u need both hands to clap...

its 6.16 now and i dunno if i shd sms u and wish u a safe journey to dublin...
when i read ure blog i told myself no...i wont sms u...
it seemed pretty hurting at one point...
i knew someting was wrong there and then...tats y u treated me so cold last nite...
y am i so blind...how can i not see tat coming...
obviously...u need both hands to make a clapping sound...it wont work if u just use one...
i tot i made a clapping sound...guess not now...
im the stupid fool who tot tings were getting better...
i seriously tot tat someting new might happen but after reading wat u say...i just stopped watever i was doing and sat in front of the comp like a dumbo...
tis is not a one person game....im in it and so are u...
u stepped out....so im left alone....
obviously the game is over now.....u can have all the fun u wanna have wif whoever u want to...
ending it wif M sounds convincing to me...but now...after being slaped on the face...i realise that im so stupid...so so damm stupid to tink tings tat i noe will never ever happen..
y did i put myself in tis position....im being hurt by u not once, not twice...but multiple times!!
i really hate u now....thanx very much for doing tis...u really tot me a lesson....
i really wanna cancel the meeting we agreed on...
frm the way tings are turning...i dun tink its a good idea anymore...
u will be wif someone having LOTSA FUN...
i dun wanna be a stupid doink again on tat day waiting for someone who isnt gonna turn up...
its amazing how someone could change in just one nite...
i wanna cry but i am not gonna...im not gonna be the stupid gal u knew back in high school..the cry baby who cried over small lil tings....
wat am i even tinking putting our pic as my lappie background...
i feel so sorry for myself making u tat farewell card...now tat i noe it didnt reach u...i feel happy..
it would be even better if it were to be lost in post...
good on u for finding someone NEW on the net...have fun wif her..enjoy ure time....
i didnt noe tat spending time wif me was such a boring statement for u...
im glad tat we're not gonna be toking anytime soon....
now tat i have finished showing my anger....i feel much better...
a few anger tears fell...but tats orite....i noe i wont be doing tat for u anymore..
id rather cry for steve who died today....
all tis time...i was the stupid one..
clapping wif oni one hand....no wonder i didnt get a perfect clap...silly gal...
goodbye for now....