my uncle the furniture man :D

jior....make me feel so bad leh...
i recently bought a laser jet printer and so i put it on the floor...
my uncle came to my *pig sty* and found the printer on the floor...he was like aiyo ure room got tooo much tings leh....u need tat much tings meh...
all i did was stood there and giggle...muahahaha...
so he say he's gonna make a table top to go over my computer table so that i can put the printer on the table..
i was like aiya no need la..just let it be on the floor..he say ish dun wan...
then he insisted on making it so ok fine...he started measuring bla bla bla...
today he completed it and i have a new table top kakakakaka....
he's very good and tis kinda tings...
practically most of the wooden stuff in my room (eg: shelf on top of my study table, comp table, 3-level-drawer to store my undiez and scarvs, my wardrobe-cum-shoe-rack and a secret compartment somewhere in my room!!)...
its good to get him doing someting instead of just wondering around doing nth...
his daughters encourage him to do stuff...which is good..
but i feel bad cuz he's done so much for me just cuz i have tooooo much rubbish!!
oh well......i guess there's a good side and a not so good side to it hehehe....
so now my printer and my lappie is side by side....its just great!! luv the new table hehehehe...

jezzie'z personal angle

for some reason, i remember when i was in high school we were meant to read tis english poem called 'the road not taken'...
it still rings a bell in my head..whenever im in a situation as such i would tink about it...
weird really....this one phrase will owayz owayz remain in my head...i guess its stuck there and i dun tink its my principle of life...but it is really useful when im trying to decide someting...

"...Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference."
- The Road Not Taken [Robert Frost]

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I won't blame you for the disguise you put on in front of me
Angel on earth should hide her wings well
People are foolish and crude but you are gentle and kind
how can I let you get hurt because of me

Your small palm holds such warmth
You can always calm my restless nights
The dreams I dare not dream, only through your eyes
Can I see their future

No one can take you from my side
You are my personal angel
An angel only for me
No one can replace your place in my heart
Having a personal angel
How can I wish for anything more

your small palm hold such warmth
I will soar through the sky like you
Your destination is my destination
With my protection, let your smile lighten the sky

No one can take you from my side
You are my personal angel
An angel only for me
No one can replace your place in my heart
Having a personal angel
How can I wish for anything more

If you didn't appear I would still be deep alseep
Hopelessly thinking life is one dark night

No one can take you from my side
You are my personal angel
An angel only for me
No one can replace your place in my heart
Having a personal angel
How can I wish for anything more

aunt and uncle speaks funnily...

an event happened earlier during the week and it shook me a lil bit..
on tuesday during dinner time a neighbour across the street came ringing the door bell..
tinking that it could be those 'morman' ppl from some church looking for me, i asked my aunt to go look who was it...when i knew it wasnt them i walked out..
those ppl are pretty irritating...i said NO and they came looking for me over and over again...
just like the other day, they came last week and on monday they came again! i was like freaks dun come ever again...im a buddhist and i u can save ure encouraging efforts...
back to the subject, the neighbour asked if my aunt knew if another neighbour was doing someting on the rooftop cuz some of the roof tiles were removed.....
my aunty say she doesnt noe....and we went to look at it and truly, a few tiles were removed and placed aside..
we tot that maybe they were u noe doing some roofing works and forgot to put back the tiles or someting...the neighbour even tot it was the strong wind *heh*?
wind don just blow 4-5 tiles so neatly.....it doesnt make sense..
it was pretty obvious tat someone tried to break into the house...scary!
knowing noting about roofing, my uncle sked me even more..
cuz i asked him if someone just remove the tiles, can they oredi enter the house and he said yes....they remove the tiles and they will be in the house tru the space between the roof and the ceiling of the house...
and if tat wasnt enuf he even added on..."so if u here walking steps above the ceiling, u noe wat it means..."! i was like crap..and my aunt was like kiddingly telling my uncle off for scaring the heck out of me....
it wasnt funny at all tat one ... i am weak at heart and a skedy cat if tats wat u wanna call me...
so, they left a note on the door informing tat neighbour about the tiles...she said she knew nth about it and asked her bro to fix it up....a potential break in OMG...

just now the house got so many flies...geez...
and they wonder y got so many...jior....they owayz open the door big big and invite them in...
they might be good at smacking those flies but then again..how many can u kill?!?!
we were having dinner and then i say wah so many flies...and u noe wat my uncle said?
eh how come today so many airplanes...being the ever so slow me..i was like wat?? airplane?
i tot i heard it wrongly in hainanese then he repeated...and he did call the flies airplanes hahaha!!
tats my uncle...and now to my aunt....
whenever she kills a fly she'll say in cantonese..."wah, kam dai sei geh!" which means wat a daring fly hahahahaha!!
i cant stop larfing when they keep repeating it over and over again...
they'd tink tat im the biggest looser for being afraid of insect a billion times smaller than i am...
im never a big fan of flies...especially not those that are in aus during the summer time..
i can stand those back home cuz i noe tat u are more likely to see flies in a dirty or smelly place but not like those here!
flies everywhere....not very frenly either *duh*....

===tis t-shirt speaks my mind so perfectly!lol===

today (well just a few minutes ago) im not too happy cuz there's tis stupid idiotic fool who really got me boiling by saying how much they miss me and all those rubbish...
i need to end a relationship cuz i cant stand the stickyness!!! and i definitely cant tolerate 'teh-ness'...i tink we're better off as frenz...im sick of it...totally sick!
4 years adi...oh it makes me feel sick saying tat...
i wan someone who is tru to themselves and not trying to impress me...
im sick of ppl who promise tings years back and till now hasnt done anyting about it...
they say they try very hard *bullcrap*...tats not hard enuf...
i cant have someone who smokes and drinks as much as i drink water!!
i need commitment and tru promises that can last a lifetime...i dun wan sweet talks telling me they luv me like mad and i mean the world to them...
ive had enuf of that...im not in my teenage years anymore...i need serious commitment...
im not asking commitment as to those who are gonna get married...just as a head start u noe?
anywayz, i tot i'd screw up their mind a little bit by saying tings tat are pretty hurtful...
i oni do tat cuz i wan to see improvements...im not doing it to really hurt anyone...
but ive proposed toooo many threats and it never seem to work...
it will now....cuz im taking my relationshipz seriously...screw those who say im oni 21 and still young....

2 more exams and i'm going back for summer holz...i cant wait...
i miss my parents, frenz, and shopping.....!!
after exams we wont be doing the steamboat or sleepover ting as planned cuz val's mum is undergoing depression :/
waste my time!! i book my flight later so tat i can spend time wif my 3 babes but now no more...
prolly go to freo after the exam for fish n chips for dinner...
or maybe go late nite shopping and dinner on thursday...pack on wednesday??
not sure...gonna tink of someting on the spot on wednesday....
2 more 2 more!!!! i can do it....add oil jee add oil jee..!!

over stressed = fainting moments..

oh geez...i dun wanna faint in the middle of my finalz wei...
a fren's fren from curtin fainted yesterday during her exams...
she's a physio student and had her anatomy theory and prac on the same day..
tat didnt sound too bad cuz i would prefer it tat way then i dun have to study another time for either one of the exams...
her fren fainted during the lab (practical) when she came across someting about the brain and tat was like 10 marks alone per station..
she didnt noe wat to write and she had a panic attack and fainted...
it was so serious tat they had to call an ambulance to send her to the hospital :/
because of tat she had 2 days of MC (is tat even necessary at all??)
so there u have it...she said she was too stressed and panic when she couldnt answer the question..
let alone tat it was the finals...it was 10 points per station..
i would panic as well cuz its 10 points!
i'm gonna have tat too..the prac i mean but i dun tink there would be a station which is 10 points worth...all i noe is tat we have about 30 stations and 2 minutes each and trust me...
2 minutes is TOO LITTLE!! no matter u noe ure stuff 100% on top of ure head or wat its still not enuf....
its cadavers (dead preserved body or if u guys wanna call it 'pickled human' lol) we're toking about...its so not easy and it looks nth like pictures on textbooks...
i really hate it when it comes to muscles of the upper and lower extremities..boy am i gonna have fun wif tat...
if tat isnt hard enuf....wat about the nerves!!! tats even crazier!!! INSANE!! the brain and blood supply....AARGH!!! i just hope i dun faint..i hope for tat and i hope i have enuf time..

speaking of stress im having a moment of it now and im just too tired to study...
gonna go to spearwood tomolo to hopefully get someting for my mum...
its really far away and i hope i dun get lost...
and then after tat im gonna go to uni and study...use the aircond! cuz its gonna be hot again...
i brought in the fan into my room so tat tonite i can have a good windy nite :P
for some reason my cough is back wif some extras....runny nose!!
i really dun understand..how can i get runny nose when its bloody damm hot!!
any future doctors would or could explain tat to me would be great...
oso..i have one personal issue tat i tink i shd consult a doctor..its worrying me ALOT and my fren is giving me shocking news about hers....
its freaking me out actually..i dun wanna get tat!! im too afraid to even say wat her doctor told her.....doctor doctor DOCTOR....WATS WRONG WIF ME!!! pls tell me its stress related...

heart of steel...

=======the art of water dripping=======

i didnt find this picture from the net or anywhere else,
i accidentally made it while i was filling up my water bottle,
it just spill and it formed into a shape of a heart,
it is like my heart has been poured out and splatted all over the floor,
luv has spread so that it can no longer be stopped,
it has reached deep into my heart before i was aware...
no matter how i try to wash it all away wif tears,
no matter how i try to push it out wif sighs,
the heat only rises and makes tings hard for me,
more and more it's beginning to hurt,
it is getting deeper,
ure luv is from within me,
it is so hard, the words i wanna say,
sa-rang-hae spells i luv you,
in the end it cannot be fixed,
it cannot be erased,
i noe i will continue to be in pain,
i luv you.....luv you so much...i do...
no matter how much pain i have to endure,
if you would jus say you luv me too,
i'd go tru the pain again and again...

jezzie owns her first pair of skechers shoez :P

weee~~~~~

jezzie went shopping just now @ amart-all-sport store and grabbed herself her very first pair of skechers casual shoes :P :P :P
its freaking expensive!! not only here but oso back home in KL...
but today...i grabbed it for a stunning aud$50! WOOOOOO.......

====they are soooo me!! luv them hehehe=====

its original price was aud$130 which is about rm400+
oo so happy so happy...wanted to get an adidas one as well tat was oni aud$30 (discounted from aud$140!!) but so sad dun have my size...all freaking size 10! geez..i noe i have big feet but not tat big....so i had to buy this pair...

===============went out again to the shop=================

because my bro changed his mobile number he didnt get the sms i sent him asking wat size shoes he wears!! so the first time i didnt get to buy him shoes cuz i have the least idea wat his size was...i oni noe its HUGE!!
so when my cousin came back she asked to see wat i bougt...
she saw my skechers and she wanted to have one too...so we went out again...
tis time i noe wat the size of my bro's stinky feet is...its US11! geez its huge..
got there and oh my GOD....80% of the shoes were gone!!! none left for her to buy :P
bought a pair of AND1 basketball shoes for my bro..sent him mms and even called him but no reply so too bad..bought watever i tink is nice :P
its not very cheap but since my bro cant find AND1 shoes in msia i tot i'd get it for him and save him the trouble to find someting else...

====nice onot hehehehe...AND1 leh..dun play play====

its aud$190 but went down to like aud$80 so tats not too bad..still cheaper than in msia (i tink)...
my cousin was so dissapointed cuz she made me drive all the way there again just so she can get the pair of shoes i got...
but i was fine cuz i ended up getting a pair of shoes for my bro...
wanted to give him a surprise for his 21st bday bt guess its no longer one since he oredi noe im getting him one hahaha....
will stick to the adidas basketball top and the FUBU pants i got for him...

===adidas and fubu...geez are those pants HUGE or wat!!===

im such a GOOD sista hahahahaha....eh i am...if not i wont spend so much for him la...
total bill for him alone is about rm500 so tats like the biggest bday gift i would ever give him hahaha....
my pocket hurts so bad hahahaha...
not gonna take pix of the clothes i bought for myself cuz no time..just show wat i bought for my bro....hope he fits! if not i'll be so sad :(
anywayz,better stop blogging oredi....
miss chong..ure rite..the more i say i wont blog the more i will end up blogging muahahahaha!!

last day of uni for sem 2, 2007...bring on the finals!

i tink time is flying just a lil toooo fast tis semester...
12 weeks of uni finished for this sem! oh gosh...
we dun really have much lectures on fridays...we oni had rene for the whole 3 hours str8..
2 hours of lab and one hour of lecture...
rene's MO is growing quick and it looks funny on him...go the dannish man! haha...
lab was good...but there wasnt a lecture after tat...
rene decided tat we go out into the grass and have an extended lunch hour which was pretty crap..
being the asian as i am....i dun fancy the all mighty sun as much as the auzies do...
i used my short jacket to cover my head, my arms and partially my hairy legs ><"
obviously, my luv for the sun hasnt grown on me after 3 years being in aussieland...
im oredi tanned enuf so tankiu but no thankiu for staying out in the sun for so long..
if we were to be on the beach than i wont mind...but not sun bathing in the middle of UNI...
oh and pls dun remind me of the ever soooooooo irritating flies!! geez..they are super annoying..
they glue on to ure body and keep buzzing around u the whole time..
its not tat we stink or anyting as such...its just their nature to stick!
im just glad i wont have to deal wif the flies for 2 mths!!
anywayz, there's this guy from the 3rd year called tom whom we tinks like valerie but then from the looks of it i tink he likes jerome!
oh tis is gonna be good....jerome has rejected someone b4 and obviously she isnt tat cute or innocent as she looks muahahhahahaha...a heart breaker that one :P just kidding...
but i cant say just yet y i tink he likes jerome now...
we have been teasing val about it since the semester started...
he's been nice to us, he's been helping us during labs (demonstrating)....giving us chocz for halloween, now present for xmas?? it is so obvious he likes either valerie or jerome....
the way he disturbs val is just funny....val's annoyed actually hahaha...
dunno la...i'll be the odd one out i guess...the one who will be alone amongst the 4 of us...
wont let that get into my head :D
studies first..fun fun fun laterz......motto of life!!

concussion of the head...

OUCH!! i had a bad history of head concussion yesterday afternoon...
i hit str8 onto a chair *BAM* and i omost cried!!
yeap..it was tat painful...not knowing that there was a chair behind me..
one day after and it still hurts like mad...tat explains the headache i got today :(

actually i was a lil nut to not check if there was anyting behind me before lying str8 down on the table...
we were practicing physical exam yesterday in the amenities building cuz the diagnostic lab was occupied..
we didnt have the proper table-bed so we used the one tats cant be raised to wanted degrees..
i was the patient and we were suppose to start of wif patient lying at 45 degrees...
since we couldnt, valerie put a chair behind the bed but tat didnt work and obviously she didnt remove the chair!!
so we moved on wif patient lying down and tats when it happened...*BAM* wif sound effects ppl.....*BAM*...
it was like i was about to faint or someting....all i could tink of was the pain and sound going tru my head....
i noe that the skull is capable of excessive load and stress so hopefully my skull isnt fractured..
i oso noe tat there is a bump at the back of my head and its probably purple-blue in colour althou i cant see it wif all that hair there...
lesson learnt?? OF CUZ...owayz check if there's anyting behind u before lying down...
had such a heavy head today...took 2 panadols and slept in front of the tv that i couldnt even hear my aunt calling me for din din :/
it was tat bad....

"poor baby" as valerie said...damm rite you are...
it wasnt her fault so i wont blame her or anyone else...
my head was meant to get hit i guess :/
usually i would go, " pa...i knocked my head wuwuwuwu...."
and he would go, " come here let me urut (erm..massage?)...."
and i'll go, " slowly slowly ouch ouch ouch OUCH!!!"
and he'll go....." u so big potato oso sked pain.."
hehehehe..pa, i need u to urut *sobz*

im sorri....

i apologize for my foolishness...
i never noe it could have such impact on you...
i should have trusted you and not have doubts in my mind...
we're free now so lets be happy about it...
lets have a positive mind over this...
forget everyting ever happened and move on...
i'll alwayz support you and be there for you in times of need..
thank you for all the things uve done for me..
sorri if i couldnt appreciate your luv any longer...
we've made the right move and im glad we did...
promise you'll forget me not....

how come tis doesnt sound even a little convincing? wat more could i add to make it more true?

just as a shout out: pal i miss you!! upset cuz ure not going back during summer :(
tat doesnt mean i dun miss everyone else..I DO!! muahahaha....

presentation in a few hours time....hope my brain dun fail me as my presentation is on the brain!! mainly the ventricles....
pal...i will pray for u....good luck for finalz!! and not just her..im sure everyone else are going tru finals as well...good luck to all of u tat are going tru exams of any sorts....

pink rice VS jaws..

yesterday was one of my cousin sister's burday so her sisters brought us out for dinner..
it was in eureka, a very tiny restaurant known for its good food and good prices..
it was so small!! sort of the smallest chinese restaurant u would ever see anywhere else..
the tables were so tightly close to one another that the waitresses had to go behind the divider where the ppl who waited for take away seated...
the dinner was good....ate too much!

tonite, my aunt and uncle has dinner so left me and my cousin...
it was either hungry jacks or pink rice...we chose pink rice...
darrell, su may was in...asked the wong bros but they couldnt make it..
got me annoyed wif jeremy cuz he never checkz his phone and never answers fast enuf..
he owayz lives tings hanging...piss me off...
so ended up just the 4 of us..
it was good...i didnt wanna drive...hate driving ppl actually..
cousin was pissed off cuz i didnt wanna take my car..but lately ive been driving her around a lot..so cant she drive me tis time? she gave the excuse her car doesnt have aircond =__="
so wat? my car is running out of fuel and i cant be bothered pumping cuz im cashless...

pink rice is a japanese sushi restaurant wif tepanyaki...
its like sushi king and tepanyaki combined together...
its in collie street freo...it was small and not very good..
they had the longest sushi train in perth...
its good...but not much varieties...the tepanyaki was done on a bbq set..
which was a turn off!! weird!!
we ate so much...eat till so expensive somemore...
total damage was aud$112 hahaha...$28 each...
then darrell treated us to armano (someting like gelares)
wild berry! YUMMMY....i owayz eat berry icecream/sorbet...just luv it...
then went to dome for coffee....my tummy couldnt take in anymore so i just sat there and chit chat....tok about a whole load of tings...funny...
darrell had to leave at 9.40 cuz he wanted to go watch the MU vs Arsenal match :P

i reckon jaws is nicer...i dunno...
heard that the jaws in the city is closing down or moving somewhere else...
anywayz, it was a good dinner....had fun..
shd really do tis more often wif more of the youngies...
me and my cousin planned to have it like once or twice a year...
dim sum or a mini get together apart from the big family gatherings like during cny and all tat...
its all good...the more the merrier!
will organise another one next year when i come back..

how long is too long??

tis time im not here to tok about my aud$150 shopping spree during the week..
i have too much tings going on in my head...
my fren told me its a stress related ting tats y i shop...perhaps...

i hate myself for tinking too much but i really wanna noe how long is too long?
ive asked tis q before...one week? one month? a year? 10 years? 50 years?
i asked myself everyday...is waiting tis long a waste of time or will it ever be worth it at the end??
i cant wait around for tings to actually happen...
at least give me someting to believe tat tings are gonna work out..

i decided to read a fren's blog just now cuz i was too bored and about to go to bed..
the blog hasnt been updated in quite a while cuz each time i go in its the same ting..
no updates or anyting but today when i went in it was updated :/
it makes me feel upset to read stuff in the blog cuz i noe tat i couldnt be there to endure wat she is going tru..
i feel sorri at times but then again...i have this hatred tingy going on me...
somehow i still hate her for her doings and i dun tink i can handle her without tinking about how she treated me..
one moment we're close then the next we dun speak at all...
i hate to tink tat she has someone new in her life but then i noe i shdnt be sellfish and keep her to myself..
just cant stand it cuz its an on and off kinda ting? it makes me feel tat im oni important/close sometimes...
and not all the time? i like feel needed in every kind of relationship...
unfortunately i dun get tat from everyone in my life :(

so back to the topic...how long is too long?
i really dun wanna waste my time waiting for one person and end up being alone juz cuz i was so stupid to wait....
dun tink anyone i noe will wait for a particular someone...any suggestions to wat i shd do?
u spoke so highly of me once and tats the last ive heard...
y cant u see me for who i am and not wat im not?
i tot ive given up on u but the more i told myself that the more im turning to u..
totally hate myself....
i dun wan to be second...i wanna be the first...
yea yea..im a selfish biatch but dun blame me for it..
everyone is a selfish biatch when it comes to this...

will be punishing myself for not going to bed but blogging....
heavy detention for tomolo hahaha...
good nite and i hope u would consider it again and come back to me wif a reasonable answer to whether onot i shd really wait...
thanks for understanding :)

xoxo
j'z world