blue roses.....

i noe i noe..most blue roses are fake....cant really get ur hands on real ones anywayz so dyed-blue-roses is better then none...
i just luv blue roses...i get them on special occassions....bdayz, vdayz, and maybe some odd times as well...blue is my fav colour so anyting tat is blue..uve got my attention....
last time in high school, my ex and i sorta have tis 'under the desk' surprises....one day i came to school and i saw blue roses under my desk....i cant remember was it for saying sorry or just a normal surprise..cant really remember...it was 3 years ago la!! got other surprises too under my desk...hehee...its very cute when i tink about it now....how cute we were in class...these memories really really brings a smile onto my face.....hershey kisses!! my fav!! im gonna claim from u next time hehehe....

just now i was tinking about someting i did to make u mad and jles (i tink u were annoyed..more then mad)....me, u and another fren joined tis seminar in town and i tink we had a big big argument or watever...i was angry so when someone called me...i said words which are kinda hurting...it was pretty bad of me to do so....but hey i was mad...tat was a really bad time in our r/s...tings were getting frm bad to worse...it was kinda childish of me to do tat to u...i wont say im sorry for doing it thou....cuz im not sure wat was the reason we didnt tok to each other...it was terrible...frm there u noe tat tings are just bitter....

and about prom....*big sigh*...a nite i was looking forward to forever...just didnt turn out fun...maybe bringing those 2 fella isnt such a good idea after all...i tot it would be nice to go prom wif u and have the greatest nite then...guess not...it was really ugly...i tink u wanted to slap me and scolded the heck out of me...can see it on ure angry face....because of me the nite was ruined...tat wasnt wat i wanted for my first high school prom...now it got me tinking..y tat fella din go to prom hah? y just accompany me go there leh?? tats odd....obviously i was the 'crush' at that time...hahaha...funny days...someone u least expect to fall for u....i got a shock when i knew tat someone like tat will fall for someone like me...larf till stomache pain....

ah, those were the good ol days....minus all the bad bits...its just picture perfect...
am i actually fine?? i dunno ler.....do i look fine to u?? well i certainly felt a lot better telling u about my probs...i omost cried when i told my fren in uni today..i cant write out my probs here cuz someone i noe reads it and its not gonna be a pretty ting if he noes wats going on...i really felt comfortable around u....it has owayz been tis way...i tell u omost everyting unless it involves u and me la...then tat one of cuz i cant tok to u about it lor...tis kinda tings...it has to told either to my bestie or my partner...both oso i didnt tell...its just u tat i acknowledge...i noe tat u will be there to listen and not look down on me on such tings..other tings then yea...u will definately look down on me and tink tat im an idiot and not forgetting stupiak...i really appreciate tat ure there for me...but ure gonna be gone soon...and by emailing..its noting like chatting wif the real u....but email will do..ill send u one long email each week and bore u off wif my mail.....i really wan u to be wif me so tat i can tell u everyting tat im going tru....oh well..having u on9 for tis few mths is more then i could ever ask for...i noe i am boring....but tis is wat i wan from u...not too much to ask for ba...just ure time and ure eyes to see wat i have to type...u dun have to reply...just listen to me crap can jor...

having a major headache since morning....its like a disco inside my head...*boom boom boom*...couldnt take panadol just now cuz got long hours of lab and lectures...came back tot will ok but still booming away...need to take my bath then eat medi....
today in uni....my frenz were toking about religion...*sigh*....do we owayz have to bring tat up?? im not gonna say anyting to make ppl feel offended...so i just sat there and listen to them debate wif one another...im sitting on the fence..dun wanna create a scene wif them....follow wat ure heart tells u and u'll be fine....luv ya....