pretty str8 forward..but to look for the clinic...thats the hard bit....and u noe me and my confident driving...haha...
maybe i shd ask for appointment on saturday or maybe tomolo...then i can like go find the plc today so tat i wont get lost tomolo or saturday..hope she doesnt mind..*heekz*
we have to wear proper attire...we are suppose to be a model ambassador for the School of Chiropractic at Murdoch University wor...*huh*
so i decided to wear my black pants, black long sleeve and a blue tie...the black outfit is someting like wat the 5th years wear in the clinic back in Murdoch....hows my attire? proper?? hopefully la...ehehehe...

just now i was toking to a fren of mine..he seems to be in a very bad situation...parents divorced and he has no money...he even sorta lied to me about his job...he say he doesnt wan me to larf at him wor...wat the heck...i dun look down on ppl la...*geez*
pity him..dunno he's making up all those stories onot tim..dun care la..i oredi told him tat i cant help wif anyting but just provide my support..everyone has to go tru hard times in life...so tis is just his one...he shd have saved up money last time insteed of spending all on his gf who now is no longer wif him cuz he is poor...*sick head*...

wanna go watch queer for the str8 guy..so cute~~hahaha....muaxxx

i cant and wont deny...

got wet from the rain yesterday...
fren called up so i went to the city in the morning to meet her and did some gyming and shopping..
almost missed my bus cuz i woke up late and i took my own sweet time to eat my brekkie...
look at the time..hmm...the early bus might just be there when i walk out...
u noe me la..i dun wanna be late by taking the next bus so i faste grab my towel n my bikini and ran out...run run run then the bus just stopped in front of me...im not even close to the bus stand yet...thankiu thankiu *take a deep breathe*
the moment i stepped on the bus it started to pour like cats n dogs...
the wind so strong u can feel the bus shaking..imagine wat its like if im in my car!!
got to the city..rain still..i just ran across the street without opening my umbrella...
pants got wet as usual..owayz wet when rain...
still early so i went and did a lil shopping...bought 2 silver rings...super broke...
its not worth paying tat much for those rings but i just liked it a lot...so i just buy la...
yea yea...i noe..its impulsive shopping *who cares* :P
got a few other jewellery frm diva...for the first time..i didnt even enter a boutique...haha...
on the way to the gym..i saw 2 super cute B...wahliao so yeng...their hair and their clothes...to die for!! but my guess is tat they are younger then me...can see one....look like 17-18...
*focuz focuz* *gym gym* hahaha..
didnt really work out today..ended up toking away wif my fren..
then went to the sauna...first time my fren entered the sauna there...hehe...
she's just the perfect sauna buddy....ehehe...
went for jap lunch at mr. samurai...errr...not as good as jaws...they dun have sushi..just rice and udon those type...i had teriyaki chicy and tempura and my fav miso soup!! *droolz*
next time go Taka (tink tats how its spelled)...we owayz eat jap food...yumm!!
then went 'window shopping'...and guess wat...she's omost the same as me...there isnt such ting called window shopping in our dictionary...we cant just look at things..we just wanna buy it!! so we faste leave la...went to the bus stop and she went back and i went back..
slept on the bus :x lucky i remembered to wake up for my stop..got off the bus and got wet...didnt open my umbrella in time so got wet *hachewwww*
dun tink i got sick...but i had a headache later in the nite...
toked about our future houses....how we wan it to be bla bla bla...
its omost impossible to get a house like the one i want...oh well..no harm just tinking about it ba..
cant seem to find someone who wants wat i wan...*sigh*
its owayz the opposite geh..no fun to tat...anyone willing to like wat i like? any takers?? guess not...lone ranger for tat again...*ish*
went to uni tis morning...keep tinking if the other 3 guyz will turn up...eh, u noe la..guyz are jus super forgetfull!! so i went and printed those docs out then went out the lib...saw one of them there...*relief*...then mitch came...*he's such a cutie*...he seemed to be a lil more serious then the others..i am jus speechless about ruben!! he is the most pethatic fella ever...i have never seen him in any of our meetings!! crap him!! dun care...we are omost done wif our own parts...he didnt do anyting...dun tink we are gonna let him do anyting..just let him get the free marks...*useless freak*....mitch came up wif this idea and it was brilliant!! we are gonna have a poster wif a canada flag background...i didnt even tink of tat...and i didnt even noe ottawa was in canada..i tot it was in japan *slap*...haha...
seriously..he is such a cutie...so soft spoken and polite...muahahaha....
so enuf about uni...i finished my pyscho quiz...*yeepeeeeee*
now need to focuz on the poster and my pysch lab report...*sien*
so now im here...browsing some blogs...and i realised tat a fren of mine is so pyschotic!! no names mentioned...*lipz shut*..not even gonna tell wat he did...*zip*
then...i came into my ex's blog...pure shocking to see wat i discovered...
not gonna revise tat here either...u go read ureself...*blekz*
the oni ting i have to say is...'im truely sorry'
i cant tink of anyting else to say...sorry is all i can tink off...
i dunno wat happened tat cause someting like tat to occur...im really sorry...
will tok to u tonite thou...a few more nites, a lil more larfs, a tiny pool of tears, and a whole lotta hugz and kizzess....
wanna go do sometings...will come back later...hugz..

quote for the day: i cant deny and i certainly wont try to deny the facts of luv and life...

i will not stop loving you...

if ive never told you i luv you...
im telling you now...
ive never stopped loving you...
i will not stop loving you...
ive watched you luv another gal...
ive watched you hold her in ure arms...
watching from afar i can see it in ure eyes...
that you have not stopped loving me either...
ure the reason i am strong...
ure the light that shines on me...
uve held my hands tru this years...
never have u let it go...
i thank you for assuring me..
that you will never leave my side...

orite..so ive watched the second bit of grey's anatomy: code black...even more kan cheong then the first one....and yes...the bomb did explode...=d end=
supposed to uni tis morning...but woke up a lil too late for tat..grabbed lunch wif me cousin then head off to spotlite to do a lil yarn shopping...most of the good stuff are oredi gone..the sale started last week! and the catalogue came like yesterday =___=" so nvm..still managed to grab one basket full of yarn...so tats 2 basket each...spent a fortune just on yarn today....*geez*....i bought yarn for 6 new scarfs for next year..muahaha....dunno will still rmb how to do it onot when i get back...cuz im planning to do them when i go back to kl...now no time to do jor mah...*winkz*.....went to the gym after tat....pretty tired now...going to the city to meet my fren tomolo....gyming together i tink...if not then its shop together..wahaha...

gonna have to sleep early today...cnt sleep at 3 jor...im not on holiday leh...after tis gonna do some research then go oioi lor....still dunno wat to write for the poster ler...still haven made a chiro appointment...*damm*...might call up on wednesday...might go to the one near the uni...
k la..not gonna waste time typing blog today...wanna get sometings done at least hehe....have a good nite ya all...muaxxx

oh my eye bagz are just...*speechless*

goodness..my eye bagz are officially bigger then my actual eyez!!
i hesitated to get up tis morning....i was damm sleepy last nite but i hung on till like 3!!
if my dad noes about tis im a dead person for sure...
so yea..i woke up at 10.....still very very sleepy...wanted to wash face...show my face downstairs then go back to bed...but then again...once i wash my face...im pretty much awake cuz the water is so cold!! showed my face a while then started doing my washing...damm clothes...so heavy and cnt machine wash those kind...hand washed a pile of clothes and took me about 45 minutez!!
my hands are extra rough...must moisturize!! i dun wanna have rough palms...*sobz*
i am like one of the princesses amongst my frenz here...but back home...being a princess is like an OPTION...and hey, im not tat princess material...u shd see some of my frenz..they really tink they are princesses..wat oso no need to do..everyting is either kak ini kak itu...or mum tis mum tat...i dun have a kakak at home...so some of the tings i have to do myself..i cook for my family, i clean my room most of the time, and oni occassionally tat i sweep and mop the floor...
here i have to wash my own clothes but i dun have to cook *sobz*....enuf crap bout tis..sien sei..

ive got a poster tat me and my team have to put up...got meeting tis wednesday...u noe ah...being in an all male group is just pethatic..they are so not serious at all...watever la..i do my share and they better make sure they do theirs!! if not i go complain...hehehe...my topic a bit hard to find resources ler...Ottawa Ankle Rules...noting much to write about....*sigh*...y didnt i get an easier topic like fractures or dislocation or someting...actually wait, mine is a lil bit of both..hahaha...need to go do research...sien kau...i wonder how the finished poster will turn out...aih..got many presentations coming up soon...and i need to go see a chiro at practice...and i still haven make appointment!! not sure which one to go too...there's chiro everywhere!! around my area oredi got a few...*geez*....hopefully i can make an appointment tomolo...wanna go spotlite and get some stuff first..head to the gym then come back..boring life...oh and b4 i forget i have to go to the post office first ting in the morning to post a piece of PAPER..if not someone will scold if it doesnt reach on time...sorry la..no special presents like tie and all those other bits u get...i just have a note for u tats all...*smile*

my hair is still wet....need to go dry my hair...dun like my hairdryer..must get a new one cuz im currently using a travelling kind of hairdryer..i wan those big powerful ones like the ones they have in the gym...shd buy when i get back...another item to be added onto my shopping list..hehe...

note to self : never ever give up on myself!! and never doubt my abilities and qualitiez!!

so sleepy!!!!

if it wasnt for the sound of the raindrops i wouldnt have gotten up frm bed tis morning...
the soothing sound of raindrops are just so calming...
i tink i tossed and turned alot last nite...till when i woke up, half my blankie was on the floor and my pillow too....my sleeping posture is just sooo wrong...i can never sleep one way and end up in the same position in the morning...
how do u ppl do it huh? its really impossible for me not to toss n turn...
the surprising ting is when i wake up, my hair is so normal...hahaha...pretty neat, not messy, just str8 and nice...no need to comb somemore...nice rite?hehehe...

so..about last nite....had a long nite...finished chatting just before 2am but slept oni at 3...tat is y i am extremely sleepy...suppose to go out but i got up so late..didnt bother to...cuz later have to help my cousin wif some tings...so didnt go out la...watched a lil tv...help my uncle make laksa...which was pretty farny....then watched a lil more tv then here i am now....listening to songs tat are just upsetting....i saw on tele just now about some broken hearted songs cd...a cd just for the broken hearted...*fainted*...i wonder if anyone would actually buy it...

i said tings which i shdnt have yesterday....my chest felt lighter after i told u tings u shdnt noe...i have no idea if tat was a good idea but i guess its too late now to take them back...u shd noe those stuff earlier and i shdnt have kept it frm you....i am sorri for my selfishness...i noe i deserved to be called a biatch...and yeah..someone did actually call me tat thankiu very much...at least now that ive got tat off my chest...i dun have to feel guilty over myself anymore...
i really dun wanna write anyting further....its breaking my heart...making me tink back about bad bad memories....


tis entry was suppose to be up in the afternoon...i went out so left it sitting here till now...
watched infernal affairs just now...nice show...2nd time watching....edison is soo cute...and and and andy lau too!! despite his age..he is just HOT for his age...wahaha..

anywayz..im having fun creating avatars rite now...hehe..ive got diff avatar for diff occassion...hehehe....update more soon..cheerz~

where do i begin...

suppose to wake up at 7 as usual to head down to the gym for a swim...
toss n turn until 8 someting...then cousin came over...heard her doing some stuff outside...
toss n turn again...and just before 9 i decided to get up frm the bed...
brush, rinse then head down for a caramel muffin *yuckz*...not a big fan of caramel...
just ate it..cuz no one else is willing to eat it...dun waste food peepz...
there's 2 more...brekkie for the tomolo n sunday i guess....
studied a few stuff...then called down for lunch at 10.30....
its soo early!! but my uncle needed to go see dr so ate early..i didnt wanna feel bad so i ate together wif them...i oni had to go to uni at 12 pluz...
got to uni and had a great time in prelab...saw a few really nice x-rays of fractured bones, dislocated joints and so on...*cool* but *confusing*
then had the next 1/2 hour wif some cadavers...*geez* the smell is horrible!!
i didnt touch them...my frenz were turning them around so tat i can see...
the scary part was one of the specimen's eyes was openned slightly...*hair standing*
some of them just didnt respected the specimens....*sigh*
thou it was great to get the chance to see those specimens i just couldnt stand the smell!!
one of my fren even said the smell was great...another saying it smells like beef jerky...*fainted*
lab was great!! had a spot test and it was great too...then had many many larfs...
today was just super funny in the lab...i like it when its a fun lab..i dun like boring labs...*yawn*

ish ish...my fren is getting a mazda3 sports...ish ish....tat was suppose to be my car..it was just a lil over the budget so got the jazz...im happy...but she's getting a m3!!!!!!!!!! black somemore!! leather interior!!! i am soooo jles now...she's paying it off wif her own money...
tis fren of mine...she is just amazing...u shd listen to her future plans...wat she plans to do next year...and wat she is willing to do just for the sake of her brothers...i would never do tat for my bro...buy a house to invest and use the money to some how help her brothers and her relatives..making sure they get good education...she even plans to sponsor her cousin's frm vietnam to get into oz schools...*wahliao*...i really kau tau to her...her plans after graduating is omost the same as mine....but i dunno if tat will happen...im hoping to...we'll see...its long way more...tink about now first then when the future draws near then oni tok about it...she's just a great fren...and im so envious!!

came back...slack around...flip tru some catalogues..father's day for oz is coming...not sure when...its diff frm back home...dunno watzup tis year...any family gath?? gonna feel like a total str8nger again...*sigh*...wanna write about someting i saw just now...but i tink its a lil out of topic so im gonna leave it out....i will post it up if i feel like it...see how first...tats all for now..have a good nite...huggzzzz

count ure blessings now...

if you wanna noe..
how much i luv you...
try catching the raindrops...
the ones u caught...
is how much i luv you...
the ones you missed...
is how much i am going to luv you...

its been omost 3 years...there were ups and downs...
u tell me not to leave u....u say u'll be good..
u say u'll listen to watever i say....
u did..just some...not all...tats fine....
i really dunno wat im holding on for...
i dun see the point of hanging on to it...
wanting to end it and actually doing it is 2 diff tings...
i am putting all tis aside...i dun wan to get into it too much...
i am not gonna hope for anyting further...
i deserve much better....

my back is much better today...today i didnt have to be the patient..hehe..
watched an anatomy show in lecture today...
seeing someone being skinned and cut open is just amazing...
a lil freaked out by the way he was skinned...but it was cool...
would u donate ure body for science??
i dun tink i would anymore after seeing how they handle it...
and tat person was a professional..imagine being handled by med students..
dun wan tok about tat now...making me a lil sick...
seeing them slice a preserved brain...tat was TOO MUCH....
oh my gosh...i am ending tis topic....i dun wanna see another brain being sliced by the meat slicer u find in the supermarket....*geez*
its not HAM ppl..its a HUMAN BRAIN!! *fainted*

gonna do some work now....maybe got spot test tomolo oh....*aikz*
dunno my team wil kena onot...better study for it...hehe...
i'll write more if i feel like it...hua hua hua...
till then..have a wonderful nite peepz...

happy belated and happy burfday to the august babies....sue hui, denise, wen wen, brian and so on so on...haha....got a few more...i tink i forgot who n who jor :x anywayz happy burfday to all la...cheerz!

dun bug me idiot..

im having a really really painful day...
my back is extremely sore...
i can even tell u which part of the back is aching...
the pain is just excruciating!!
its like the time when i started doing exercise again...
because of the intense pain...my mood just go way down below and u dun wanna come near me...
i get so hot tempered when im suffering...
not oni u do not noe how bad im feeling rite now...
u make me all fired up..
ask me dun mang somemore...crap u...told u im in pain and ure like testing my patience...
the stupiak idiotic msn is so lousy tat i couldnt use the webcam...
one minute i can and the next i cant....
tat really made me even more fired up...
i tried to control but my back is just tooooooo painful for me to be in a good mood..
tis is wat u get when u do too much palpation..too much force is acted upon ure body...
if its just once...it feels great..but when many ppl do it to u...it hurts!!
tis is part of my course so im so gonna suffer now...more force coming my way...
but it makes me appreciate the benefits i get frm it...
collected my spine model....sigh...aud$150....tat ting is so heavy....i had to carry it wif my oredi heavy bags to the car...added more pain to my back....

here i wanna thank jason and the others who taught me many tings in the lab today...its really good when ppl is willing to teach u things tat are just peanuts to them...he is great..he did massage therapy b4..so tis couse is super ez for him....he is a great person and a great teacher too....must learn more frm him..huahuahua....

back to my pain...its extreme!! i cant do much but make sure i sit up str8 when im typing tis...
maybe i shd go down to the clinic and get ronnie for some adjustments...it really hurts..can cry one kay...i just wanna jump on my bed rite now so tat i could forget about the pain...

tomolo need to have meeting wif my groupies...they are sooo not serious!! being the oni gal in the gp makes it even worse...must screw them tomolo...my team leader isnt doing much....tomolo's meeting better be productive or im gonna start off without them...
guyz....terrible species....

tats about it....pain is limiting me to type further...tomolo got market day....waste money again..*sigh*.....nitey nite peepz...hugss n kisses to all...

let me show u out the door...

been arguing a lot lately...*haihz*
i really dun like to start a fight wif ppl ler...
i really wanna show u the door so tat u can just walk out of it...
happen toooo many times jor...i dun wan this anymore..
sometimes i feel tat ure showing too much luv till u dun luv ureself anymore...
ive told u over and over again u cant just luv ure partner and not ureself...
u owayz neglect ureself and just want ure gf to have everyting...
luv ureself first before u luv someone else la...

yesterday a few things happened...a few unhappy ones at first then it got better...
i tink wat happened yesterday was a misunderstanding kua...
its all orite now i guess....was a lil upset..i did let it out...
i couldnt hold it back in...everyting u say has an effect on me....
im like a ticking time bomb....cut the wrong colour and i'll go *boom*
then u said someting tat got me tinking....am i suppose to be happy?
i dunno myself...i am like half happy half confused...
i wasnt sure how i shd take it....shd i just pretend i didnt noe?

not too long after tat i did someting really really stupiak....
ive been wanting to do tat since forever....
and i did it yesterday....and wat did i get??
i noe i shdnt have done it....but i wanted to see wat comes out of it...
so there i go...i did it and it wasnt pretty...trust me on tat...
althou i cant see the look on ure face...i noe wat it feels to be in tat position...

anywayz..just now i was watching gray's anatomy: code black...
there was a super duper coward dr in this epi....my gosh...he was such a chicken and he calls himself a dr....oh well...cant blame him oso geh...he had a family and 3 kids...
wat would u do if u were in his shoes? would u have run as well?
if u noe tat ure gonna die today..wats the one thing u dream of doing??
its kinda hard to think about it now..but when the day comes...u'll noe wat ure gonna do...

pretty sleepy rite now....its raining...remember to close ure windows!!
strong wind again....felt my car being pushed aside AGAIN...freak me out...
and then now i dunno if i got caught on cam for going over the limit! damm...
i was driving to the gym today and it was a 60 zone..i went a lil over 60 then i realise i just drove by a speeding camera!! dunno got flash onot tim...bt over a bit wont kua....*fingers crossed*
i certainly dun wan a ticket for tat....will piss me off totally....
of all places there's a cam there......geeeezzzzz......

cut my toe nails jus now...*sobz*...both my thumb-toe is bleeding...*sobz*...somehow i cut toooo deep and it couldnt stop bleeding...i tink i pressed the nail to hard then it started to bleed....*ouch*...now there's 2 snoopy plaster on both my toe...hehehe....
sleepy ah............................................................................................................................
mentally awake but pysically tired.....bad combo bad combo...my eyes are like shutting down on me.....
dr bailey is getting a baby *weeeeeee*

quote: i cant remember when was the last kiss because when we had the last kiss, i didnt expect it to be the last...i was hoping there would be more....and when u think ure in it forever...ure not...

me?? cryptical??

firstly, i dun tink im being cryptical. everyting i say is str8 forward, i dun twist and turn and go around big loopz. wat i wan u to noe i just tell...i dun like going around circles..gives me a headache. i dun see any hidden meanings behind wat i said. am not being ambiguos!! am not am not!! i like to keep my own secrets bt i owayz fail keeping them oni to myself. owayz terbocor out one. but hey, dun worry, ppl's secrets are definately 100% safe with me. i wont tell...its my nature. hahaha...*seriously*

last nite i was toking to my fren, then he told me about his breakup wif his galfren and how she wanted to return all his stuff. then somehow me and u tok about tis as well. my fren told me tat he would feel hurt if his gf returned everyting. eventhou he is the one to have made the call for a break, he will still feel hurt. he asked me if i would do the same. i was like his gf, i wanted to return everyting tat u gave. i oni do it if someone has brought hurt, hatred and tears into my r/s. ive oni done it to 2 of my exes. u'd be the 3rd but u told me u'll be sad if i did return the tings to u. ive oredi boxed up everyting and wanted to just drop it outside ure hs and leave. i didnt do tat...everyting is still in my room. i did took out a few tings and plc it where i can see them. it brings back memories, good and bad. but hey, its a gift, it showed tat u tot of me when u were buying it. so it has to mean someting. well maybe not everyting u gave i liked. its not hard bt its not ez either to pls someone like me. im kinda picky at certain tings. the colour has to be rite, the shape, the looks, and the feel has to be rite. i may be an impulsive-shopper but at least im satisfied wif wat i buy and i like it. but then again, i dun shop oni based on my feel, i oso see the big pricetag. i have to watch my poor lil wallet...its getting thinner..hahaha....
kay..heres the ting, the gift i dislike most of all is the blue flower necklace u gave :x i looked at it and im like...hmm.....really not my type. i did wear it thou. a few times...*serious*...i even wore it after we broke up. blief it onot, i took it along wif me for my college exams *sigh*...how can i tell u tis last nite and see ure upsetting face? tats too much to handle....seeing u mang is bad enuf ler....say out tat i din like tat ting lagi teruk. and u jus shut the webbie and left.....*haihz*...im really really used to tat now. u had a bad day and u sorta put it out on me?? tat seemed unfair for me wor...u dun see me doing tat to u ba...i dun tell u someting and u get all fired up...is tat really necessary??

my mum wish u all the best for ure studies ah....i told her. she was like 'i tot u guyz were enemies?' then she went on and on about how i owayz wave goodbye to u afte skool. it was really farny how she said it. i couldnt stand but larf out loud. the one ting i did in high skool. pretty farny now tat its mentioned. hahaha.....she oso toked about all the phone calls...the amount of porridge we boiled over the phone. how i owayz lock myself in the room toking to u...*geeez*....*insanity*....the upstairs phone is practically inside my room 24/7....owayz kena yelling for tat...its either u or my bestie who calls...but usually my bestie calls late/midnitez....my mum was like, u guyz see each other 5 days a week not enuf ah??? cant get enuf of each other?? i'll larf out loud again...hehehe....good ol days....

so hungry....got up at 9 someting and threw my clothes into the washing machine...quite a bit of clothes so didnt wanna wash wif hand :p didnt eat anyting..now hungry jor :( i tink eating chic porridge later..yum....but very fast hungry ler :( i just luv porridge wif those black stuff...marmite i tink its called...used to luv borvil but tat was beef...YUM!! so ex ler here...if not i sure go buy :P yummmmm......*drool*....got acha in the fridge...maybe i could add tat into my porridge...in case u get mixed up, my version of porridge is rice plus water..not oatmeal wif milk!! rice+water+boil-boil= broth *pengsan*....im still sticking to porridge!! sounds better..hehe...

so lazy clear my wardrobe...its a lil messy now cuz i owayz dig in to find clothes tat i wanna wear in the morning....dun wan clear la...next time first...hua hua hua....lazy bum bum...going out later...for a while oni i hope...cya all..have a wonderful saturday!! muaxxx

dun wanna tok to me jor??

how do u noe if someone doesnt want to tok to u anymore?
would u noe when or why?
im getting tis odd feeling tat ure avoiding me...
too sensitive? perhaps...the ting is..i have no idea y u dun wanna tok to me jor...
i dun see any reason for u to avoid me...i dun bite...
are there other reasons why ure not toking to me anymore?
was it someting ure fren said?? did they brainwash u and ask u to stay away from me?
am i tat fearful? i seriously dun bite...
happened twice jor...i get cold stares....cold words...and cold touches...
i sick u oso dun care geh...upsetting really...
nvm la...used to it jor...back to the way we were...

actually the other day when we were chatting, u told me someting..
i was really really mad..i dunno y i was...
noting to do wif me oso...but when i heard it i just got so pissed off cuz part of me was soooo naive to tink tat u wont do such ting....
i dun even wanna noe wat happens next on tat nite...wat she did there...
i guess it annoys u when i tok about her....well, it annoys me tooo....
seriously, i am soooo naive...i keep telling myself u wont do such a ting to me...
i dunno the whole story so i cant say u did it for real...im sure u did..its normal i guess...
i wished u never told me so tat i can remain naive as ever...

can u stick to wat u say or promised?
u promised me someting and i have yet to notice it...
to tell u the truth..i doubt u can even do wat u promised...
its impossible for u to do it...im saying tis cuz i noe ure behaviour..
i noe u well enuf to say u are not capable of achieving wat u promised me...
i am not gonna look back anymore...i wont see u as the ol u...
its a fresh start for everyone...even for us...
im gonna start everyting all over again..
im gonna get to noe u better..see who u truly are....
dis time im not gonna repeat the same mistake again...

one of my fren gave me tis tot...
long distance relationship will work!!
put ure heart to it and it will work out!
distance is not an obstacle....its there to test our patience...
our luv for one another....our chemistry....
same goes for time...screw the fact tat time is an obstacle...
its not....and never will be...
ppl tell me the same ting...but when tis fren of mine told me..it somehow struck my mind and really gave me a slap on the back...
i realise now tat noting is too hard...noting is too ez...
noting we cant do...noting we cant go tru...

oh oh..the other day during market day in uni i saw tis pendant...
its rectangular and it had a female sign on it...and it writes ' stay wif me '...its simple yet it stands out amongst all the other pendants..
i was tempted to get it for u but look at the price...*fainted*...i rather buy real sterling silver for u then buying tat normal piece of silver...
wif a black leather strap and it'll look brilliant on u...im sure u will like it as much as i do...
too bad...not paying such money for tat...
dun even noe if its good silver...too big of a price to pay for tat piece of metal...
realise uve changed and become someone tat is rather materialistic.....
getting someting for u is not as simple as it used to be...
i guess someting without a brand wont attract ure attention to put it on...
its hard to satisfy u jor...not as cincai as b4 i guess...
ppl change and so have u....a lot diff frm b4...
i observe and i noticed...*hiak*

will see wat happens today...
really dun wanna tok to me?? fine la....
cant force ppl can i? cant make u stay so let u go la...
tats all i can do...wont try my best to make u stay for me.................

cool water is new??

heard on the radio tat davidoff cool water is new wor...but i read tat its launched somewhere in 1996-97 leh....got quite a few pharmacy having sale for tat fragrance ler....so tempted to get the 50ml one....hehehe...
had headache all day long yesterday then got a lil fever during the nite...ate panadol then went to bed str8...woke up today and felt great...headache no more jor...weeeee....
did some palpation again....tis time it was ez ones...
went for my tut and realise tat i have super super bad memory....
did an experiment for psycho....really bad results..out of 15 words mentioned i oni remembered 7!!
aih..suddenly no mood jor....
need some larfter now....manage to get a few...
really farny.....
anywayz...dun wanna type jor...
cheerz...muaxxx

blue roses.....

i noe i noe..most blue roses are fake....cant really get ur hands on real ones anywayz so dyed-blue-roses is better then none...
i just luv blue roses...i get them on special occassions....bdayz, vdayz, and maybe some odd times as well...blue is my fav colour so anyting tat is blue..uve got my attention....
last time in high school, my ex and i sorta have tis 'under the desk' surprises....one day i came to school and i saw blue roses under my desk....i cant remember was it for saying sorry or just a normal surprise..cant really remember...it was 3 years ago la!! got other surprises too under my desk...hehee...its very cute when i tink about it now....how cute we were in class...these memories really really brings a smile onto my face.....hershey kisses!! my fav!! im gonna claim from u next time hehehe....

just now i was tinking about someting i did to make u mad and jles (i tink u were annoyed..more then mad)....me, u and another fren joined tis seminar in town and i tink we had a big big argument or watever...i was angry so when someone called me...i said words which are kinda hurting...it was pretty bad of me to do so....but hey i was mad...tat was a really bad time in our r/s...tings were getting frm bad to worse...it was kinda childish of me to do tat to u...i wont say im sorry for doing it thou....cuz im not sure wat was the reason we didnt tok to each other...it was terrible...frm there u noe tat tings are just bitter....

and about prom....*big sigh*...a nite i was looking forward to forever...just didnt turn out fun...maybe bringing those 2 fella isnt such a good idea after all...i tot it would be nice to go prom wif u and have the greatest nite then...guess not...it was really ugly...i tink u wanted to slap me and scolded the heck out of me...can see it on ure angry face....because of me the nite was ruined...tat wasnt wat i wanted for my first high school prom...now it got me tinking..y tat fella din go to prom hah? y just accompany me go there leh?? tats odd....obviously i was the 'crush' at that time...hahaha...funny days...someone u least expect to fall for u....i got a shock when i knew tat someone like tat will fall for someone like me...larf till stomache pain....

ah, those were the good ol days....minus all the bad bits...its just picture perfect...
am i actually fine?? i dunno ler.....do i look fine to u?? well i certainly felt a lot better telling u about my probs...i omost cried when i told my fren in uni today..i cant write out my probs here cuz someone i noe reads it and its not gonna be a pretty ting if he noes wats going on...i really felt comfortable around u....it has owayz been tis way...i tell u omost everyting unless it involves u and me la...then tat one of cuz i cant tok to u about it lor...tis kinda tings...it has to told either to my bestie or my partner...both oso i didnt tell...its just u tat i acknowledge...i noe tat u will be there to listen and not look down on me on such tings..other tings then yea...u will definately look down on me and tink tat im an idiot and not forgetting stupiak...i really appreciate tat ure there for me...but ure gonna be gone soon...and by emailing..its noting like chatting wif the real u....but email will do..ill send u one long email each week and bore u off wif my mail.....i really wan u to be wif me so tat i can tell u everyting tat im going tru....oh well..having u on9 for tis few mths is more then i could ever ask for...i noe i am boring....but tis is wat i wan from u...not too much to ask for ba...just ure time and ure eyes to see wat i have to type...u dun have to reply...just listen to me crap can jor...

having a major headache since morning....its like a disco inside my head...*boom boom boom*...couldnt take panadol just now cuz got long hours of lab and lectures...came back tot will ok but still booming away...need to take my bath then eat medi....
today in uni....my frenz were toking about religion...*sigh*....do we owayz have to bring tat up?? im not gonna say anyting to make ppl feel offended...so i just sat there and listen to them debate wif one another...im sitting on the fence..dun wanna create a scene wif them....follow wat ure heart tells u and u'll be fine....luv ya....

fashion breakdown...

today while i was having my lunch in uni....i saw tis lady...
no offence or anyting...she dressed sooo damm badly!!
she had really short fringe and long curly hair...
quite big size...wore a rainbow coloured knit wear...looks like a plu jumper...
tats the top half...bottom half was a nightmare!!
she wore 3/4 skirts and guess wat....fishmonger boots!!
not the popular yellow phua chu kang boots but bright green fishmonger boots!!
oh my gawd...did she accidentally wear her dad's fishing boots or wat???
seriously tat was the worse dressed person ive ever seen in uni tis year...
she looked like a big candy tree....the rainbow top was oredi weird enuf..wif the boots..its a real nightmare...geez...did she look at the mirror b4 she came to uni??
then i saw another gal while i was walking to my lecture...
a goth chic wif pink hair...tat wasnt too bad....she looks a bit like the singer 'pink'..her style and all...not too bad...
not tat i dress damm bloody good or anyting like tat but the rainbow top and the green boots is just soooo wrong...

enuf of tat bad fashion sense...came back then got a call from my cousin saying my uncle is hospitalized..just one nite for observation i guess...one of his arteries is 75% blocked and so he needed to do a baloon procedure...dunno wats tat called..am no dr...
shocked me at first.....but when heard his orite i felt better...i get really really sked whenever i hear tings like tat...so tonite its just me and my aunt for dinner..cousin not eating dinner...im guessing he is at the Hollywood Specialist Centre...and yay to me..cuz i help him track down the dr...wahahhaa...cuz the name card my uncle had was ancient...15 years ago..number and address oso change jor...so i help him find tru the net..muahaha...

im gonna cramp everyting into one entry...toked about gambling and cny....
so sad to hear u dun like cny...its one of the best days of the year....2nd to it would be new year...then vday...then xmas of cuz....every year my family and frenz sure sit down and gamble till morning...play cards, play jimrami, mahjong and pool. its oni once a year where we all sit down and plc money down and start the session. i enjoy it very much...when it comes to bonding..i tink its a good plc to start...not going to some cc and play war games...tats not bonding to me...tis is another ting tat suggest we dun have anyting in common...tings tat i enjoy doing u wont like and will tink its boring...vice versa...tats pretty sad dun u tink...
i luv visiting...i have to visit cuz i have to pass them cookies tat ive made for them...hua hua...
its not about ang pau's seriously...most ppl give tiny ang pau's...i dun look forward to those...oni close frenz parents give bigger ones...hua hua....too old for ang pau collecting jor...sadly next year no cny for me back home....new year there cny here...better then nth...xmas n vday both oso in kl..not too bad...looking forward for vday...go out wif a few dates then oni wif my partner...dun ask me y tat happens..it just does...its bad to turn down someone on vday...hua hua...so back to cny...now i noe i shdnt go over to ure plc to gamble...go other ppl's hs then....i dun wanna go out for kai kai..i dun wan go for movies on cny...did tat once wif one of my admirers...yuck...sien sei ngo...on cny u bring me go kai kai....i had to wear my chinese top out to make me feel better...*crap*...dun wan do tat again...i rather stay home wif my family or ure family...

just now had a guest speaker over..he is the president of the WA chiropractic association...his speech was so inspirational...there are over 200 practising chiro's in WA...and this year murdoch has its first bach of graduates for chiro...awesome!! the graduating class of 2006..i tink got less then 70 students..not too sure..but my year got 65 if im not mistaken...the speaker mentioned about some exercise ting created by the chiro association and amazed the World Health Organization..im gonna check it out later...hua hua...wanna see wats so amazing about it...its a programme called Straigthen Up Autstralia...and Healthy Spine for aussie school kiddies...gonna get out carelogs tomolo....wonder how many chiro's we have to visit for it...my fren said 50...geee..tats a lot...we have to go see how they practice....just sit at one corner and observe...tat would be amazing!! i have this 4th year chiro student who is suppose to look for her 1st, 2nd, and 3rd year students for some examination practice..too bad she hasnt contacted us 3....i asked my fren and he said she didn contact him either...too bad for her..we 3 are doing her a favour and she isnt appriciating it...just too bad then...

forgot wat i need to write jor...went down to eat then forgot jor...
tummy ache...*sigh*.....

bye wif noting after tat...

u noe how some ppl end their conversation...they just say bye and noting after tat??
well for ure information i hate tat soooo much...its just so rude and cold...
bye...and tats it...each time someone ends my chat wif just 'bye'...i'll go 'bye' ureself!!
i owayz end my conv by saying take care...huggzz n kisses...ok maybe not wif the kisses bit...
dun u tink this sounds better? instead of just plain ol bye...
my close frenz are like me...pretty much like me...we owayz end wif hugz n kisses...
last time there's tis someone...owayz when i say oh i gtg...the 'bye' word just ends everyting...
well tat changed recently...no more plain byez...got extraz..hehehe...
i wonder if its given sincerely or wat....
sien....no mood to type wat happen today...
skip today la...maybe if tomolo got mood then type tomolo's agenda la...hehehe...

i realise hor..these few mths....when i see a board full of names...the first name i see is ures...
not oni in uni...even in the gym...they have the classes timetable and i the first one i saw is ure name on bodyjam :/

the day draws nearer and ure gonna leave me soon...im sad bt happy at the same time...
we may not have the best connection amongst ourselves but its close enuf...
maybe u dun realise it but i certainly have...we've become closer then ever b4..
i tell u tings u are not suppose to noe....ive been soo open to u trying to give my heart out again...
im trying very hard....i noe its not gonna work but i still wanna try...
even if it fails..i noe i tried my best to save it...

we are 2 totally diff ppl wif diff personalities and come from diff background and yet we met by chance....ure a chance tat i have to take...i was given many chances but i didnt grab hold of it tite enuf...so i wont be letting tis chance slip off my grip anymore...i cant loose u again and again....its just to upsetting....hugzzz....

itz raining...

im sitting in front of my lappie doing my notes when it started to pour..
i stopped and look outside the window and saw my own reflection...
my mind shifted to us again....and i tot about tings that never happened..
i tot about us being in ure room...u left the windows open and it started to rain heavily...
u got up and closed it a lil, leaving a small gap in btw...
the smell of rain rushed tru the room and u came and sat wif me on the beanie...
u put ure arms around me and my head just naturally fell onto ure shoulders..
the sound of raindrops and the sound of u breathing assured me tat i was meant to be there at tat time...on ure shoulders where i belong...
u told me not to be afraid of the thunders and the lightnings...
i promised u i wont be afraid as long as ure by my side protecting me...
u hugged me tite and promised never to leave my side...
we sat there hugging till the sun went down...
u sent me home and gave me a kiss on my head...
u waited till i was safely inside the house then u drove off..

my mind keeps tinking about tings tat never happened between us....my fault all these never got to happen...ive given my luv to many and i gave u the least....im so sorry..if i could turn back time i will give u all my luv and promise to be there for u till u decide its the end of us for good...
y dun we just give luv a 2nd chance.....im sure we can work tings out better tis time...

just droping by..

morning peepz....i feel sick today...last nite when i was lying down on my bed i felt sick...blocked nose all of a sudden and couldnt breathe properly...tried sleeping on my back bt tat didnt work either...got a call and tat woke me up...when i was oredi asleep...damm it...damm u! nose felt better anywayz..so ok la...then got smses and another call...i dun feel as sick as yesterday...
woke up at 7.30 and tot it was 9.30..went back to sleep..then woke up at 8.30 again tinking it was 9.30...then had a dream...then bam..9.30 wake up...didnt wanna wake up...the dream left hanging...not fair...i wanna noe wat happens next :(
so wake up lor..clean myself up then go down...look at the sky...so cloudy..gonna rain..and it did! i still washed my clothes...hopefully it will dry cuz its suppose to be wet but warm today...
cut chili just now...hands are HOT....and i have like an itch on my eyes...i remembered not to touch my eyes wif both my hands..so now i have to use my arm to scratch it..hehehe...feels a lil hot hot too...*aikz*....my hands hurt after last nite..did some pom poms for my cousin's scarf...pain pain :(

gtg now...wanna eat lunch jor..i noe its early...but i haven had my brekie...hehehe...muaxxx

echooooooo.....

in the morning fetched my cousin go somewhere..then i went off to the gym then went back there to pick her up again..then went for lunch then shop a bit...bought a skirt.....went to the fragrance section..damm!! i saw the davidoff 'cool water' fragrance for her...so nice the smell!! i lub lub it so much..wanted to get one bottle but pocket abit tite..so didnt get..come to tink about it...someone gave me a bottle last time..smells like this one wor...y didnt i tot of tat just now?? i didnt bring the perfume here...got reason one kay....tats y the smell so familiar!! i wan i wan i wan!! nvm la,noe i wont get it anywayz...then go try the davidoff echo...again! i luv it sooo much....i still smell like it now...wahahaha...i dun have any perfume wit that kinda scent...so damm nice...im luving it!! then went to garden city's myers...i saw the echo gift set...100ml perfume and 100ml body lotion i tink....oni aussie60!! damm tat was soo damm cheap....i didnt get it ler...dun ask me y la...u dun even wanna noe how much i spent today...bought a pair of jeans, 2 tops, a skirt and a sunniez! wooohoo....if i didnt buy all those i will go back and get the perfume set...no money jor....my debts are so high now...how can i pay for all those tings tat i bought hah?? who can stand a spender like me?? no one can seriously...

now downstair got mahjong session...so i ran up and on9 lor...type tis and lack around as usual...
pretty tired..had oni 5 hours sleep tis morning...damm bloody sleepy...didnt do washing somemore..tomolo have to do...dun care la..rain rain la...i still have to wash...sien sien....cnt shopping oredi seriously...owayz say wanna window shop bt still end up buying...no matter i go alone or go wif ppl...still end up spending like mad!! i cant imagine my life in the future seriously...who can tahan me!!!!!!