promise u'd make me smile everyday of our relationship

was slacking around yesterday morning...couldnt be bothered going to the gym as i was a lil sleepy...
but after chatting wif J, i went...he asked me to pump it up =.="
haven seen him for a while now, he even asked if i was going to 'city to surf' (it's a run around the city, for charity)...
went to the gym at about 11.30...lazy ass...did a full 40 minutes and cant bothered going on, so went for a swim when i saw that the pool was half empty...
when i got there, oni 2 ppl were there, asian husband and wife..from the cardio station i could see them swimming from above...quite funny because they didnt really noe how to swim properly..
anyways, mind my own biznes i got into the pool..FREEZING SHIT!
since the pool was so short (50m), i told myself today i have to at least swim 30 laps, which was really noting if u tink about it..
then halfway tru i decided to do a butterfly stroke...to my surprise, the lady swam over next to my lane and shouted so loud...

lady: WOW....u look very pretty doing tat swim...
me: *water in ears* *bounce bounce* oh thanks... *catch breathe*
lady: how did u do it? looks very graceful...do u noe how to speak hua yi or guong dong hua?
me: erm erm....yi tien tien hahaha...
lady: and the other one (she mean breaststroke) how to do...do u put ure head up first or wat?
me: *tink tink* *how to explain le*..erm...i dunno how to teach im sorri..
lady: no no its ok, we're just wondering how u did it..looks very good...we are beginners u see, i went for my 3rd swimming class and he is oni at his first...
me: owh icic..do u train here?
lady: no, they dun teach here..we have to go to the one in victoria park...
me: oh icic, i tot they did have swimming lessons here...like yesterday, got students and coaches teaching here...
lady: oh isit? i called up and they say no such ting...
me: oh sorri..i dunno how to teach, but im sure ure teacher will teach u soon..
lady: its ok, just wondering oni....u swim well....
me: *blush*..thankiu thankiu *smilez*

after a few more rounds, i got out of the pull and just cuz im polite, i told her i was leaving..
then she asked me how i swam quick...so i say u have to keep ure legs str8 and kick...
she asked if the legs was suppose to be on top of the water or below..i say erm middle? hahaha...
maybe i shd be a swimming teacher hahahaa....just kidding...i cant even swim tat well anymore..fat like shit ><"
well at least im not tat fat until i'll sink into the bottom of the pool..i can still float without moving hahahaha but still sink in eventually..everyone is like tat :P
i enjoy swimming...but i dun wan my breast to go smaller ><"
tats my theory hahahahaha...*lame*

got home for lunch, then cousin forced me to go to garden city for shopping...
she wanted to check out the versace perfume i told her about and because now got promo where every $80 spent, u'll get a free laptop-like-bag...
i told her the perfume is FANTASTIC! and she was convinced..we headed off to myers....checked the bag and the perfume out...it smelled like heaven! oh btw..its the men's pour homme...not ladies one ok...sorri for the confussion..
ive been crazy for men's fragrance lately..shh....discovered a few really good ones :D
so the bag itself, it had the word versace on it and my cousin say she would oni buy if they had the brand on it..so it did and she still didnt noe whether to get onot...
i mean come on...she had like a $40 voucher and all she has to pay is $40 and like tat she oso mm seh tak =.=
$40 for a bottle of pour homme and a bag..come on man!!
nvm..later darrell came along from uni...i told him about it and he said tat versace pour homme can replace polo blue anytime :D :D :D
even asked if i preferred polo blue or versace...of cuz versace...seriously, it smells AWESOME...
i wan my partner to wear it so i might buy it :D who's my partner? Shhhh....

now i have convinced darrell tat the perfume is good and i made him tink about it the whole nite huahuahua....get it man...trust my taste for men's perfume :P
or u could go for bvlgari aqva :D :D :D

then after dinner, went over to D's place for movie nite..he bought 27 dresses just now so invited me over since he bought a new HD tv :D :D :D
i brought popcorn so tat we could pop pop pop....got there, watched the incredibles first...seen it b4 but hey, D likes it so watch while he had his mee goreng haha...
after tat we went making the popcorn..the funniest bit was when we were making the caramel...
melted the butter then poured in the sugar..damm it the whole ting became so thick and eventually a lil hard to stir...and then added the syrup..shoit..the oil and sugar didnt mix...and it changed colour so fast damm it...dun care...faste pour into the popcorn....hhaahhaa...turned out welll..then sprinkle some chocolate powder and off we went...
sat ourselves comfortably on the chair and let the show begin...
it was a good show :) thankx D....

came home at about 11-ish...chat wif R and Justin for a bit...
after R left, i just appeared off9 and lingered around the room...sat down to make my mini europe plan....3 weeks im going for..mum will book for me tis week :)
i sorta got stuck on making up the plan cuz dublin was smacked in btw my arrival and london :(
i din wan to spend xmas in dublin but R does, so ok....i can accommodate wif tat i tink...as long as R is happy :)
i wanna go to rome but i tink R doesnt :( must i go myself and meet R in venice?
not gonna go to switzerland o germany either....
going to spain barcelona if possible....i wanna go there :D
other places i just put down but dunno can work out onot...see how first la...

then tis morning, i couldnt wake up cuz i slept at about 2.30...
cousin woke me up to shift the car at 9...i was parked behind her tats why ><"
i was intensely sleepy....came on9...R was there, just got back from clubbing it seems...wif a hot babe somemore hehehe....
we chat for about 2 hours i tink...tok about sex LOL...very funny....its private so not gonna say anyting here...hahahaha....totally hilarious where human mind can bring their host...

its rather cold indoors today....im wearing sleeveless oso tats why....
gonna take a hot shower now....imagine stuff hahahaha.....slap slap slap :P
might take a nap or repolish my nails to french nails :D bought white nail polish the other day..cost me $9 damm it....dunno why i even bothered...if nice will take pic of my hands and post it here the next time :)

xoxox to all my darlings and dears....mwahs mwahs!

body dysmoprhic disorder

"Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) (previously known as Dysmorphophobia and sometimes referred to as Body dysmorphia) is a psychiatric disorder in which the affected person is excessively concerned about and preoccupied by an imagined or minor defect in his or her physical appearance"

BDD combines obsessive and compulsive aspects, linking it, among psychologists, to the obsessive-compulsive spectrum disorders

The disorder generally is diagnosed in those who are extremely critical of their physique or self-image even though there may be no noticeable disfigurement or defect, or a minor defect which is not recognised by most people

Most people wish that they could change or improve some aspect of their physical appearance; but people suffering from BDD, generally of normal or even highly attractive appearance, believe that they are so unspeakably hideous that they are unable to interact with others or function normally for fear of ridicule and humiliation about their appearance

Ironically, BDD is often misunderstood as a vanity-driven obsession, whereas it is quite the opposite, for people with BDD believe themselves to be irrevocably ugly or defective

people with BDD may compulsively look at themselves in the mirror or avoid mirrors, typically think about their appearance for at least one hour a day (and usually more), and in severe cases may drop all social contact and responsibilities as they become a recluse

Common symptoms of BDD include:

• Obsessive and compulsive behaviors related to perceived appearance defect
• Delusional thoughts and beliefs related to perceived appearance defect
• Feeling self-conscious in social environments; thinking that others notice and mock their perceived defect
• Problems initiating and maintaining relationships

Common compulsive behaviors associated with BDD include:

• Compulsive mirror checking, glancing in reflective doors, windows and other reflective surfaces
• Attempting to camouflage imagined defect: for example, using cosmetics, wearing baggy clothing, maintaining specific body posture or wearing hats.
• Excessive grooming behaviors: skin-picking, combing hair, plucking eyebrows, shaving, etc.
• Compulsive skin-touching, especially to measure or feel the perceived defect.
• Reassurance-seeking from loved ones
• Comparing appearance/body-parts with that of others
• In extreme cases, patients have attempted to perform plastic surgery on themselves, including liposuction and various implants with disastrous results

i think personally, i have this disorder..i self diagnose myself for having it..
the oni ting different is tat i luv having mirrors all around me hahaha....
all this is taken from wikipedia..oni those tat resembles ME...
i seek reassurance from luved one and my partner...beauty is someting i wan but i dun possess :(
anyways, im actually happy wif the way i am..is just tat at times i just wish i had a different body hahaha....sounds familiar to anyone else? i oways compare myself to others and gets scolded for it :'(
i am very self obsessive, i enjoy looking at myself, dressing up and buy nice tings hehehe..to keep myself happy tat is..its the oni way i can feel good about myself and my appearance..

ive got plenty of comments from all those 'sum koo lok poh' saying im gigantic..fat..masculine looking...unfit...unfeminine like....etc etc...
ive oso got comments like 'ah gal ah, if ure slim u look very pretty'...'ah gal ah, why dun u do more exercise'...'darling ah, loose weight la'....'dear ah, ure FAT so dun eat so much la'.....
i tell u ppl hah..i wasnt like tat b4 ok...wat the heck...everyone tinks im a fat arse ever since young =.=
im trying to be fit, healthy and slim OK...stop giving me the pressure..it sounds so much easier than actually doing it..and boy do i not like to exercise...hehehe....
i try hard but i tink im not trying hard enuf :P
but then again, the most hurtful ting u could hear from ure partner is:

"dear, u look FAT in watever u wear but i'll still LOVE you for who u are inside"

OMG who says such tings? soooo not motivating at all....idiotic claim really....

and not to forget wat the parents say:

"gal, u better lose weight, if not nobody will want u in the future and no one wanna marry u next time"

boy is tat harsh or wat....own parents telling me i wont get a wedding proposal in the future if i dun shed off the kiloz ><"

so now, who else is gonna say someting about my appearance and how FAT i am? speak up or forever hold ure peace...i can take any harsh opinions really, after wat the closest ppl in my life have to say about my looks...

28th day of the month

its 1.29am and its the 29th day in the month of august of 2008. last time when rave and i haven broke up, the 28th day of each month was the month where we celebrated our love for each other. ever since that, 28th day of every month just seems to be another ordinary day.

its late and i noe i shd be sleeping. i have been asked if i remembered what date it was today (well actually yesterday) and it was the 28th day of the month. we got together on the 28th of january in 2003. if we were still together today, we would be greeting each other wif 'happy 67th month anniversary dear'....i have just given out my 2nd rejection. didn't do it on purpose...just din expected it. i tot it would be like the dream i had. but u decided to ask today cuz u tot it felt rite. will it make a difference now and then? was it because it was the 28th?

im not playing hard to get...u noe how some ppl say, it takes 2 ppl to make it feel rite? wat does rite mean? how do u noe it is the rite moment, the rite time, the rite place? i am in no position to play hard to get. i just wanted it to be like a dream, a dream where it was just 2 ppl at a certain time, a certain place and a certain gesture. i wasnt even in my appropriate posture when u asked. maybe i have this thing where i will never accept any offer virtually or tru the phone. i rather i am being confronted face to face and then we can accept the answer openly.

its up to u if u decide ure not gonna ask again. how many more rejections must u get to actually gain an answer that u want? to tell u the truth, the answer was positive but it just wasnt the rite time, u noe it was gonna be a yes but u chose the wrong place at the wrong time....

de debate....asian vs ang mo team :P

"immunization is a safe and effective form of disease control"

that was our topic of debate and my group unfortunately got to be the one against it ><"
nvm..life still goes on...
no one was as enthusiastic as the week b4...
last weeks topic was:

"is it essential for the health of Australians to have chiropractic included in the mainstream of healthcare?"

see, last week everyone (including me) did individual research and boy was our debate gonna be good because we were FOR!
unfortunately we didnt get chosen damm it...so no choice this week's topic is 101% us...
cuz thats the oni 2 groups left that hasnt presented a debate :(

but it all went well..we had our 'last minute' meeting in the library and we got allocated to which part we were gonna tok...i had tis one where i had to like give a very sarcastic and exaggerated speech about the topic...i tink i nailed it...it was funny and ppl larfed which was good..my point got tru :P
i omost crap my pants (oni tat i was wearing a skirt haha)...nervous crap!
but at least it couldnt be heard tru my voice hehehe...mel on the other hand..wow u can tell tats she's super nervous..her voice gave it all out..
in the end..we got the louder clap which means we WON!
*weeeee*......

oh oh..before i forget...i saw stephan today...
julz...just so u noe..i sat in front of him at the computer lab wahahahaha...
jelez yet? wahahaha...he is MINE....u can have peter LOL....or perhaps stephan's all time buddy (cant remember his name)...
i tink he tinks tat we were stalking him cuz val and i were like walking wherever they went..
not purposely of cuz..then i had to use the comps to transfer stuff into my usb and they were at the comps too..and we were in front of each other HUAHUAHUA..take tat julz! heart pain liao bor? LOL...

finished class at 2.30..headed home for about an hour then went to the gym....
just cuz jerome had the 2 week free membership ting and i have it to so i gave it to julz..
so i went there at about 4....now i noe why i dun wan frenz to be my gyming buddy...
even last time wif cornelia...tok more than anyting man...tats why i rather go relax myself :P

anyways, cant be bothered typing anymore..im pretty lazy today...
im loosing all my stemina...from all tat sleeping..tats really really bad ><"
but i cant seem to wake up at 6.30 anymore..no matter how much i need to..
damm sad case....anyways, might sleep in tomolo....

next week is study break AGAIN...so fast rite? lazy lecturers :/
i wanna go ice skating and have korean food...ppl u better entertain me or i'll be nasty jezzie-belle wahahahahaha....
prolly rot at home AGAIN.....sleep and sleep all day long...hehehe...

perth does have IDIOT drivers...

i not oni say this cuz i omost got hit the other day and again tis morning...
there are hoon drivers and there are BLIND and idiotic drivers..
come on...perth is not a perfect city wif perfect gentlemen-like drivers k..they produce some of the world's worse drivers ever! and u tink tat kl produces hectic drivers...*bleh*

this morning i overslept and just didnt wan to wake up..my aunt and uncle tot i overslept again..
they say tat but they never wake me up, wats wif tat?
i woke up from my warm bed at about 8-ish, got ready and packed 2 karipap and 2 siu pau...and off i went to the gym...
for some reason, i couldnt run as long as i could today...was tired every 6 minutes...as if i was having a heavy heart tis morning or someting....my right ankle hurt a lil bit...
i tink its because of the period..but its the 3rd day oredi so i dunno why still so malaise and fatique....
so i did oni half an hour on cardio then went to the ladies training room to do some weights...still didnt really have the stemina to do it...
julz called and so i went str8 to uni after my shower...
rite so this is how a freaking car omost hit me! damm it..
u noe how if ure driving str8 and a car needs to turn, they would have to give way to u first?
dis freaking biatch just zoomed out from the left and didnt watch me at all..she didnt even step the freakin breaks =.="
i was still moving slowly as i stepped on my breaks when i realize she isnt stopping! so i bloody used my horns for the 4th time after so long...
freaking biatch can still stare at me..geee woman..ure in the wrong damm it...can give me the bloody stare...lucky for her she went b4 me at the other turning..if not i'll tail her tru and tru...
geram betul...bloody driver ><"

when i reached uni, bloody hell, cant even get a freaking parkin...i had to go round and round for such a longggg time and finally i saw a parking but it was freaking far! never parked tat far b4 seriously...
walk like crap....but its ok...needed a short walk..nice day anyways..apart from omost getting hit...

===========after dinner================

continue toking to kelf..omg..so freaking funny tat dude....used up all my larfing quota for today oredi....
he's having some fren issues and tat has been putting him down..pity bugger..
chit chat wif him a bit and all he can tink of is getting a gf...can somemore call me mamasan..bloody hell tat fella...slap slap!
then tok about his accommodation and lodging when he's in nz next year...
now...is NZ$10k cheap for one year fully catered on campus stay???
well i tink it is..i mean hey, u dun have to worri about meals..
then we were calculating how much it would cost if he were to have mcD meals everyday 3 times a day....its way cheaper than catering from hostel..
then we tok about cooking....
guess wat?!?!?! he went for a 3 day cooking lesson! wahahaha...its the first ive heard of any guy frenz going for cooking classes ok...damm hilariouz wei...couldnt stop larfing...
he called me kiamsiap for not sharing my recipes *bleh*...
pls....wat u wan me to say?
but i told him about abc soup + macaroni and he said wth is tat...
then he reckons it was xyz soup HAHAHAHAHA....now tats how u make me larf..huahuahua..
go get a nz gf la...let her do the cooking for u :P

oh oh oh.... JEZZIE GOES WIRELEZZ!! i finally got my router hehehhee...
i came back and installed it...at first it didnt work and it got me a lil mad but then i restarted everyting and it worked :D
patience jezz patience..it wont kill u to be a lil bit more patient!
so now...i can move around the house and go on9 :D :D :D
i can on9 on my bed now..yay..dun have to be envious wif anyone anymore hehehe..

having study break next week....still wondering if i shd plan for a luncheon in northbridge next week...i heard about tis 'kimchi house' from darrell and i have been dying to go to a korean place in perth...so hopefully tis outing will be ok..if not i'll just go wif val hehehe...
anyways, tired of typing oredi...maybe i shd watch 'uncle charlie' in adults hour of two and a half men...omg jake is all grown up...huahuahua...new series it seems :s
anyways, i looked tru a lot of photoz in facebook today, introduced most of my frenz to val...
i miss all of them :( luv luv!! mwahz!

may and perfumezzz

hehehe....i totally overspent today..
just felt a lil depressed so needed a lil me time...but was hesitating to go out..cuz having my period so....felt a lil lazy...
the whole morning ive been sitting in front of the comp, trying to get some work done but i kept reading about stuff and even held my pee in to sit and stare at the bloody screen..

after a ligth but fatty lunch, i lazed around in my room for a while..chat wif ppl, then played a lil game then decided to get my arse up and go out...
about 2pm i left the house, suppose to go carousel first but because of the bloody line of cars, i decided go to the pharmacy first...
they recently opened a new 'chemist warehouse' on albany highway next to my gym...its huge! well its a warehouse isnt it hehehe..
so i walked in for the first time ever and woah...HUGE place...lotsa stuff....
first up...the vitamin section...geee....so many choices but of cuz i oni trust one brand and its 'blackmores' *woot woot*...
saying tat, i oso got take other brands la...just more onto the one i like...
a bit pricey but its the quality tat i wan so yea, pay more lor..
bought a big bottle of odourless fish oil and some multivitamins..

they oso have a HUGE range of perfumes....but sadly they dun have tester to the ones i wanna try....i saw tis 'bvlgari black' ... it was unisex....looks quite interesting but NO BLOODY TESTER!
then another one tat im suppose to test out were the 'escada men' and 'ck euphoria'...
damm annoyed when they din have testers lor....how u expect someone to buy when they dun even noe the freakin smell :s
so nvm lor...walk off after paying for me DRUGS hehehe...

went off to carousel....
u noe wats nice about shopping alone? u can take all the time in the world without having to worri about those tat are accompanying u..isnt it ridiculously awesome?
well yea its nice to have company...but since im here, its mostly me time..
so i walked around, first off bought a top tat has an attached half vest on it and a pair of stockinz..
then continue walking and i saw this area where diva was putting up stalls...omg, more jewellery! and yeap, spent $30 for costume jewz :P
cashless after buying crap..then went to jayjays :D wanted to buy 2 tops but one was freaking $35 so dun wan....wont pay tat for a thin piece of material..then i saw this top, hmm....imagined a lil and bought it...wasnt on sale but i liked it :D wanted to buy one for myself but i hated the colour hahahaha..not my type anyways...
then as i was heading to go to cotton on, i saw a familiar face...OMG ITS MAY!
freaking shit...its may...i was like may? and she answered :D
i haven seen her for 3 years! omg....
ok, i met may during 1st year chiro...she left one year after to do OT because she tinks chiro is just too hard...
she's my partner for everyting until she left :(
anyways, she's doing awesome now....looks great as ever...
dun have a pic of her..sorri cant put up...we spoke for about half an hour or so and i had to go cuz 4 plus liao...

oh, forgot to say, i went to the perfume shop and myers to pick up a few samples...
omg....the versace man smells SO GOOD! euphoria isnt tat nice..a bit tooo heavy for my nose hehehe...then i went to ralph just so i can get another tester for one of my fav...i tink its ralph flower or someting...dunno wats it called..hehee...now my wallet smells awesome hehehe....i threw the versace one into my handbag and the euphoria one into the bag tat contain the shirt :P

so tat was my dad practically...came back, cleared up my shopping bags...
u noe ah, i had to hide all tat in my handbag when i entered the house cuz i noe for sure that my uncle will stop me and ask me wats tis wats tat hahahaha....
faste ran up to my room, locked the door and tried some stuff huahuahua!!

OMG....mathew mitchem!

WOW WOW WOW!!!

melson rang me to tell me that the gymnastix was on tv...she noes that i LUV gymnastics heehe..
rite after my shower, i quickly turned on the tv and it was on *yeepee* it was rhythmic gymnastics...
watched the russians do wat they do best in any type of gymnastics....
oh btw...i oni watch the womans gymnastix..not interested in men doing gymn at all..just seems weird hahaha...
then after tat they replayed last nite's men's final 10M diving...
at tat time, the chinese were in the 1st spot...then after the australian mathew mitchem had his dive he won gold! it is sooooo UNTYPICAL of aussies to get gold in diving..its oways the chinese tat dominates the diving platforms...
let me tell u one ting....the dive was superdupercrazyamazing!! it was close to perfect..
the maximun scores tat one could get per dive was 114...he scored 112 point someting!
he couldnt even believe it till he saw the score board...wow! tears of joy!!
it was just amazing tat one....truout all the olympix over sooo many years, aussies have oni won 4 (inc tis one) gold medals in diving....thumbs up mate..well done well done!

oh boy do i hate it when they keep changing games..one minute its gymnastics, then its diving, then back to the gymnastix then basketball, then just a minute ago, it was the russians doing their hoop-group routine and now its basketball again..damm it..stick to one la....irritating betul!

anyways, im a bit disappointed i never watched any synchronize swimming...the one game tat i look so much forward to because i was part of my past swimming club's sync team and tat is why i luv it so much...
super super sad! anyways, im sure all the gals did brilliantly and gracefully...

stay tune for tonite's coverage of the closing ceremony..leono lewis is gonna sing and if anyone is a fan of david beckham, he will be making an appearance there tonite...
heroes of the Beijing Olympia 2008.....well done CHINA....double thumbs up for being the greatest host country ever! for those who missed out on the opening ceremony, its just a shame cuz u missed out on wat really was the best opening ceremony the world were to see....spectacular performances....excellente!
next up...LONDON 2012 *woot woot*....

it's the way u make me feel :)

It's the things that you do,
So physical,
It's the things that you say,
So flammable,
You know I can't resist,
Boy it's such a shame,
Do you belong to another,
I don't wanna hurt nobody,
But my heart just can't hold back,

It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

I'm gonna make you mine,
It's not impossible,
Got to let you know,
I'm irresistible,
Baby can't you see,
You're the one for me,
But you belong to another,
I don't wanna hurt nobody,
But my heart just can't hold back,

It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

When I look into your eyes,
Everytime you smile at me,
Oh I go weak inside,
Baby I just can't hide my love,

It's the Way You Make Me Feel,
The way that you make me feel,
Spinning my world around,
Tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

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i had the funniest dream an hour ago....it was hillarious..
i tink i was like on holidays wif my mum and a group of relatives....
jeremy was there for some reason...was he suppose to acc me? cuz we were the oni youngies there...anyways, back to the topic...
for some reason, jeremy and i were on a car while the others took the tour bus, then we got to a place where erm there was a HUGEEEEE drain-like tingy seperating the 2 sides, we were parked to the correct side while the bus stopped opposite us...
now...the funniest part was how my mum and the rest came over to our side...
i was like giggling wif jero and we just watched on...
first up was some fat guy whom i cant rmb who he was..he grabbed a rope tat was attached to one of the polls and guess wat he did!!! he swing himself across the longkang hahaha...he even bounced off the wall wif his belly hahahaha...stupid but funny....
then how he got up to where we were? he used another rope tat was attached to our end to climb up....wahahaha super funny lor....
then later the rest followed...as i was laughing, i asked why cant the bus just drive over to this side? then i woke up cuz my tummy hurts :(
got up at about 8-ish then went to the toilet...then came back to the bed, wanted to sleep in but my cousin woke me up ><"
came on9....hmm not many ppl on9, currently chatting wif juinny darling and sil :P
hands are frozen again! hate tat..maybe i shd go take a hot shower..
the period has made me not able to go to the gym for a hot sauna :(

i tink im beeing lectured by mj at the moment...hmmm.....
really envious wif her relationship...having mike by her side...very very happy for her :D

aching all over :(

i tink i pulled my hamstrings yesterday on the step-machine...
so today, dun tink i'll be gyming..just went for a swim..

the pool at cannington looks like tis, pls allow me to describe.
its oni a short 50m pool, 3 lanes separated with erm 'lane dividers' and the remaining 3 lanes were just open for those grandmas to have their aquatic lessons...
the other day when i had a swim, the pool was so bloody dirty omG! dead skins floating everywhere YUCK!
then another day i went, the pool wasnt 'dirty'..it was BLURRY!! i couldnt see anyting underwater....like swimming within the clouds or someting =.="
then today, the pool was ok...not the cleanest but better than the rest..i really need to complaint cuz keep increasing my fees but dun give me a clean pool GRR...
the pool started to fill up wif ppl....every single lane was taken up...
after 50minutes of swim, this guy came into the pool wif a fluorescent green swimming cap...
he got into the water...i didnt bother cuz he was at the 'open' end of the pool..then i swan lor..
when i was about to touch the wall, i saw a pair of flippers in front of me..i was like wth?
touched the wall and looked next to me was that guy?!?!?!
wat on earth is he doing inside my lane???? why cant he swim in the open lanes when CLEARLY there were more space there???? omg piss me off....at first i didnt care la...continued swimming then he swan as well =.="
space invader! damm it....nvm nvm..i tot to myself..ok la....omost an hour of swim d...shd be enuf so lets just gt out of the way and let this weirdo have the lane..so i swam away lor...
then went into the sauna for a bit...STINK! 2 korean 'auntiez' sitting there naked =.=" scrubbing themselves =.="
it is usual for koreans to do tat in public but trust me..ITS DISGUSTING! ure not in korean women!! at least do tat when no one is around =.=" can somemore spreaddddd their legs so wide *fainted*....
got out of there ASAP...beh tahan =.=" i dun mind the nudity but pls...the scrubbing and legs are just wayyy too much....

as usual, gym after saturday means traffic jam on the way home....true and true..stuck in the traffic jam for about 10 minutes trying to wait for the freaking turn at the lites...
when it was my turn to go, the line of cars in front of me were just insane...so long! oni my small car can fit behind them...so i went along lor..
then from my side mirror i could see this car coming so quick...my car stopped oredi cuz in front jam mah....he had to step on his break SOOO hard till i could hear it in fully closed doors wif blasting music! he didnt see me stopping damm it...it was soooo close, omost hitting oredi...lucky nth..if not omg...my poor car...*phew*

====art in bloom 2008 @ art gallery of WA====

went to the city wif my cousin to see an art exhibition called 'art in the bloom' in WA art galleria, next to the Wellington train station....
its mostly art wif lots of flowers to go wif it....
i drove of cuz...as if she will ever drive =.="
but she paid for my entrance and the parking ticket *woot woot* hehehehe...
the gallery was awesome! omg the floral arrangements were just SUPERB!!!
there's tis particular one tat i luved so much...it was potraits resembling christianity and death...
the floral arrangements were white lilies on the ground wif bouquets of white roses surrounding it and a white tree wif leaves falling off...omg...so pretty!!
wasted we couldnt take pix :( if not i would have taken every single ting *sobz*...
i luv white lilies but i noe some ppl dun like it cuz it symbolizes death and sadness...its so pretty!
the whole exhibition was great....cousin told me tat i shd visit one of the art galleries/museum in london...cuz there got fashion jewellery stuff tat i would like hehehe....
we were at the gallery for about 2 and a half hours....cool exhibition really..thumbz up...
on the way out towards the city, i saw someone selling white lilies...omg so cheap..one for one dollar...wanted to buy but sked kena scolding from my aunt...hehehe...

walked around the city for a bit cuz it was oredi 4.30 and the city closes at about 5pm..sien!
saw a couple of cute dresses....not buying, save money...
go back oni buy dress for the wedding, hmm wat shd i wear hehehehehe...
then as i was walking hor, this guy came up to me and asked if i wanted to be on a tv show?!?!?!
i was like wat???? they were doing this show, and he wants me to scare a guy..i was like no no then he say come on, its a real show...hahaha...
nope, i told him im in a rush then he say oh ok its orite then....
wahahaha....siao siao...wan me to scare someone to be on a show? wahahaha....funny funny..

am having my monthly cycle now and my body is aching all over the place!!! i tink i am going to bed early....a lil gloomy and my cuffz are aching as well....prolly wont be watching tv....dunno shd go gym tomolo onot....tummy sure pain one :(

give ureself a slap..

yeap yeap..tats wat i have been doing today...
the incident didnt just start today..started a few days back actually..
wat im toking about? ok here it is...

ive been having 'thoughts'...not dirty tots..well not most of the time HUAHUAHUA...
i keep tinking about erm ... cuddles and 'tings'...yea..unspeakable hahahha...
this afternoon while eating lunch and watching oprah, i had the tots again and there i was...holding my bowl on one hand and slapping my face with the other...
i stood up...put the bowl down and slapped the other side...
wat am i tinking and why huh? its like im in dreamland or someting...
the most slap-deserved part is when a smile can just creep up after or during the 'tot'..hahaha...
deserved to be slap, i mean c'mon..wth is wrong wif me..geeee..out of control..LOL..

yesterday nite, i was a bit high...i went all crazy...
i came on9, chat wif a few ppl then got all siao...went and google europe and look tru places tat i wanna go...
even my fren tot i was a bit weird last nite..i couldnt stop giggling hahaha..
she was like 'oh my gosh woman...ure scaring the hell out of me...ure smiling nonstop!!'
oh i was webcam-ing wif her hahaha....she just wanted to see how i look like after a few mths haha...
then i wrote the places down...had a mini plan in my head, etc etc...
its gonna be really rushing since the trip will oni be less than 3 weeks...
i tink its impossible to get cheaper flights..its been like rm4500-5000 to dublin/london...
*gulp*....bread and butter for the next year? hahaha...
i have oredi told myself that if i were to go to paris, i wont buy ANYTING..i repeat...NOTHING!
im oredi so broke trying to get my arse over to dublin..still wan shopping? *beeeeep bonggggg*..nope, not gonna happen huahuahua..
paris...fashion capital city! OMG....
LV headquarters? im not tat rich to even own a LV wallet =.=
but i wanna get tat erm colourful Eiffel tower figure that rave has...cute :P

oh, just for update, tings are sorta fine btw rave and myself i tink...
i dunno..i get hugs and kisses back so does tat mean that its ok now? hope so...

tomolo i tink i might just pop over to myers to check out a few perfume..
i tried this esprit perfume the other day...I LUV IT!
yea i noe..its esprit...a bit weird but the smell is just superb! i tink it oni comes in 30ml...hmmz...
i wanna go sample a few CK perfume..need to get it for a bday gift if there is one that actually smells good....hahaha...
last time they had tis CK summer or someting..i tink it smelled ok...hmm cnt even remember..
prolly get cool water from davidoff....hmmz...
anybody wan a bottle of opened Gucci envy EDP? i used less than 1/4 of it d...still got about 80ml in it...anyone? tink the smell is a bit too mature for me :P
dunno why i even got it in the first plc =.=

anyhoo.....im still high! wanna have a drink....but no alcohol in my room...
told luke the other day that i will drop by his liquor shop to get hard liquor...
but i tink..........neh...drinking like tat will ruin me...cuz its adictive..so prolly wont try starting the habit :D for once...i tink im actually listening to wat ppl say! hooray for me....
so prolly get those premix vodka hahaha....4% alco...tat shdnt be tat bad :P

Cheerz!!!

the unexpected truth about me....

story 1:
i spoke to gisele a few nites back and i dunno if she was being sarcastic or wat so ever but she gave me the expression that nth i said make sense?
she assured me that nth is about me...
as guilty as i was...i just had to tell her....
we din finish the conversation..its just left hanging...
well at least she even acknowledge me when i msged her.....

story 2:
i applied for a chiro assistant/receptionist job in southern chiro and physio clinic..
wat i didnt read properly was the location of the clinic..it was in CARINGBAH...
anyone in sydney find this place familiar???
so yea...i sent my resume and everyting and then i realized tat it didnt went rite...
so i googled the place and watever came up was about sydney new south wales..OMG!
wat did i just do....shoit....i applied for a position way way way far from me...
then yesterday i received a call starting wif 02...i knew it was from sydney..
they told me they were gonna hire me!! oh shoit...then i had to tell them where i was and wat mistake i did by not reading the application properly...
then she say wasted cuz its really good to have a chiro student working at the clinic..how i wish those clinics here said tat! damm it...
then she was saying..ok then i dun tink u wanna travel to sydney on a daily basis for tis part time job hahaha...
she say its ok...and she asked me to call them after i graduate and they would hire me as a lochum...ehehehe...

story 3:
yesterday just didnt seem like a good day to have any conversations..
i just noe that tings is gonna turn up ugly and it did....woah..i am predictable...
i wasnt feeling to good wif my throat cuz i burnt it a few days ago drinking HOT french onion soup...damm it...how i noe tat hot wor...
as usual....rave and i tok lor...felt a lil odd cuz we didnt play webbie at first...
then we tok about where we should go or do if i were to go over..it was nice to actually noe she wants me to go over..
speaking of which....i have bad news about tat....but first, lets finish the story...
we skyped and tings went along well until towards the end....
everyting about the past just came out and the truth was revealed....
the fact that i ruined the relationship just blew everyting away....i noe that my actions were wrong and so i felt guilty..i oways have...but i tried forgetting about it because i was young and naive then..
i was happy when tings were going better btw the 2 of us until yesterday...
i noe ive said it a million times but im saying it again...i DIDNT choose to hurt u...but i did and i totally apologize for my actions..its been 5 years...exactly 5 years to be frank wif u...
i may have hurt u but we both went on and found luv...
i truly am sorri for wat i have done to u 5 years ago....whether onot u will forgive me i dunno..
but i can tell u tat im not the girl u once knew 5 years ago...

i just want to know if wat happened yesterday is gonna change tings about us...
is europe still on? now i noe why my mum asked if we signed a contract saying tat we wont be seperated again like b4...i assured her that tings are different now and it will work out perfectly..
now wif this...i cant be sure anymore.....
u say ure unsure and dun noe anymore..i felt the pain in my chest...
i held my tears last nite and i did dis morning as well when i messaged her...
i went to uni.....everyting was good..i had some good larfs and i had my frenz around me to support me...
but after my last class, i sat and tok to valerie....she knew tat i wasnt rite because i was just secluded tis morning in my first lecture...i felt my whole body was ill and i was just sweating in a super cold lecture theatre...
i told her...and i started crying...i told her i did someting wrong and i tink i ruined everyting...
when i first told her about it...i was happy but now i am crying because of it...
ive oredi told myself that i wont bottle up my feelings anymore...if i feel like crying i will just cry and if i am happy i would just larf....i am more open now tat i noe how good it feels to actually let everyting out...sharing really lessen the burden...
until now i still din receive a reply from rave....every sms that came tru today i was hoping that rave would reply but nth came from the name 'rave uk'...
im really sorri.......

story 4:
if europe is confirmed, it wouldnt be wat i planned initially.
i told my parents that i would go on the 2oth of december and return on 24th of january b4 cny..
for some reason, i tot i remembered rave telling me tat msian nite was 23rd....tat is why i wanted to stay till 24th...if it means someting for me to stay for it i will...
but now u tell me its 31st jan....i cant stay there tat long cuz its cny and i dun tink my dad would allow tat...
so now....i just received an email from my mum telling me tat my other aunt and her family are going down to kl a few days b4 the spore wedding..WTF!!!
so guess wat i have to do? obvious rite? i have to cut short my stay in dublin! wth wth...im cursing and swearing rite now....
dunno if i shd be angry or just sad...cuz i tot i would be able to stay longer!!! now i tink have to cut like more than 1week ><"
my mum is even threatening me say tat if i dun plan to come back earlier then she wont book my tickets for me.....ARGH!!!
can somemore ask me go one week earlier and come back one week earlier....
so NOT happy about tis plan....ruined everyting ... grrrr....

im saying yet again as if ive oredi confirmed my bookings...i haven...i tink i'll do it next week or the week after..
but first i have to noe that rave has forgiven me and then i can oni make it there...
if not...then no point rite? pls let me noe......im lost...

never gone..

I really miss you, there's something I gotta say
The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back in me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside, I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life
Never gone

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life

Never gone (gone from me)
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

my voodoo doll :-(

kelf just got back from bangkok and we were chatting for a bit last nite...

didnt get to tell me wat he did in bangkok tat made him super duper tired hahahaha.....

got laid too much huh? will ask about tat soon muahahaha...
he told me he bought someting for me...someting he claims is cute and kewl...
a voodoo doll!!

===sob sob sob!!!===

guess where is it rite now....IN THE BIN!!! wahliao.......sob sob sob....
his mum found it and made him throw it into the dustbin :'(
he said he even tot carefully wat to buy and not just buy some cheapo souvenir for me...
now its in the bin?!?!?!? aihz....sam tung betul...
he got one for himself as well..he's was a vampire or dracula i cant remember...
damm it...his mum reckons it is bad to have such ting inside the house....
althou it was for a fren she oso dun care....
and he even hid it inside his drawer ok? his mum...the privacy invader hahahahaha....
how can she throw such cute lil tings!! its not like its a real voodoo doll oso...geee...
sad case man......nvm la....its oredi gone anyways...
dun get all pissed off la kelf....she's ure mum :)
thanks anyways....KL oso got, so prolly if i see it then i'll get it....
i saw many ppl carrying it as key chains those kind....kawaii des!!

half way day 2008

===jerome holding cam....mel MIA===


===Dr Rene Fejer!! luv u and ure classes loads!!!===


===BLACKMAILING TIME!!! muahahahaha===


==Dr Brian Nook, head of school of chiro, murdoch==

this was suppose to my half way day but unfortunately it isnt anymore..
mine would be next year wif new ppl....new environment..dun even noe if i will go for it next year...
felt sad because wat used to be mine isnt mine anymore :(

was suppose to meet at mel's brother's house near curtin uni at 6.10pm..
his house number was 31c....so ok....i have no idea wat tat means...
i got to the street and i couldnt bloody see the house number!! i made like so many rounds up and down..making illegal u-turns, stops and hiding hahaha....
finally i found the house and guess wat? neo forgot his ticket!!!! oh, neo n jerome went to mel's house first....sooooo mel had to drive him back to success which is like soooo far down south tat we are sooo gona be late...i called auddie to tell her and she was like 'super sweat'...
its like so typical of neo to just forget tings =.="
so i waited lor....wait for more than half an hour in the car!!!
they arrived at 6.45 and we went off.....not knowing which freeway to take...we spent super long on the road....turn here, missed the turning, 10 u-turns, 15 phone calls hahahaha....
neo was the navigator!! lousy betul...he claims tat 'the man is hungry and he is NOT happy'...LOL.....its ure fault tat we're late and lost hahaha...
got there at like 7.30....

=====my julibeeeeeeeee=====


==yeap...i wanted him to have a taste of my fist==


===hahaha...luke banch...no touchy touchy pal===

we ate at caffe martino @ mount lawley....we had to get auddie, val and juli to order watever for us because we noe tat we were super late and wont have time because we're suppose to go to Luxe Bar at 8! so we ate watever was on the table and dine enjoy it a BIT!!
val ate my order so i ate wat she initially ordered, smoked salmon wif creamy cheesy pasta...YUCK!! super salty @___@

after neo had his smoke session, we WALKED to the bar...yea WALK!!
not near ok...looked near when auddie drew it out for us =.="
show id, show wrist band..and we went in..
The Red Room @ Luxe Bar....so tiny la the room....not big enuf but it was ok..we chiroz are CLOSE hahahahaha.....as if!

===neo zhe wei...u pimp hahahaha===


====auddie the cutey pie..enjoy her humour====


===mel...why la cover!! dance baby dance!!===

hugs and kisses everywhere.....'you look stunning'...'i luv wat ure wearing'....'omg ure hair is soo kewl!'.....'is tat ure partner'.....'let me get u drinks'..etc etc...
words flying everywhere..went straight to the bar....
our bar tab was AU$4000...so drink up baby!!! we were each given 2 coupons for cocktails..i used up mine...had boston iced tea and lychee love..not too bad..oni very KIK!!
then the others just go for the regular whisky mix......din drink a drop of beer :D
i really hate the taste of beer.....yuck yuck!
i admit i did overdrink :x

===dhan..the gal who luvs my hair hahaha===


===janice...LUV LUV LUV her new hair!! muax!===

tis time i DIDNT puke...but my head was just banging banging banging....at one stage i cant even stand straight...i had to dance it off a lil....
then this gal katie...crazy babe....order all sorts of drinks for us and then drink and leave...
then she keeps coming to us asking us to drink her drink....
juli claims tat katie spiked her drink or someting cuz she got drunk!!
the whole nite julz oni had lemon lime bitters which was non-alcoholic....how can she get drunk on tat?? she did drink mine for tasting and tats it...
she couldnt walk straight OMG...
her bf was going to pick her up from the caffe and so she had to walk all the way back there....she wanted to go alone??? SIAO!
i told her i would walk wif her....thank goodness i was there k...she cant walk straight and kept wanting to fall over....geeee...
i have never handled a drunk b4....i eventually had to grab hold of her wif every step....din wan her to fall down or hit anyting u noe...
got there..waited for about 10 minutes...omg...super long..felt like an hour!!
john (her bf) drove up wif his new but old mazda.........geee...now i noe why ppl dun like 2 door cars :P
so hard for me to get in and out...geeeee!!!
i told john tat she might have drank someone's drink and got tipsy after tat...
he got so worried..i felt a lil guilty but hey she drank it....

===romey looking HAWT tonite===


===sean...miss u!! will see ya next year :D===


===dj auddie in the house, too high d===

auddie got really high!! she drank like loads!! her whole body was on fire man....she just had to sit down and not move at one stage...
neo...no need to say tat fella super high la...dunno how many dozens of beer has he drank...
showing his slick moves and then sitting down and say 'hi my name is zhe wei'....WAHAHAHA...tat was sooo funny!!
then he asked me to put my hand on his chest and he did the erm chest pump? hahaha...
he did it on both chest!! omg...impressed!!

===oopz..wats romey's arse doing ere hahaha===


===mitch mitch mitch===


===allie...luv ya gal! tell ure partner dun be jelez!===

mel and i left early because my head was killing and cuz mel's bro came oredi...
so had to go lor...
i even cut myself when i was trying to get out of john's car...gee...it was bleeding a lil :(
and i have some red scarring on my right upper arm...dunno where it came from =.="

overall it was pretty boring..cuz it was just drinking and more drinking...
too blur to take any photos...sorri...just too bz drinking and toking....cant be bothered putting any up....no one noes no one anyways hahahaha.....just a few to please everyone :P
hugz and kisses everyone....

*TO ALL 3RD YEAR CHIROZ OF 2008...CONGRATULATIONS ON MAKING IT THIS FAR...YOU'RE HALF WAY THERE!!!!*

i dunno anymore

im unsure about myself at the moment..was wat i did the rite ting?
it didnt give me the assurance that ure heart is wif me..
maybe its cuz u dun show care, tats why i feel so insecure rite now...
are u happier when she's around? am i just a temporary substitute for her absence?

i wish u cared just a lil bit more...
it takes so lil to make me smile and tink about u...
but the fact that you are happier wif her makes me felt left out once again...
u oways pick me up and let me down the next minute...
i cant tell if ure there because of me...
please tell me u dun have feelings for her.....
tis is such a torture tinking about all this...
u guys do every freaking ting together till its freaking me out...
how would i noe that nth is going on btw the both of you?
i wish u could assure me tat u guys are just frenz....
u hesitated when i asked you about her....
i guess i shd have known earlier that she's more than just ure fren...

murdoch guild festival

the topic sounds as dodgy as the day is LOL... i tink the guild is just trying to get student to sign the petition about how murdoch uni vice chancellor is getting paid like more than AUD$700,000 a year!! tats like more than freaking AUD$12,000 a week!! MADNESS!! so many ppl (including me) cant even manage like $200 a week and he's getting paid 12k/week? he's pay is like freaking more than the PM of aus apparently....how disturbing is tat fact?? so we went and sign that freakin petition....just to get free stuff hahahaa.... drank too much free apple juice today....

==soo cute!sleeping, too tired from all the attention==


==i actually fed it ok...tooo cute!!==


===8 year old miniature horse called Casey, KAWAII===

got a lot of stalls la...fundraising, selling cakes and sausage sizzles... its thursday which means its oso market daze... so very crowded lor.... sizzlers were giving out free cheesey toast which was sooo dliciouz! i couldnt be bothered eating my bread for lunch cuz it was freaking cold so i settled down wif a bowl of $7.60 laksa hahahaha...warm me up a bit ba...

when the others went for lecture, val and i had 1 hour to kill so i told her about the petting farm tat the guild had... we went and boy was it cute....bunniez!!! super cute!! fed them lotsa carrots muahahaha.. then there was a baby lamb and a baby goat...kawaii.... i tink its the first time i have ever touched pure 100% wool from a living animal...oways from a yarn hahahahahha... they had a miniature horse and a pony as well...omg super cute..

due to peer pressure, i went on a ride ontop of the freakin pony... yea u heard it damm rite...a giant on top of a pony...*poor pony*...hahahaha... it actually could withstand someone more than twice the size of me..oh yea very comforting haha... but the fact was..i was wearing short skirt!! dun get me started on how i got onto the ting and how i actually slided my way down....omg...super funny...i screamed! @__@

===giant on poor 11 y/o 'Showboy'..eekz===


===auddie on pony===


===gladiators..are u ready HAHAHA===

all 4 of us (val, julz, and aud) skipped immunology lecture just to be on a horse hahaha... then val and julz had a go at the gladiator platform....super funny...couldnt help myself to a good 5 minutes of larfter.... then we went for this totally ridiculous game where we pretended to be on 'fake' horses (more so a stick wif a horsey head) and keep going 'giddy yup' and that would actually move the paper horses on the 'race tract'....yea yea..the red horsey won..and it was MY HORSE!! MUAHAHAHAA....i couldnt stop larfing my arse horse while jumping on the so called horse... i won i won..im the champion of the tracts hahahahaha....

===julz on pony===


===val on pony===

then we went for another round of food tasting...vegetarian nuggets were SOOO GOOD! im so gonna buy a pack if i go to tat plc... i just stood there..toking while eating HHAHAHAHA...

then had to go for randy's class....debate time hahaha... so obvious tat im not the debating type :P lucky our group wasnt picked tis time around...the topic was:

"chiropractic is a holistic approach to healthcare"..our group was the opposing one eh....not easy k.....this is quite personal really... the chosen groups were really good....thumbs up...applause..

after class wanted to go oriental shop buy ground nuts cuz craving but then decided not to... sent val to train station then went shopping instead :P
bought a vest, a sorta-work-like pants, tresemme shampoo :D and french manicure sticker tingy....broke!!! shardup...
took me ages to actually get my nails done...its not excellent but i like it hehehe..not the ordinary white and peach colour...its dark pink and very lite pink...ready for saturday nite...

rave is in disney land paris!! do u noe how envious am i rite now??? she smsed me saying she took a picture wif eeyor!! cant find tigger...OMG.... go hunt him down!!!! i so wanna go laaaa....stop tempting me oredi :(

had a good chat wif how ee and fabiam....i felt lighter after toking to fabiam for some reason... oso had a rather interesting conv wif how ee...regarding 'couples moving in together as unmarried couples'.... everyone has different views on tis issue lor..wat i tink is fine may not be rite for some ppl.. so depending on their blieves...u'll get diff feedback :)

===nice onot ga??need more? too thin??===

finally...me wif my saturday eye make up...damm it i have small eyes..cant even see anyting :(
auddie wants to steal my eyelashes =.="
while i wan bigger eyes, longer eye lashes and thicker double eye-lidz ><"