eh wat the heck

===this is auddie by the way, i tink i look cute lolx===

as obvious as it is, i am someone who gets jealous over the smallest ting. i may not be a girlfren yet but im oredi acting as one.

i read her blog just now. haven been there for a while . the most recent post was about her trust issues. i noe that she doesnt trust me tat much. she wouldnt trust me, she reckons i would actually practice a fling. she even reckons tat she's not cleared enuf about me. she is the one tat is unclear about herself! wats wif sze ryn and joyce?? she still have someting for joyce lor. its damm bloody obvious. i would never ever let anyone rather than my hair stylist or my partner to touch my hair. wat more style it for me. joyce styled her hair today, yuck! tis is how silly and envious i am about other gals around her. i may not be as good as joyce or as pretty as sze-ryn, that i noe. i guess she toks about them so much that its as if she's trying to say im not good enuf. auddie was like 'why is she mentioning about them when toking to u? wats wrong wif her?'.

i tink the one who should tell out their feelings is her. i noe wat i wan and i oredi speak out. dunno why she's still doubting me :( maybe noting is going to happen btw the both of us :(

someone dedicated tis song to me. i wish it was her who did and tell me tat tis is wat she wants me to noe. instead, some other jerkface 'sang' it to me. it's called 'every little thing you do' by westlife. love the song but hate the sender.

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Hello, let me know if you hear me
Hello, if you want to be near
Let me know
And I'll never let you go

Hey love
When you ask WHAT I feel, I say love
When you ask how I know
I say trust

And if that's not enough

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this WAY
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

Don't ask why
Let's just feel what we feel
'Cause sometimes
It's the secret that keeps it alive
But if you need a reason why

Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do
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omg, just now i was browsing facebook and i was on her page. i saw photos of them together. all of a sudden my heart just felt so heavy. it was like someone just hit it. it felt like a stab really. wasnt a very comfortable feeling, trust me.