let me show u out the door...

been arguing a lot lately...*haihz*
i really dun like to start a fight wif ppl ler...
i really wanna show u the door so tat u can just walk out of it...
happen toooo many times jor...i dun wan this anymore..
sometimes i feel tat ure showing too much luv till u dun luv ureself anymore...
ive told u over and over again u cant just luv ure partner and not ureself...
u owayz neglect ureself and just want ure gf to have everyting...
luv ureself first before u luv someone else la...

yesterday a few things happened...a few unhappy ones at first then it got better...
i tink wat happened yesterday was a misunderstanding kua...
its all orite now i guess....was a lil upset..i did let it out...
i couldnt hold it back in...everyting u say has an effect on me....
im like a ticking time bomb....cut the wrong colour and i'll go *boom*
then u said someting tat got me tinking....am i suppose to be happy?
i dunno myself...i am like half happy half confused...
i wasnt sure how i shd take it....shd i just pretend i didnt noe?

not too long after tat i did someting really really stupiak....
ive been wanting to do tat since forever....
and i did it yesterday....and wat did i get??
i noe i shdnt have done it....but i wanted to see wat comes out of it...
so there i go...i did it and it wasnt pretty...trust me on tat...
althou i cant see the look on ure face...i noe wat it feels to be in tat position...

anywayz..just now i was watching gray's anatomy: code black...
there was a super duper coward dr in this epi....my gosh...he was such a chicken and he calls himself a dr....oh well...cant blame him oso geh...he had a family and 3 kids...
wat would u do if u were in his shoes? would u have run as well?
if u noe tat ure gonna die today..wats the one thing u dream of doing??
its kinda hard to think about it now..but when the day comes...u'll noe wat ure gonna do...

pretty sleepy rite now....its raining...remember to close ure windows!!
strong wind again....felt my car being pushed aside AGAIN...freak me out...
and then now i dunno if i got caught on cam for going over the limit! damm...
i was driving to the gym today and it was a 60 zone..i went a lil over 60 then i realise i just drove by a speeding camera!! dunno got flash onot tim...bt over a bit wont kua....*fingers crossed*
i certainly dun wan a ticket for tat....will piss me off totally....
of all places there's a cam there......geeeezzzzz......

cut my toe nails jus now...*sobz*...both my thumb-toe is bleeding...*sobz*...somehow i cut toooo deep and it couldnt stop bleeding...i tink i pressed the nail to hard then it started to bleed....*ouch*...now there's 2 snoopy plaster on both my toe...hehehe....
sleepy ah............................................................................................................................
mentally awake but pysically tired.....bad combo bad combo...my eyes are like shutting down on me.....
dr bailey is getting a baby *weeeeeee*

quote: i cant remember when was the last kiss because when we had the last kiss, i didnt expect it to be the last...i was hoping there would be more....and when u think ure in it forever...ure not...