i cant deal wif u anymore..

from wat i see and wat i tink...
from wat i hear and wat i say....
i dun tink i can deal wif u anymore...
i tried and tried but it just doesnt work....
ive seen wat u did today...
uve never done wat u did...
tat told me i have had enough..
tat i wont have to deal wif u no more...
uve gone way over board and im sorri...
cuz from today, you will never be part of me...
u might tink tat im insensitive...
but i couldnt care less anymore....
cuz uve broken me into another million pieces...
pieces tat wont be patched back anymore...
tried ignoring, tried hiding, definately tried hating...
im tired of all the games i play with you...
until u realise ure mistake...
then i'll be ready to take u back in...
till then...ure 'blocked'.........

cyndi gal...he'll be back..

for those who doesnt noe who cyndi is, she's my lil cousin sister...
she's 14 now...when we were younger we use to be quite close..
but as we grow, we tend to seperate...maybe cz she's got frenz and we hardly see each other..
she's very cute and has luvly eyes when she was young..i use to have them when i was lil but then as i grow and become fatter, my eyes grew smaller...
i envy her eyes cuz before my uncle had her, ppl owayz say how pretty i am and how pretty my eyes were...jealousy stinks...
each time we meet..there's noting to tok anymore..its just hi...bye..
last time she owayz stick wif me maybe cuz im the other gal in the family besides her..
i read her blog and found out tat she has a bf...
it reminded me of myself when i was in primary school when i had my first bf...
it was the sweetest and its owayz hard to forget first luv...
they broke up oredi..after 1 mth and 20 days (according to her blog)...
and she's very upset and i guess she wants him back..
the reason they broke up seems to be tat the guy wanted to concentrate on his studies :/
typical excuse to use when dumping a partner...its owayz not true..
althou its oni puppy luv, its still better then not getting luved at all..
cyndi is a bright gal, tall and pretty...so if i were to be her, i wont worry a bit...
im sure guys would go crawling towards her in time...
cheer up cyndi gal...pay attention to ure studies and sooner or later u'll realise tat guys are just good for noting..they are created to hurt gals...so be brave hehehehe...

next ting to blog about is how rich kids look down on us not-so-rich kids...
a person named rave looked down on me again today...
its never been a pretty side when we start to disagree wif each other..
it was my bloody self tat made all this happen..i shd have kept my mouth shut and not tok about my family problems...now tat tis rave person noes about it, its a larfing matter...
rave is from a rich family and somehow rave looks down on everyting of me...
obviously its clear tat i dun mean anyting to tis rave person...
everyting i do is not rite and everyting i say is wrong..
im starting to tink tat tis rave fella isnt my friend anymore...
friends dun look down on friends and friends owayz stay close to frenz..not go againsts them..
u claim to be on my side but everyting u say is contradictory to wat i say...
u obviously tink im not good enough for u..aint tat rite? just admit it and i'll get over it...
cuz u owayz say u care, u owayz say u wanna be my friend, u owayz say tat i mean someting, u owayz claim tat ure on my side!! u never mean wat u say!!!!!!
it really really hurt me when u say wat u said tis morning....oredi was i pissed enough wif my bro, now u wan me to get pissed off wif u...
and then u tried to rearrange the words so tat it wont sound so much like ure toking about me..
when u say tat i will never see wat u do...damm wrong u are..
cuz watever u do to me i CAN see and its not someting i WAN to see...
forget it rave...i will never be good enough for u or anyone else cuz i am who i am and i will be who i wanna be...

very pissed of wif my bro...

its freaking stupid and im totally pissed off...
my bro is having relationship probs wif his ridiculous gf and the gf's parents ask my parents to go 'chat' wif them in china...
wat rubbish is tat?? they asked both my parents to fly to china just to tok about puppy luv? WTF!! excuse my language but i tink its total bullshit and im pissed off rite now..
im not discriminating my own race but i dun wish to have anyting to do wif china ppl...
althou my bro's a jerk arse..i dun see why he have to pick a mainland gal...
who is she i dun wanna noe..wats her intentions i lagi dun wanna noe...
all i noe is tat my bro is f*****g crazy and out of his mind..
did he drug my parents or wat?? tis is all bullshit and a joke man...
it has nth to do wif me but it has someting to do wif my family and damm is tis freaking biatch destroying tings!!
did she psycho my bro and my parents? bullcrap bullcrap...
my mum didnt tell me anyting cuz she noes tat im gonna yell and yes i am yelling rite now...
its really pissing my arse off and im in a ridiculously bad mood rite now...
if my parents plan to go to her part of the country tis july i'll definately yell in front of them..
are they freaking blur or wat?!?!
my dad would never do such lame tings and if he does..someting is wrong somewhere...
if my bro is getting married to that biatch then fine..i shardup but tis is mearly puppy luv!!
and wat was all tat bullshit about her getting an arranged marriage...bullshit man...
trying to con my family are u biatch!! mainland ppl are a big no no for me but unfortunately i have family there =="
i cant wait to see the drama when i go back....i tink im going insane because of my bro...
seriously..we are noting alike...are we really related???

wahliao im so pissed off rite now tat all i wanna do is freaking sleep...
by the time i wake up someone better make me feel better or they'll get it as well ><

omost forgot...congratulations to wynce and her future hubby...
they are getting married next year january 27...
im invited to their wedding in jb and i dun tink i can make it...so far la...
i really wanna go cuz i wanna see wat use to be a butch wear a wedding gown...
of cuz not oni for tat la..to celebrate their luv and commitment..

today...i touched a pregnant woman's stomache and the feeling was incredible!
never in my 21 years of life have i felt a baby kicking inside someone's body...
when i felt the belly it was just an unforgetable moment man..
no words can describe my feelings at that very moment...
i noe im exagerating a lil but to me its just wonderful...
i could feel the baby's hand and head...
i so wished i had a baby and hope i will get the chance to be pregnant and carry a baby :D
i dun care how hard is it...i will want kids in the future...but if i cant have one then its just fated to be tat way..i cant change nature...we'll just have to wait and c...

crap...my cousin asked me to watch tv cuz they were showing how to make sushi...
guess wat? when i was in kl..i bought so much sushi stuff and errrr i oni made it once! can u imagine how much ingredients is left??
u noe wat got me making sushi? my uncle is a chef, so every twice a week he brings me sushi and wahliao...those are super yummy..
he gets me a big tupperware each time and i owayz cant finish it....
he got me all sorts...he noe i like the baby octopus one so he got me a lot of those, a lot of egg roe, a lot of fresh seaweed, eel, prawn and a few more dunno wat...
i haven even finish he oredi bring over the next bunch...
i had sushi for about 2 months until i beh tahan liao...eat so much a bit sien..
and i luv plain sushi just wif vege and crab meat...i go buy ingredients lor..buy a lot tim...
oni made once...results: excellent...tasted excellent hahaha....self praise hahaha...
i ate so much....deep into lotsa wasabi and jap soy...yummy!!!!!!!
i wanna make sushi when i go back..hahaha..living on sushi diet hahahaa....
fei sei ngo lor....lolx!!

im the cause of all pain and misery...

gathering yesterday was not too bad...had a great meal for sure...
over ate cuz i was hungry...they were bbq-ing outside and it was so smoky but i luv standing there...bbq is so my type of outdoor tingo...but sadly i never get the chance to do tat much...
im tinking of having a bbq wif my family when i go back but kl is just stinky hot to have a bbq...
had so many tings to eat...ate omost everyting there accept for lamb and beef chopz...
i luv to eat my aunty's fried noodle...i ate 3 rounds of noodles muahahaha...
im a noodle queen fyi...i luv all sorts of noodle except for 'dry noodle' or shd i say 'kon dou min'...
my uncles said i lost weight wor...of cuz not...they say tat to make me happy...
unfortunately i gained a lot of weight ever since my holidays hahaha...
never got to loose it...wat i lost i gained back ><"

my aunt got plant peanuts and yesterday or a few days ago..a rat dig up her peanut plants and she got so fedup she dig most of the peanut up and boiled them today!
YUMMY...my fave!! not salty enough but it was better then nth...made me miss kl so much...
u noe onot the last time i went to batu caves...the whole street was selling it..
before i got on the bus i faste buy...the bus omost left without me! haha...
so yummy leh...very fattening tooo hahaha...but who cares..food first..weight second (as if)...
well....u can hardly get organic peanuts kay...i dun plant them...so its owayz the road side stuff...but tis time its 100% organic from my aunt's garden...
about the rat..my aunt fried a pork skin as bait to catch the rat..lolx!
dunno worked onot..will find out soon haha..poor mousy...run mousy run!!

my aunt found a 5dollar note and it was the older version from the one we are using now...
she gave it to me and ask me keep and dun use hahaha...
its genuine..i asked my cousin oredi lolz...

===top is current and bottom is one generation (1st generation) before===

sorri but i still haven got around to putting up the pics i promised...
im waiting for next mth to come so tat i have enough quota to actually get tings done hahaha..
gonna watch a lil tv now then do my work later..
very sleepy...got pissed off wif myself just now during the exam cuz i changed answers again and i got wrong! P me OFF!!

listen to the song...

music is very important to me and without it i tink i wont be able to survive...
ive got many many favourites and it changes every now and then..
today my cousin made me find a song for her and i found it ^^
its quite a funny sounded song and its going on and on in my head...
one part of this song makes me tink back about my previous relationship..
just tat part of the song makes me saying ' hey ive been in tat situation b4 and ive heard my ex telling me about it '...
so many la...there are like a thousand songs tat reflect my life and sometimes its not a happy ting..some maybe joyful whereas some maybe pure heartache and pain...

*when i start to build my future she's the main component*...tis is the phrase which i tink reflected me in a way because ive heard a story about tis and i tink i was part of tat story...i may not be the main component but i was that person...

anywayz, ive changed my bookings, im flying back on the 12th of june and returning 4th of august...tat means i get to celebrate my bday for sure *yeepee*...
i wonder wats my bday gonna be like...it wont be big and im hoping its a 'table for two' kinda bday *hint hint*wink wink*..hehehe....
ive got it sorta planned out oredi...will see how it goes...

i actually just got back from my cousin's plc and wow...i just realised that there are so many family gossips and problems here....dun tink it involves my side of the family but wahliao there are many tings going on in my australian side of the family...and its pretty big too....
i was like wooooo and huh when i listened to wat they were toking...
i didnt noe there were so much conflict btw one party and another...
i guess ive got lotsa tings to tok about to my mum tis weekend hehehe...
much to gossip..tats wat i do best wahahahaha....
anywayz, like i said b4 there is gonna be a small gathering tomolo...
there goes my day...hopefully it ends early and i can get back to do my work...

its the way u make me smile and cry...

im suppose to take a nap geh...dunno y so sleepy!
i guess its the weather...its raining and my car is washed i hope :P
came upstairs, turn on the comp for music then ended up not napping but chatting =_="
u noe how it is sometimes when ure on9 but no one to tok to then there are the other times when u dun wanna chat but the messages keep coming? well i dislike them sometimes...but sometimes its nice cuz all of a sudden there is so many tings to tok about :/

didnt go to pit's house today cuz lazy and raining...
going tomolo...uni closed cuz anzac day...i really hope i can finish my 2 of my presentation tomolo...today i dressed so horribly...so mismatched! was rushing and my belt decide to break on me...i noe im fat bt tat wasnt the reason the belt broke...
i kept pulling it cuz my pants are sorta loose and my belt is rather long...so i pull pull pull now gone lor...
need to buy belt but belts here are just soo not me....
i use to hate wearing a belt last time but ever since i bought an elle office dress, my mum made me buy a belt and ive been wearing it ever since...till it broke of cuz hahaha..
now tat im without a belt..my pants keep falling off and i have to pull it up every 5 seconds!!

tonite going over to cousin's plc to rebook my flight...im going back a week earlier then scheduled...my last day of exam is 11 of june so i will change my flight to 12th :P
i told my mum and she asked me to come back and she say she will pay for the surcharge...
cuz i said it was so ex...S$35 to change leh...waste money!!
but my mum say dun care and she will pay so hooray...im changing it later :P
i guess she miss me alot alot thats why even one week oso she wants me to go back earlier...muahahaha...

yesterday we had lab and we were suppose to fast for 10 hours prior to the 2.30 lab..
obviously i didnt fast and im not the oni one...oni a few ppl fasted and lucky i didnt do it..or i'll faint...
it was a blood glucose exp and we had to prick our fingers for blood...
since i didnt do the fasting i just prick my finger for fun to see wat my blood glucose level was...
so painful la!! i couldnt bare pricking myself so my fren did it for me..wahliao it was painful...
the next lab oso need to fast...no way am i fasting...oredi chose a member to fast wahahaha...
the mark is still on my finger :(

i noe ive gone over tis a milion of times but im saying it again...
im an evil evil person....there are so many reasons to me saying tat over and over again...
i destroyed ppl's dreams...i made them dislike me for wat i do...i make them cry and worse of all..i make myself cry too....so how can i not be evil?
i smile to cover up the tears, cry to cover up the pain...but then i cant cry for those tat i deeply hurt...
i dunno how to make myself a better fren, a better companion and a better partner...
i seriously ask myself do i deserve the luv i get from those who say they luv me...
i wanna luv them back but i noe its impossible and i dun wanna persue it...
if i do i will end up hurting again....i dun wan anyone to hate me for luv..

is there gonna be a gathering tomolo? i seriously have no idea..
i just heard my aunt toking to my cousin about chicken wings?!?!?!
i wan chicken wings kakaka...
my aunt steam chicken today..but she very very seldom cook chicken rice weh...i oni at her chic rice once!! and my frenz keep asking me about my chic rice and when im gonna cook for them wahahaha...pure hainanese chic rice..wanna eat? come my kl house i cook for u anytime :P

gotta run now...wanna go to the toilet and go eat din din...
i'll post the pics soon hopefully...stay tuned...huggiez..muax!

curtin idol nite muahaha...

the day has finally arrived - 20th april 2007...its the day for curtin idol nite...
i dunno y im so anxious...its not even a murdoch uni event...hahaha...
i just cant wait to dress up leng leng mah ahaha...
pit and mel came over to uni and then we went for lunch at HJ then head home to grab my clothes and blankie cuz sleeping over at mel's plc (didnt wanna come home soo late like the other nite so sleepover is the best result lol)...
went back to pit's plc in queen's park to get a tilam, then go erika to get hair straightener from ee von's plc then zoom zoom to mel's plc...
watched a few stuff on you-tube...chit chat...admiring our gownz lolx....
took bath, took pics, admire the shoes and gowns again...
mel cooked pumpin so me and pit put first layer of foundation and eyeliner first...
eh..i never put foundation or eyeliner b4 leh...first time..
strictly speaking i got a lot of first time wif these 2 frenz of mine haha...
apply foundation liao look diff haha...shave my eyebrowz and cut myself..ouch ouch...
put eyeliner...wah...i am starting to luv eyeliner hahaha..must go get one next time...
the 2 tings i didnt do was curling my eyelashes and putting mascara on...hahaha...
my eye lashes a lil curly liao mah..so no need for all those la :P
go watch mel cook then ate then dress up...late liao eh...
mel help me put eye shadow then faste wear the gowns..PHEWIT all 3 leng luis hahaha..
rushing rushing cuz really late liao eh...
then pit help me straighten my hair...
OMG i luv the straightened hair...im so gonna straighten my hair permanently for my next hairstyle hahaha...i look like a fat cleopatra hahahahahhahahaha...
take pic take pic...so funny la all 3 of us...so many pose so may smilez...
wear jewellery, wear shoez, take pics, put perfume, call taxi..wait wait wait wait...
oh and we all wore the same shoez..me and pit wear silver and mel wear bronze hehe...
taxi took so long to come...and when it did...it was so funny...
the driver reached infront of the driveway...put his windows down and blew the 'leng lui whistle'...so funny so funny..he was an iraqian..
he said we all look damm beautiful and sorta self invited himself to the function but didnt go la of cuz...not allowed to muahahaha...
wahliao..the taxi fair super ex wei....the meter go super fast..i kept looking as it goes higher and higher...
reach hilton hotel and taxi fare was $21.80...haha..
wanted to wait for mel's fren to open the door for us but the doorman open and it wasnt the way we wanted ><" super sweat hahaha...
when we got down the taxi...the stares wahliao amazing...every single person stared at us..
got into the club and wahliao...seriously everyone was looking at us...they tot we were there to dance or someting...we felt so paiseh but good at the same time...not one eyes were not on us...
many many said we looks gorgeous....drop dead gorgeous...
gavin spoiled our mood lar seriously..stupid idiot...dun wan tok about wat he did la...stupid lame ol gay lou...
spotted a cutie and he was one of the performers for the nite...other then tat..no handsome ppl la...not fun ><>
since we were fashionably late, we missed most of the show...
oni 5 finalist and all were female..go gal power :P
we drank smirnoff ice and it was yummy...tink tat was the 3rd time i had tat drink..
its a vodka drink and its yum yum yum!! 7% alcohol...my head almost explode...
very fizzy and it made me tomato red...seriously..i cant drink fizzy alcohol...
drink one bottle and tats it for the nite...
pit had double vision haahaha...we werent drunk la just a bit blur...
so hot so hot...went on the dancefloor and damm was it funny dancing in gowns...
luv the songs and luv to dance...shake that booty babei...
they had lucky draw...our number was called but duno wat happen they draw again =="
then they had best dressed female and male..
a guy was like pointing at us..saying best dressed gals hahaha...
then he was like iniminimainimou...and he picked me...i was like wat the...
we were like shardup shardup or we will walk off..lucky he didnt say anyting if not wahliao super sweat haha...
the best dressed female...super speechless...how can she have gotten the title...
and the male...super super speechless...not leng chai at all...
went to the toilet and then i met an ex high school fren amanda~
wahliao wat a small world..then she told me tat quite a few ex smkdj-ians are also in curtin and perth..those popular kids la...i oni noe them but dunno them personally...
wahliao i didnt blieve i met someone i actually noe there....
we went to the lounge and take pics..this stupid bouncer shoo us so many times say we cant be here la bla bla bla...stupid!!
then ppl keep coming up to us and say how beautiful we were and this lady...offered to take pics for us...super lame...ask us look away and turn out a very ugly pic and pose =="
self take oso better then hers ten times hahaha...
wanted to take taxi home bt then pit saw her sister's fren (jason), then he offered to drive us back..save 20 bux hahaha...mel wanted to go geisha but didnt end up going la...
got home..changed then went out for supper at mamak bistro aka pizza haven....went wif david and luca and then we tok tok so much...
jason is so my type of man hahaha...got the looks and got the height i wanted..
pit was like giving me details about him haahahaha...i was like aiya..no chance one la...ppl so yeng i so yuckz....forget about it la...
ate a large pizza and had teh tarik...eee the teh tarik so terrible la...so not nice and so not mamak at all!!!!!freaking expensive too :P
freezing cold leh as we sat outside to yumcha and tok....brrrrrrrrr.....
got home at about 2.30 then went over to ee von's plc to return her straightener...
wash up then sleep at about 3 plus...
slept til 2pm just now..if my hp didnt ring i dunno wat time we wil wake up seriously...haha..
super tired la seriously...went to sizzler for lunch/dinner hahaha...
super super funny and super super super full!!!! my first time at sizzler (buffet sorta tingo)...
ate so much and larfed so much...beh tahan liao...
came home so tired...didnt eat dinner cuz super full leh...
my stomache is stuffed for real and need to burn some off tomolo hopefully..
i dun have any of the pics yet cuz i stupidly forgotten to bring my usb...
file is toooo big to send so gonna get from pit one day....
will upload pics asap once i get the pics...tats all for today...im tired and im sleepy for some reason....super sweat super doink.....

congratulations u 2...all the best!!

aiyer!! i hate it when connection resets itself..
i typed out a long entry about my day and when i published it, got disconnected then it didnt save my entry so everyting gone...
i couldnt be bothered retyping it *sien* n *mad*!!
it was about my shopping day wif pit and mel @ carousel and how i got 2 stupid blisters on the back of my ankle...
i wore red and white that day so i put on my new 8teen shoes lor...red and white mah so follow the theme la....tim ji i forgot wear sox!! of all days i forgot to wear sox!!
i deserved those blisters la seriously...walk for about 3 hours i tink and tats how i ended up wif 2 freaking painful blisters..pit gave me 2 plasters but tat didnt really help cuz it still hurt...
then i went to the toilet to check...wah bleeding!! and the skin totally got ripped off *sobz sobz*..describing it reminds me about the pain!
couldnt get a good shot of the blisters but its very obvious and its still a lil painful till today..
i have hard time taking my baths cuz its freaking painful when it has contact wif water...its like burning pain...i had to wrap my feet and then bath....still ended up wet but better then noting...
my punishment for slacking around for 2 weeks wasting money...

tat was thursday afternoon...then now evening..
me and my cousin picking out wat to wear for tomolo's function...
i eventually picked out a white skirt and black top...but then the bride's gonna wear ivory so i cant wear the skirt...change lor...
at first my cousin say smart-casual..so i chose a half denim and half formal skirt wif another black top....strictly NO denim so change again! its strictly smart dressing...
tis time i got so fed up over wat to wear i just took out a black pants and a browny top...
put on a white belt and im done..dun look good but i have noting else to wear...i cant wear a dress so pants it is...
since i got those freaking blisters i cant wear heels wif stripe around it...so wore just heels...
my cousin took sooo long to pick out wat to wear...
i had to say yes or no for her dressing....many nos and very few oks...
in the end we picked a purple top and black pants...
dun look very smart thou but tats orite..she's happy wif it so its fine by me..
choose wat jewellery to put on..which shoes to wear etc etc...
im glad i didnt have to take such a long time to pick out wat to wear haha...
its my niece's registry wedding tomolo and its held somewhere in the city...
it my first registry wedding and it was awesome...
everyting went well i guess...the bride was so pretty..luved her gown and her hair..luved her purse ALOT haha...
as owayz..the bride looks the prettiest on their wedding day ^^
it was oni immediate family who were there..and i wasnt suppose to be there but cuz i stay wif my uncle n aunty whom are her grandparents so i guess i got invited cuz of tat :P
no one else in the family knows about it yet...they haven told anyone...just immediate fam...
there were tears of joy and i controlled myself not to cry...
but i didnt had tears in my eyes...its tears of joy ppl....
wah..when i saw bernard crying i was like *boooom*...so touching...
had a lunch celebration at the 'grand palace restaurant' and it was good...
it wasnt very chinese but the food was good...
we each had a bottle of rock candy wif their names withing each candy...
i tink denise and bernard likes green! their theme was green :P
6 course lunch...very very full....stuffed myself wif all the yummy food hehehe...
i tot they were gonna hold a big wedding party like david but they werent gonna do tat...
i tot i would get to wear my green dress hahaha...guess curtin idol is the oni time im gonna wear the gown...kakaka...
i oni took a few pics...very low profile tat day hahahaha....
my cousin isnt a very good photographer cuz most of the pics she took wasnt good..it was super blury and not nice la...shd let me hold the cam :/
i cant upload pics yet cuz i dun have any..i didnt use my cam that day unfortunately...too many ppl taking so i will just get the pics off them :P
and another reason i cant upload pics is cuz im running out of internet quota!!
i have 5gb for peak and 7gb for non-peak hours...
i oni use during peak times cuz non-peak is 2am till 10am...
i used about 4.3gb of peak oredi and tat is y my connection is so idiotic and slow!!
i am restricted to the internet now cuz of me downloading korean series muahahahaha...
first week of the mth and ive oredi finished 4gb!!
and then i send a lot of pics to frenz..there i tink got 1-2gb jor...
wahliao i am so dead now...i have to do my work in uni liao....cant use the freaking internet at home :x

curtin idol is in 4 days 4 nites time! i cant wait...seriously i cant wait to put on the gown hahaha...
will take pics of myself on tat day kakakakaka...wanna look pretty tat nite hehehe...hopefully i can be pretty :P

gonna go watch desp housewife later...meanwhile waiting for me nephew...
had a good day at uni today..
woke up at 6.45 then went back to sleep..woke up late!! woke up at 7.15!! rush like mad...
run run run..lucky didnt forget anyting...hehehe...
update more later...muaxxxxxxx

seong hei lamm moon ^^

something was wrong wif the blog system so I couldn’t upload anyting…
delay abit but tats ok la..enjoy!

someone in the family is gonna get engaged tis friday ^^
cousin came back yesterday and she bought a few traditional chinese erm...'words' tingy..
she showed me and then she asked if i do cross-stiching...
of cuz i do...i luv doing it during high school haha..
i remember i use to bring my cross-stich box to school and during free period me and me frenz would admire my work :P
i haven been doing it ever since high school...i remember the last work i did was a name and i tink its a waste of time doing it cuz its not really appreciated anywayz...
back to the topic, i told my cousin yea i do and she asked me if i could help her stich a chinese character (double happiness character in chinese)so i say ok lor..not tat im free or anyting but its a simple one and it wont take more then a day...a few hours and done...
so i started last nite..did it till 2 in the morning and slept lolx..
woke up and framed the tingo up...
there was a fault in the stich cuz they gave one faulty red thread and it was different from the rest..i didnt realise until i finish doing it...
ruin my work ><><><>

===part 1===


===part 2..omost there===

see the diff btw the above pic and the bottom pic..diff rite? tats cuz i made some changes to it...if i just follow the pattern they gave its gonna look pretty ugly and cacated...
nice rite after i put my finishing touches? hahaha...*perasan*..i hope she likes it though :P

===completed!!look @ the fault :(===


===framed!!===


===bracelet + ring my cousin bought===

aja aja fighting....BASHYA!!

i finally finished watching 'my girl' and still in luv wif jeong woo aka jun ki....
feel so sad for jeong woo cuz he really luved yoo rin and he had to let her go cuz she is in luv wif his best fren gong chan...
wah...cry like shit again ><
not being bias but tis is one of the funniest yet most memorable korean series so far....
now tat tats over..i can pay attention on my assignments and get a good nite sleep haha..
ive used up 6gb of my quota on this show and tat pretty scary cuz im running out of quota for peek hours...*yeekz*

isit me or is it cold here in my room? i didnt open the windows thou...
but my hands and feet are frozen and im shivering...
i shd put on some long pants eh? too lazy to do tat...
yesterday lionel chat wif me all of a sudden..dunno y eh?
out of the blue geh....tok quite a bit oso lor..
he never seem to chat much wif me thou...maybe he was bored and saw me on9 so just chat for a bit....mr k hasnt been toking to me ><
isit cuz he is having exams or wat?
my bestie's dog passed away and i had to tok to her, try to make her feel better...
she has many frenz so im sure she's fine...
how ee is yet to on9...dunno if she found a plc to settle down oredi onot...

*getting goose bumps leh..brrrrrr*

cousin coming back later tonite..will be her ah mat and go pick her up..
and i hope my aunt dun follow me...because of her following me my cousin called me a whooze..am not one and its not my fault my aunt wanted to tag along...
watever la...i am no whooze but if u tink i am then i cant stop u ><

im hesitating whether or not i shd ask K to go for the curtin idol ting..
i wan him to be my partner for the nite but tats totally impossible...wat if he has a gf? then i will be crushed :( so i better not ask if not i will end up hurting myself like jeong woo :P
first i have to be sure tat K doesnt have a gf...then find out if he is gay hahaha...
each time we meet at a gathering, my eyes cant stop looking at him...
see if there's anyone calling him and y he has to leave so early everytime :(
jee kate..snap out of it...he is unreachable >< *slap*...

toking to one of my bestie and she is cracking me up..
i could never tell ppl how i feel..i dunno...
maybe im living in a world full of lies...i am a lie myself...and im pretty good in doing wat im doing....lying! i lied so much to myself that each time my dreams are crushed i blame myself for lying.....just be strong and never give up!!

aja aja fighting!! BASHYA!! sarangeho jun ki :P

feminine mascularity...

i got told off by my mum again...cuz sister jenny said tat i owayz day dream...and its distracting me and my studies...
how exactly would i noe that im day dreaming wor...its not like i can control my mind from day dreaming...i tot tat i oni dream when i sleep..
i tink alot about stuff during the day..so does tat consider as day dreaming?
and does day dreaming harm ppl? i really dun tink so but since young everyone say i luv to day dream...even in class?? every year when it's report card day my teachers sure tell my dad i like to day dream...wth?!?!
my mind tends to wonder off sometimes when its not doing much work...
my mum asked me wat i dream about..she tinks tat i owayz dream about becoming rich and marrying a rich man...again, wth?!?! tats so not true althou everyone dreams of being rich and its not owayz gonna come true....
anywayz i dun wish for this 'day dream disease' of mine would affect myself or anyone else..

u noe who im crazy for rite now? LEE JOON KI/LEE JUN-KI...
oh my goodness i tink im mad....he is sooooo cute and handsome in my eyez *droolz~~*
ive been very nottie lately..watching korean drama 'my girl'...
the main actress (lee da hae) looks like the main actress in full house...
the main actor looks like my fren rodney!! OMG!! of cuz lee dong wook looks 10 times better then rodney la :P =.="
my hearthrobe lee joon ki is sorta the 3rd wheel in the show :(
he is sooo charming...
he even looks like a gal!! he played a female role b4 in a show and wow he is so pretty :P
oh my oh my...im crazily head over heels for him...
each time i see him being rejected and cries my heart breaks into a mil pieces..
i wished i had a playboy chasing after me and willing to change awhole just for me...
wah..tat time i lam sei weh...
when a playboy say he luvs u he really means it *itz true*!!!!
in real life joon ki luvs taking pics of himself (juz like mua!!) hahahaha...
he is damm damm handsome and pretty...and soo damm cute!! won bin loose to him lolx!!
i luv pretty boys so shardup...feminine mascularity rox!!
im crazy for him until i dreamt about him leh..very funny and happy dream it was..then someone in my pass appeared wat the heck...
ruin it all ><...wat the hell was tat fella doing there!! grrr....
anywayz...i wan a playboy bf...as good looking as joon ki hahaha...
he is jk and so am i! *siaoz*...he is 25 has the hair and lipz of an angel ^^ smile of the devil himself *faintz*, nose tat is to die for, eyes so cute u dun wan it closed or have tears in it...i luv his hair to death!! any guys tat has his hair would make me consider haha....as if they would consider me hahaha...
i luv i luv i absolutely luv JOON KI!!! i have his pics as my desktop and mobile background *droolz*...and i even have the OST from the movie as my ringtone hahaha...

im screwed big time..

i have totally put a big hole into my wallet...
guess wat i bought today when i was in the city...u will never guess it...
i didnt blieve i would buy it...its not cheap..definately isnt..
i must be insane to have even swiped my card for it...
there goes my AUD$400...*poof* and gone...
i wasted it on a gown..yes A GOWN...
for wat i need a gown? well...there is a function coming up on the 20th and my frenz bought gowns to for it...its curtin idol nite and its gonna be held in Hilton....
cocktail party wor...but i dun see how my gown in coctail..more like a ball gown to me :/
nvm...i have another function next year which is someone's wedding...
so i guess im gonna have to reuse my gown...
it cost me a fortune so im not just gonna wear it once of cuz...
i dun care if ppl noe that i wore it twice cuz for all i noe its freaking expensive!!
if u tink i spent a lot...ure wrong...
both my frenz bought way more expensive gowns than i did..
theirs are like wedding gowns ><
so pretty....500 isnt wat i can afford..
i can use tat money and get myself a new handset...
i oredi got one so i guess no changing handset next year ><
my gown is lime green in colour...green isnt my fav and i was shocked myself when i put on the gown....i actually looks orite..
i guess its lime green and not normal green...
i wanted another gown which was blue and im pretty sure it will look good on me but the price @@ its like $700 plus leh...
400 i oredi complain wat more 700 plus..
so today i have spent my few months worth of shopping money and there....im dead meat x.x
i will show u the pics when i actually wear the gown for the first time...
im gonna get a haircut on saturday..hopefully tat wont cost much...
i blame myself for not cutting it back home...cutting here is gonna cost me about 80 min which is equivalent to the cost i do my normal hair but tats just cutting...
back home i get everyting wif 300!!
sad case...this is a year where i spend a lot a lot of money...
first the diagnostic kit, then textbooks, then flight ticket, then gown, then partying, then hair, then everyting!!
im so gonna be killed when i go home in july....
im totally screwed and its all thanx to my itchy hands ><
cant bare to tok further about the gown..my heart aches so bad...
my fren got bf to pay for her so tats orite...
wats 1800 to a bf anywayz....
i dun have a bf so i have to pay tru my bloody nose hahaha....
my frenz are planning to get hook up wif guys that nite..i guess i'll be watching from afar :(
nite nite la...need to mend my broken heart :(
im gonna sober over wat i did today :(

lalalala...shoez shoez shoez..

woah...my temper for the past few days really beh tahan leh...
dunno y i get angry so fast...not like i have PMS oso..

anywayz, 28th of march was my deary how ee's 21st...
i sms her but she didnt reply :(
apparently she didnt have my number in her new phone so she didnt noe it was me who sms-ed..
anyhoo....happy belated 21st babe...hope it was an enjoyable one...
and oso hope u found a place oredi...

today...i went to the city...got 3 reasons for tat...
needed to enquire about smart rider (like touch-n-go in kl), buy a pair of red shoes i saw on the net, and get a razer frm the gym (which i forgot to bring my old razer ><)... enquired about smart rider and now i really agree to the saying tat aus is really outdated :P ppl told me that aus is behind msia by 6 mths and i totally agree...i tink even more lolx... when i was younger i tot aus was very modern but nop...take back wat i said hehe... we had touch-n-go for agez oredi and oni now perth is gonna implement the smart rider tingy... we had smartcard for a couple of years now but perth doesnt....its all about technology and everyone told me not to buy any tech stuff here cuz they are way older compared to those in msia or spore..seriously? truly....^^ anyhoo...all tat has noting to do wif me...im just proud of my country hahaha (never tot u'd hear tat from me eh? hahaha)... so i bought my red kinky shoes and another white one which costs me AUD$60 ><
so called designer clearence...if it didnt have the discount i wont buy cuz the red one cost $60 before and the white was $85 before..so i guess $60 for both is orite for me hehehe...
i like them both so who cares....i like i like i luv i luv shoez!! i dun officially have the most number of shoes amongst my frenz.. im pretty sure im orite hahaha...mum's gonna kill me if she noe tat i bought shoes from perth... as if i didnt buy enough from kl :P oh toking on shoez...ppl in kl..DUN BUY SHOEZ FROM MOMO (a japan store)... looks nice but damm is the quality sucky or wat... even vincci is a lot better in style and quality... vincci vincci vincci...pro vincci again hahahaa.. i wan a closet filled wif shoes next time *dreaming*...*drooling*... i wan a wardrobe as big as a house hahaha...again *dreaming and drooling*... but first....weight management ppl....loose the weight..gain the rewards hahaha...

=====hot red *flamming* from 8teen (pls dun look at the size :P)=====


=====isnt tis pretty? i just like the heel bit..hate the front >< *my fren said it was scary looking hahaha*======
=====i oni have 3 and counting hahaha=====

told a fren tat im going back in winter to celebrate my bday and she tot tat i was crazy to go back just cuz i wanna celebrate my bday hahaha...
well...its true..i wanna go back cuz i wanna celebrate my bday wif my family :P
i haven met her b4 but i made her buy me a pressie...now i have to buy her a pressie...
ask me buy cigarettes for her..no way..u can kiss my arse for tat...
so many ppl ask me buy ciggiez for them...
they never tot about how many i can buy...fyi i can oni buy one stick (and tats just 10 box leh)..
go johor buy la..duty free leh...can buy as many as u like...
i told them i wont buy ciggiez for anyone....i will hold them for u but i wont buy for u or buy on ure behalf...hehehe...
sorry la...smoking is fine wif me..just dun poof it in front of my face...
no matter wat i say i owayz kena poof on the face *biasa liao*...
60-70% of my frenz smoke...who cares..I DUN!!
more than half of my partners smoke...and i make them promise they wont smoke when they are wif me hehehe....how sweet of them to actually obey tat haha...
smoke as much as u wan i dun care...ive said wat i needed to so its up to u to listen :P
TAK NAK**~~~~~

wat has become of us?

apart from uni..everyting hasnt been going well...
relationships are falling apart...many arguments and verbal fights...
ive put a full stop to it and ive made it clear that im a strong person and i will not let anyone look down on me or say that im weak...
i made someone worry sick about me the other nite...
well i didnt do it on purpose and because of that everyting has ended...
i dun see the point of continuing a relationship if my other half does not trust me enough to let me out...like i said a million times, i dun like being controlled especially not by my partner...
so its all come to an end and yes it feels good...
its better then leading someone on and making them not trust u rite?

just the other day someone called me cruel...i forgot y but yeah i am cruel...
i will oni turn into a biatch if one treats me like crap...
and the other nite i really became one and i got so mad that i cant tok to that person anymore...
its not just about reputation...its about my future and its no funny biznes...
ive said it over and over again yet u dun get my point...watever i say is a joke to u and u larf all nite about it....
i dunno wat have become of u and i really dunno u anymore...
i tot i knew u all this while..i tot tat i could read wats on ure mind..i tot tat i could communicate wif u but now i guess im wrong cuz uve totally become someone else...someone i noe little about....

lyrics - Anne Murray Lyrics

rite...i have booked my flight back to spore...
i was hoping to spend a few days there but i dun wanna bother my aunt and uncle there...
and i dun wanna bother sean bringing me around cuz i noe he wont ><
got a few frenz there but dunno if they are free...
im asking one rite now as i type..kakaka...
i land at 3am and so i have to wait in the airport till 7-8am for my uncle/aunty to come pick me up...dunno if i shd ask them to buy me the bus ticket so tat they could send me str8 to the station or wat? mum asked me to get a connecting flight back but i refused cuz i wanted to try the bus ride...everyone takes the bus to spore/kl how come i have to take a plane?
ok..my fren replied and u noe wat she said? hahaa...
she is gonna take me around spore on a motorbike! wat the heck...
im not a very bikey person eh....i so sked i will fall of the motor hahaha...
she's happy tat i might stop by in spore...
she is the one i saw in the rain concert in KL...SUSHI!! tats her name hahaha....
so...im going back on the 19th of june and returning perth 4th of august...
i get to celebrate my bday wif my family *yeepeeeee*....
but have to return to perth a few days after...tats orite..im satisfied!!
no big parties wif frenz cuz most of them are not around and wont be going back in winter...or summer for uk...
going to china in july to visit grannie...dunno when flying yet....
so tats my update on my winter break...kakaka...
im going back im going back!! not tat excited as going back in december la :P
frenz owe me bak kut teh, fish n co, seafood in klang, tequilla shotz hehehe....cant wait!!
first i have to concentrate on studies first..add oil add oil!!