in the midst of a stressful breakdown...
so im here...trying to relief just a lil bitsy tiny bit of my stress...

i couldnt wake up this morning cuz i was dreaming...2 dreams in say 15 minutes?
even after the timer rang, i still slept tru because of the dreamz...
i dreamt tat 'you' came back from overseas and u bought me things...
u just knew where i was at that time (at the grocery shop haha) and u just came in and gave me a surprise..and then u made me jealous by treating another gal someting to drink and not me...but then u told me u had another surprise for me...u took my hand and you brought me outside to the carpark....there u told me u wan to start a life wif me and u started by getting a brand new family car (the latest yummy toyota estima)....i was shocked...us?together?again?
i told myself tat i shouldnt be too happy cuz u broke my heart before but apart of me just wanted to say why not again? uve changed after returning from overseas....u tot over wat u did and u told me u dun wan me to live u again...
u took my hand again and u say u are not gonna let go (so fairytale like)...in the car were the tings u bought for me while ure overseas....u bought me liquor??? 4 bottles somemore...i was like why liquor and a huge box of chocz hahaha...its weird...i remembered one bottle of champagne, one bottle of white wine, a bottle of bailey's, and a bottle of vodka....all my favourite...
i just gave u a hug and i woke up....how weird...
then now im tinking...rite, tat would not happen cuz u didnt change and ure the same person i know...

The common thread
That lies between you and me
Would break if you breathed on it
That's why I'm treading so carefully

The view from your eyes
Is too different than mine
I should know finding the truth in a lie
Is nothing but a waste of time

I do but I don't
I should but won't
'Cause I don't wanna be alone

Knock on my door
Before we run out of time
Break into my heart and rob me blind
Just leave the pieces scattered on the floor
Don't worry my heart's been broken before

the other dream was even more weird..my boyfriend was an actor....but i totally cant remember his name...he is funny as and really cute...
the funniest part of the dream was there was some sort of a war and he told me to reload the needles onto his shirt hahahaha...it was so funny..
i asked him why do u have so many needles and he just larfed....then i say ok i'll keep one needle for myself and he said no! u stay here dear...wait for me...i couldnt stop larfing...
needles? wat? hahahahaha.....

anyways, i'll be back in msia exactly 2 sundays time....
i miss home so much....so close yet soooo far!!!