cheated, breaking up + regreting it later

was rushing to uni when i realise i had to meet up wif D and oso the rest of the gang in the ref after julz left me a msg on my fone. i practically ran my ass off cuz it was like 11am when i got to uni. sean ran after me yelling out me name. i had to stop and catch my breathe.

julz saw me and ran towards me. gossip time la wat else. met D, handed him the usb and went to the ref. i tink the conversation that i had wif J just hit me a lil tis afternoon. it really made me tink of D in another prospective.

*knocks head on the wall*

met up wif aud, neo n romey. wahliao, romey has pms or someting lor. everyting i said she just stared at me and just gave me the angry tone lor. wth, wat did i do wrong heh? din even dare mention another word until neo n sean sat down. toking about incest activities and scandalous activities happening around. neo said tis ting and everyone started larfing:

'hah, keep la, keep more bloodline...the kids all come out f***ed up one..mantain somemore la..'

its very mean to larf but he just said it wif the blurest look on his face. on the way to class, i just pulled aud and walked wif her. spoke in mandarin asking her wats up wif her and sean la. she say nth cuz her ex bf is asking her back. romey is mad because of aud's ex bf's actions.

he cheated, he doesnt admit it, regrets it now, and wants her back now. romey just reckons he's a S.O.B and doesnt deserve aud. well, by rite, aud shdnt even tink about accepting him back. but on the other hand, if aud still luvs him pasionately, why not? he's actually admiting tat he is wrong, how rare is tat? aud reckons he is just a person pleaser. so without further actions, aud wont even consider. watever it is, as long as aud's happy, so are we. so i guess she crushed sean's heart. poor sean...there there.

so wats the point in cheating in the first place? neo cheated once and he totally regrets it now. its so sad and silly at the same time for him to still hold on to a relationship tats oredi gone for 6 years. saying all tat, arent rave and i going tru tis at the moment? watever it is, its life..u make mistakes, u regret, u learn from it and u go on wif life as it is, in a better way.

we booked a few flights tis afternoon. im freaking broke cuz wif booking 3 flights, im poorer by A$750. tats just 3 out of the dunno how many flights we're taking. how about the hotels/hostels?? spending?? and they can say money isnt a problem....screw tat. at least i noe we're going somewhere. the ting is, my bank hasnt deducted the amount yet. wonder if there's any prob. hmmmm.....will check again tomolo. will start screaming if it doesnt go tru..