no bday celebration :(

ive once said that im gonna have a party for my 21st rite?
i said i might have a dinner party at my place, inviting a few of my frenz, my uncles and aunts, family frenz and maybe some other ppl..but tat is not gonna happen..
no dinner party at my place im sorri..
i guess i am not good at planning tings out...
i was suppose to plan everyting during my trip in china but than i didnt...i let it slip off my mind...
so as a result..i tink i will celebrate it in a restaurant..
wanted to do it in eq hotel but then i cant book a room wif 2 tables....
so maybe im gonna make it somewhere else...
but where? i dun wanna tink...who am i gonna invite?
all im looking forward to is for next saturday where kean, elsa and mel are celebrating it for me @ passion, KL...
i know wats gonna happen there tat nite and guess wat? im suppose to dress up like an 'angel'...wif wings behind me and a golden circle above my head ahahaha...
no way im dressing like tat...i'll be the larfing matter of the club tat nite..dun wan dun wan...
but then i oredi told a few ppl that there will be dinner at my place on the 29th...wat am i gonna do then? i dun wanna cook on my bday...
i wanna relax and have a good time...
my mum will be very bz wif the 4 german girls staying over..so she wont have time to plan my bday :( but my dad say have it at home....*argh*
im so unorganized seriously...i cant even plan my own bday :(
there is oni a week left and im still unsure and undecided...from the rate im going..there wont be anyting happening on the 29th :'(

tomolo going to get my hair done...i hate my hair rite now but i cant do anyting wif it...
i can't cut it cuz its oredi too short...
i cant curl it cuz its too short..so all i can do is recolour my hair and tats it..
tomolo the 4 girls are arriving so maybe dinner at telukgong..not sure yet..
might just meet them there after i get my hair done since i will be in kuala selangor...
wat colour shd i dye my hair? red again? brunette? hehehe...
blue maybe hahahaha...any ideas? definately not blonde...i look like a freak wif tat colour hehehe..
might ask my darling ah wong wat to do...
he better be free for me tomolo if not dun wan go there liao...(i owayz say tat but i still end up going to him..my fav hair-guy hehehe)...

im still sick and i hate it so much...can u imagine being sick on ure bday??
i tink tats the worse ting tat could happen :/
my bro might be sleeping in my room till i return to oz cuz the german gals will take his room :/
kacau betul...
will be going for a movie tonite wif kean n mel...
i tink kean and me have same thoughts and opinion sometimes but i can never be like her...
in her eyes, i am a very mature person for my age...someone who noes how to tink about the future and someone who is ever so happy and bubbly hahaha...im not saying tat to impress ppl but ive been told ok...not being perasan either...
i admire her cuz she's pretty and independant i guess....
but then i am still afraid of her...i never dare look at her in the eye, i dunno y...
anywayz..i hope the nite at passion would be a great one and by then i wont be afraid of her anyone hehehe....

till then..im sleepy! im getting my baby back today after 3 days :)
miss him so much :P gonna bring him for a zoomzoom tonite hahaahaha...