very upset holiday...

i just got the letter saying that i have been given a supplementary exam paper for the radiology component of the neurology unit for semester 1...
when i opened my email and saw that topic...i omost passed out...
i really din expect anything like tat because i noe for sure that i was gonna do well for the final exams tat i finished...
open my result page...the other 2 units are good...and then i saw 'S' for neuro...SHIT!

i broke down into tears...i din wan to except the truth tat i have to retake tat paper and because of that i had to return to perth way earlier than i planned..
my parents din lecture me, instead they told me it was ok and i did my best...i did...i did my best but tat best wasnt my very best indeed...
so i had to reschedule my air tickets which cost me a further rm1000...
i am totally pissed off with myself at the moment for wasting all those time and money...
all this things are unnecessary spendings....really hate myself..
but what is done is done...i wil be going back to perth on the 20th of july, the next day tat i return from kuching....it will be stressful trust me...but i dun have a choice..my sup paper is on the 21st...

so there goes my bday celebration in msia tat i was looking forward to...
oh well..i guess its gonna be spent there regreting wat i have done to put me where i will be then...
i am happy that i have such supportive family and frenz...
they never fail to back me up when i am down...not oni tat my parents never lectured me a single word, they even comforted me so tat i din feel bad...
frenz who kept trying to cheer me up so that i dun feel so down..
ah....so thankful....

my dad so sked i cant eat lunch until he drove all the way to pick my mum and i up to go have lunch in paramount...wahliao so expensive ipoh noodles...rm8.80 per bowl...wth?
i definately cried quite a bit..cant say my eyes arent puffy at the moment haha...
i ruined not oni my holidays but the time that i have wif my family...
i cause the genting trip wif my mum and aunt to be canceled cuz i wont be around...
despite all that, no one blamed me for anything , but i blame myself..
rave and kei asked me out to pasar malam to cheer me up but i just cant go out..after all this?
in the end...rave bought mango loh and brought it over to my house in the middle of the nite....
omg...i was like wth? it was very sweet of her...thankiu very much...
oso not forgetting how ee, mel, and kelf for advising me and comforting me...

without anyone of them, i dunno wat would i be doing rite now..will i be sobering at one dark corner like i said i would? nah....i doubt tat...
instead, i cleaned my room...i just took all my clothes out of my cupboard and started folding and throwing clothes that i dun wan...
well, the result wasnt very impressive cuz my wardrobe is still packed and messy hahaha...

today, i will be going out wif rave..
going to the gardens, mv....watching a movie, having lunch and perhaps dinner?
i told myself i was gonna spend money..i even took out rm500 ready to spend...
but i dun tink im gonna do so...i wanna repay my dad for paying for my ticket changes...
feel bad that he has to pay for wat is my mistake....
im gonna withdraw everything in my savings and change it into aussie dollar...
wanna put in the FD up in aus..hopefully can..if not then too bad...
as for today...will see wat i'll buy..there's nth tat i really need but a black pair of working shoes and maybe a new handbag cuz ive been carrying the red elle bag since i came back..oways so mis-matching with my clothes hahaha....

thankiu again to everyone that helped me tru my hardships...
really appreciated and i hope i could do the same for anyone of u when u are having problems...

aja aja fighthing :D