the stupidest fren ever to live...

its not just today tat i realise tat i am the stupidest fren ever to have stepped on earth...
no one appreciates wat i do for them as a fren..
frenship means a lot to me and so i officially became the dummest person ever...
like jacob say in his msn 'you should invest more on ure frenship'...
i cannot agree to wat he said as i have over invested and i get noting in return...
i get scolded from ppl saying tat i treat ppl to nice bt i get treated the other way around..
ppl take me for granted...they must be saying 'wat can tis stupid gal do...?'
wat happened today made me wake up from my deep sleep...
H...i dunno if i will ever trust her the way i used to...
she is ure so-called close fren...someone who makes u tink tat ure a close fren..
i admit that i was stupid as i didnt call her to see if she's still in the hospital before driving all the way to go visit her...
but then again..when i called her up yesterday i told her tat i'll be going over to see her tomolo which is today...
she was discharged last nite and she didnt even tell me...dun call me nevermind...at least msg me saying tat ure out!! wats the point telling me tat ure admitted and not telling me tat ure discharged? tat is not how frenz work...
my mum scolded me saying y i go visit her so often..its not tat she's in a serious condition..
i told my mum tat she's my fren and she told me tat she's not well so as a fren i should go visit her and be there for her when i still can...
but wat do i get in return?
tis really made me realise tat frenz cannot be counted on..
no one can! i am so pissed off tat said tings which i shouldnt..
my fren tried to control me bt tat definately didnt work at all...
i omost drove into a wall...scratched my car and was soooo pissed off....
frenz dun treat frenz tis way....
it is unfair for me...y make me look like a fool...
u larfed when i made a fool out of myself...
when i asked where were u...it oredi made me feel as if im an idiotic pethatic lil fool!
from now onwards...i will never be so naive...i will never take frenship so seriously until i had to make a fool out of myself...
if ppl wanna treat me tat way then too bad...
there's a saying tat goes ... treat others how u wan them to treat u in return..
i will keep tis saying in mind...i wont be a fool again...
if u call ureself a fren...BE ONE...and NOT ACT AS ONE....
my fren once told me tat when a fren of mine is in trouble...i go till the end of the world to help tat person..but when i am the one in need...no one runs to me to give a helping hand...
i am a silly gal clapping oni wif one hand...tat is y there isnt any sound!
all im asking is a show of appreciation over wat ive done for them...
saying thanx isnt enough....u have to mean it...if not dun bother saying it...
same goes for saying ure sorry...and when u say ure sorry dun larf...its rude and hurtful...