It’s not something that I can hide from myself...

After so many years, after all those fights, after tat much tears…

I cant say I had forgotten about everything that we shared…

It was the hardest journey I have taken..the shortest, the bumpiest…

It was a choice; the choice that we made together that brought us to where we are rite now…

When you are near, I cant bear to look into your eyes..

The current was too strong like the waves of the ocean…

I could hear my heart beating like the thunder when it rains…

Your hands just inches away for mine to reach…

Was it your fault that we became frenz…

I can say tat I miss you very much..

When we met again it was like love at first sight..

The rush, that kept me going made me weak inside whenever you are near…

I wished it was just us..without everyone staring at us…

Im in a state of breaking down..

Confusions, disagreements, loyalty, courage, thrust, faith….

Some qualities I may possess, some I may have to earn….

For you are someone I cant let go…

After all this years…am I just your fren?

From someone who shares every detail of their lives..

To someone whom I randomly meet again and chat about the past…

How can u stay so strong without me around?

Are you used to not having me by your side?

Am I just another friend….someone who is just a passer by….

Have you lost your faith in us or am I just drifting away…

Opening the door like a gentleman oways does…

Whispering things oni my ears are meant to listen…

Cuddle me like you use to…hold me like you oways do..

Don’t let go now....keep holding on…

Sorri for the time that we have wasted…

Time tat wasn’t for us to begin with…

Tears and joy that we were not meant to have….

Despite all that, I noe tat we can make the moment ours….

One minute, one hour, one week, one month, or even one year…

All we need is time…time tat has passed and time tat is yet to come…

Pretty soon we will be apart again…

Why didn’t you come look for me…

Why isn’t there a call from you at all..

Am I just a waste of time that you go and love someone else…

Your frenz are telling me that we should be together cuz we were meant to…

Are we?

Your company is something I really appreciate…

Time doesn’t wait for no men….

your time with me is just too short….

You rather spend it wif someone else than wif me…

I want you to love again…

But im selfish, I wont let another gal have you if I dun have you…

Wat is meant to be mine will be mine…

Oni if you wait for me…I cant stand you seeing someone else…

It hurts, it bleeds…when you tok about them…

How they are better than I am, smarter, wiser…

Don’t put me aside…

Don’t put me in a corner…

Don’t leave me without saying your goodbye…

I miss you very much….im sorri….tears rolling...

wahseh..tired betul...

saturday goes, sunday comes….wahseh tired tired…

morning wake up go buy breakfast for the family to oni realize that my dad’s office kena broken into…my gosh….damm that freaking idiot who striked back…he shd be caught str8 away leh…stole so much materials from my dad’s office…stupid idiot…go get a job! reported to the police lor…then my dad came back telling us that the robber can still go upstairs and shower and forgot to turn off the tap…my GOD…where got such ppl ga…really no eyes see lor….

After my dad came back we went out for brunch @ equatorial hotel, kl for Japanese buffet..my parents treated as a gift for Stephanie Hong’s graduation present and also the return of Fabian and Rachel…

As oways, uncle Charlton is funny…his actions and his words….funny as ever..

Ate toooooo much!! And btw….i luv mochi…oh yummy yummy…my aunt told me she got some in the fridge and will bring over next time so tat I can make it myself :P

Din follow my parents for gasing walk cuz I overstretched my gastroc muscle on the left after the climb on Friday L

I stayed home to cook fish porridge for dinner so that when they return, there’s food..

Cooked porridge cuz lunch oredi had soo much…so dinner make it lite and easy la…

Ok I dunno why this few days ive been getting either calls or smses during midnite…

Kei likes calling me when im asleep adi…grrr..

Then the on Monday nite/morning, I received an sms from kelf…my goodness…he asked me a question asking me wat I did the whole day..i was like huh??wat??

When I say he could sms me anytime…he really took it as “anytime” of the day be it day, noon, nite or even midnite! So we started at around 1am then ended at about 2am…geez…I must be a bit blur to even replied :/

On Monday, I was suppose to meet up wif ryan but he being the busiest person ive ever known in my life, he didn’t reply to the invite so I assumed that he wasn’t able to make it…so I made other plans wif rave to go curve for dinner…

Tat evening, I came back from work late cuz my mum had to go to the pharmacy and buy some baking stuff..i told her I would cook for her even thou I wasn’t gonna eat dinner…

Reached home at about 6 something…wahliao rush la…must cook fish, vege and egg somemore…the worse part..the fish haven defrost yet so I had to do other stuff first…

Rave was to pick me up at 7.30 but she rang to say she’s gonna be late…woah happy la…cuz I am running wayyyyy behind time…

So I faste cook lor when my mum decided to clean the freezer…

Got one fish stuck under the base so I helped her lor…wahliao..i have to dive in leh…damm funny..

Then rave msg me say she’s outside d…shit! I haven even bath yet leh…I faste ran out and tell her to wait lor cuz I stink like fish! And she insisted I just jump into the car??

Asked her to round round for about 15minutes oni come back…zooooom!!

I ran up and down like a mad woman..din even use conditioner for my hair…

Din even have my clothes prepared! Just grabbed wat I wore on Sunday for the brunch and then ciao…hair oso not fully dried…geezzz…

Rave brought gisele along…din expect tat but hey im fine wif it…just tot it was gonna be just the 2 of us..

Ate @ thai express….the food was so so…then kei joined us…im starting to tink tat she looks really good especially wif her new hair * kakakaka *

I dunno why she has to bring her sister wherever she go lor…I noe they are twins and all but everywhere????

Chit chat a bit then went for dessert…mango kiwi lou….*droolz*

So….am I going to genting wif the 2 bestiez onot? I wouldn’t mind but I dun wanna be lamppost seriously…hhehehe…

Knowing rave’s schedule..dun tink I’d be able to spend enuf time wif her then I tot…

Pd and redang tripped unsuccessful :`(

I tink genting oso not on for me la…expected d…

get smart

last saturday, my parents attended uncle charlton’s 25^th anniversary dinner leaving me alone wif my cousin from china…

i was suppose to attend as well but my dad said it was ok…come on..u noe how much i like his dinner parties :p

so i didn’t end up going…in the afternoon wanted to go 1utama shopping wif my mum after she finished her house chores and i finished lingering in the house trying to keep wat vegetables we bought from the market earlier in the morning…

i was so bz, we came back from the market extra late cuz my mum wanted to chit chat with her fren :s

got home at about 1pm leh…did everyting, cousin mopped the house, i packed the veges, boiled some yummy salty peanuts *drool* and cooked my special maggie mee for my mum and mel..

my maggie mee is extra special one k…cant get outside wahahahaha…

after everyting had finished, it was oredi 3pm..so my mum say she doesn’t wanna go since she has to be back by 6pm to get ready for the dinner..

so oni my cousin, mel and myself went to 1utama…eeeee shopping wif a guy cousin?? sounds odd to me really..so since he tagged along (which i din expect him to) i decided that we go for a movie instead cuz i dun wanna shop and him following me around :/

went up to gsc….omg the line is monsterous…never have i seen a line like tat before….

we tried calling to see if we could book last minute but nop…its still the line tat we need to go tru…so line up lor…

wanted to catch kungfu panda chinese version but all the times oso blinking yellow which means its selling out quickly…

so need backup…we decided if we cant get kungfu then we shall watch ‘get smart’ a remake from an old show prolly from the 70’s or 80’s..cant remember…

its totally funny as well….farnier than kungfu panda…its hillariouz!! yeap..i jumped off my seat again..this time with a hugggggeeeeeeee leg space in front of me cuz i was sitting 6 rows away from the screen n yea it tat bad….its omost fully booked when i got to the counter to book the tix…kungfu panda all oni gave me 1^st row from the screen which is a no go for me :p

another show highly recommended by the larfing goddess JEZZ :P

if u need the larfz…go for it..totally!! guaranteed a good nite of larfters….

kungfu panda is a must watch

wat did we do after the last day of exam and after tat b4 i returned to kl??
breakdown of things to do and suppose to do but too lazy to..

to do and did on tuesday tru to friday:
1. went out for dinner @ sizzlerz innerloo wayyyy up north (made neo drive mel and myself up there in his new honda civic which i really want and like)
2. watched any movie after dinner (at the moment, narnia got the most votes)
3. shopping @ harbour town in the city (dun ask but my account is empty after tat trip)
4. lunch in harbour town which was so very yummy curry laksa (pricey too!)
5. watch dvdz in uni's dvd viewing room ('the nanny's diary' and 'i now pronounce you chuck and larry')
6. lunch together @ everyday's sunday @ myaree (yummmm...karaage udon....)
7. crash at neo's new place down south for a movie day(watched 'the prestige' and btw neo...ure hs is sooo not 5 minutes away from uni!!)
8. more me time shopping in garden city and carousel (yup, negative account)
9. went shopping wif melanie @ garden city (more like window shopping lolx)
10. shopping wif the cousin (erk...)


things suppose to do but didnt:
1. drive down south wif the gang for a get-away (i tink with the price of petrol its a no no)
2. movie marathon (the package not very good)
3. dress up and go for an expensive nite out dining in and clubbing tru the nite
4. ice skating (cuz neo din tell us the proper time and made us missed it)

i guess tats about it really...cant be bothered writing so much..
it all happened last week anyways...
im oredi back in kl now...still tired actually..dunno why..
had a crappy flight back to spore and had a delay in the bus because there were at least 50 other tourist buses trying to crose over to JB @ the spore custom gates....stupid!! stuck in the jam for 2 hours...sitting in the bus waiting and waiting wif every 5 minutes moviing less than 100m...

super hot it is kl...aircond is an essential electronic everywhere...
stupid fuel price crap like shit...wif me trying to save fuel, i cant go tat many places like b4...its a 40% increase at the pumps leh...

since i came back i haven stopped eating...
ive gained a few kiloz just from the 3 days tat ive been home...
sunday come back go out eat chinese food in 88 and it was sooo good..
then monday go pasar malam...eat non-stop again...
tuesday eat korean food..omg...im soooo into kimchi soup...
breakfast roti canai, tosei and nasi lemak...OMG im dead....
today going to buy malay rice hahaha....tonite go eat chinese fried noodles lolx..
saturday taking my nephew out for lok-lok in ss2 or maybe bak kut teh..
sunday got japanese buffet @ eq hotel....*droolz*
keep the food coming....im so damm bloody fat tat everyone is afraid for me hahaha...

went and watch kungfu panda yesterday..ladies nite tuesday...rm7 cheap ass...
ppl, ITS FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so funny tat i teared so much....i larfed so loud i wanted to hit the stranger next to me hahaha...
i even jumped off my seat and omost flipped the bucket of popcorn over hahahahahaha..
its super funny..comedy cartoon of the year seriously..
maybe going to watch the cantonese version .. i wonder if tats gonna be as funny cuz its not the original voice...
if u guys haven watched it....pls go...its so funny...if uve watched it and didnt larf...im sorry to say ure a dead person :P
anyone wanna go again..im up for it :D
next movie wanna watch is 'the happening', 'made of honour', 'get smart', etc...
dun tink can watch indiana jones....buy dvd kua...
made of honour come out in perth now going to finish d..kl oni showing tomolo (19th)...
i tink yesterday is the preview screening for made of honour cuz i saw so many ppl q-ing for redemption tix and all dressed up for it :s

tats all from me...haven told ppl i returned...tried to message tze to wish her happy bday but i tink she changed her mobile number..oh well, there goes the frenship...

anyone haven seen 'the eye of malaysia'? who wanna go wif me??? i wanna go...MUST GO!! they're taking it down oredi :(
who wanna go tell me....

graston is painfully awesome haha...

am not gonna blog much..just wanna tok about my chiro appointment with wilko (andrew) just now...
i saw him last week and today is just a follow up and for other adjustments..
ive been having tension headache for the past 2 weeks constantly every nite...
i would say its stress related since im having my final exams now...

because of all the cervical set up adjustments tat we've been doing in labs for the past 5 weeks, i have a right anterior displacement of my TMJ (jaw) but he refused to do an adjustment for me last week..this week he still refused but he say he's gonna check the muscles...
so he gloved up and went into my mouth....IT WAS PAINFUL!! it was super tensed up and it hurtz cuz of the trigger points....
i told him tat a headache will progress each time i chew too much or tok too much and he larfed cuz i say i eat too much...he reckons i tok more than i eat hahaha....

so he massaged muh muscles of mastication and it hurts i omost cried :(
then he did it externally, and tat was more comfy than the internal one....
after tat he adjusted my SI, lumbar and gave me an occipital adjustment...
then the fun part came...he say to do graston on my jaw area and my trapz!
i was so happy and yes he did say 'bloody hell' again haahahaha...
im so very demanding tats why..i wan this and that so tat i can get my $10 worth hahahaha...
im such a cruel patient :P

im very very interested in the graston technique for soft tissue work...
but then it will cost me aud$4500 to learn it tru weekend seminar...where am i to find tat money?? how bout SOT..i oso wanna learn tat and tats like dunno how many grand...

oh btw...everything is going up, price of fuel, food, currency...OMG...im so broke :(
damm u stupid malaysian gov....good for nth....

in the midst of a stressful breakdown...
so im here...trying to relief just a lil bitsy tiny bit of my stress...

i couldnt wake up this morning cuz i was dreaming...2 dreams in say 15 minutes?
even after the timer rang, i still slept tru because of the dreamz...
i dreamt tat 'you' came back from overseas and u bought me things...
u just knew where i was at that time (at the grocery shop haha) and u just came in and gave me a surprise..and then u made me jealous by treating another gal someting to drink and not me...but then u told me u had another surprise for me...u took my hand and you brought me outside to the carpark....there u told me u wan to start a life wif me and u started by getting a brand new family car (the latest yummy toyota estima)....i was shocked...us?together?again?
i told myself tat i shouldnt be too happy cuz u broke my heart before but apart of me just wanted to say why not again? uve changed after returning from overseas....u tot over wat u did and u told me u dun wan me to live u again...
u took my hand again and u say u are not gonna let go (so fairytale like)...in the car were the tings u bought for me while ure overseas....u bought me liquor??? 4 bottles somemore...i was like why liquor and a huge box of chocz hahaha...its weird...i remembered one bottle of champagne, one bottle of white wine, a bottle of bailey's, and a bottle of vodka....all my favourite...
i just gave u a hug and i woke up....how weird...
then now im tinking...rite, tat would not happen cuz u didnt change and ure the same person i know...

The common thread
That lies between you and me
Would break if you breathed on it
That's why I'm treading so carefully

The view from your eyes
Is too different than mine
I should know finding the truth in a lie
Is nothing but a waste of time

I do but I don't
I should but won't
'Cause I don't wanna be alone

Knock on my door
Before we run out of time
Break into my heart and rob me blind
Just leave the pieces scattered on the floor
Don't worry my heart's been broken before

the other dream was even more weird..my boyfriend was an actor....but i totally cant remember his name...he is funny as and really cute...
the funniest part of the dream was there was some sort of a war and he told me to reload the needles onto his shirt hahahaha...it was so funny..
i asked him why do u have so many needles and he just larfed....then i say ok i'll keep one needle for myself and he said no! u stay here dear...wait for me...i couldnt stop larfing...
needles? wat? hahahahaha.....

anyways, i'll be back in msia exactly 2 sundays time....
i miss home so much....so close yet soooo far!!!