i LUV america's next top model...

uh huh...to my surprise one of my ex called me tis morning from kl *eye open wide wide*...
i cant remember if i wrote about him getting married last time..
but he is married now and he called to see how i was doing...
i wasnt too happy cuz when i was in kl last mth he didnt contact me....oni when im not there he calls....tat irritates me a lil...
so we just chat lor..about 15minutes then i gave an excuse saying i have to wash me clothes haha...
it was just a normal random chat...gave him my blessings and tats it...
dun tink i would be hearing from him anytime soon kakakaka....
then later during the day i chat wif mj...man i miss her a lot...
we owayz have long conversations cuz we never seem to chat everyday...
i guess its good to catch up wif each others life once in a while...
speaking of which i really shd call adrienne....she is oso on 3 so i really shd call her ey? since i have like 30 minutes of free talk time left for the month :/

just now i got told off by someone...she told me not to 'shout' out ppl's name so loudly in my blog...and y is tat?? tis is my blog and i tink i have the rite to do watever i wan...
wat is wrong wif putting ppl's name in it?? maybe i shd really evaluate wat type of frenz i have..
are they worth keeping or not? they critize me like no one's bizness, hurt me as if im numb, scold me like i have no value at all...
not oni tat, when someting happens between me and their frenz they get all angry and sorta step up for their 'pal'....
they dun even noe wat happened and they blame me for the pain tats been caused..
maybe i shdnt give an example of such cases but i guess they noe who they are...
if i were to mention names im gonna be told off again...oni tis time i wont name-call...
i noe i have made mistakes in the past but i shd be forgiven cuz i didnt kill no one...its just misunderstandings, dun everyone get tat once in a while?
i dun wanna drown myself in tears just cuz im being misunderstood...it makes me feel depressed and i certainly dun wanna feel tat way tat often...
im putting effort in changing my attitude so shdnt u try as well?
i feel like walking wif the rain and tink about our lives....maybe one day everyone would understand where im going and wat im going tru...
its not all smiles and larfter under tis bubbly face u noe......
i couldnt afford to loose anyone in tis point in my life....everyone means someting to me!!
when i say i can tackle hardships i dun really mean it in the way tat one shdnt approach me and try to fix tings....y cant ppl just understand me a bit more??

just finished watching america's next top model (cycle 5, tat was shot in 2005 i tink, tv oni show old shows!) on tv and boy it rox!! i luv tat show...
it may be sissy and girly but i luv it!! all the bitch fighting, jealousy, photo shootz...man im in luv wif it..call me crazy and BITE me hahaha....

in this series there's like a butch (andro butch) lesbo and i LUV her!!

her name is kim stolz and she is GORGEOUS....she didnt win the show (i saw the results on9 haha) bt she is sooo versatile i tell u...she's amazing...i cant stop talking about lesbians and butches...they just amuse me so much that im in luv wif them...
andro, andro butch, BUTCH....uve got my attention 101% hahaha...
im going crazy just tinking about them :x
dun misunderstand me kay hehehe....im SO INNOCENT NOT hahaha...

===kim stolz===


===kim is sooo GORGEOUS===


=====droolz!!=====


===a very very good looking asian butch *double drool*===


===SHANE from l-word===

quote from forest gump,the movie: (one of me favs just cuz its true..)

"life is like a box of chocolate..you'll never noe wat you're gonna get...."

quote of the day:

"without you, today's emotions are those shed by you yesterday.."

dunno if its the exact quote but its buried deep within me :(