im sorri john :(

john is a 'fren'. someone i knew years ago. he was never once serious. he is a perv. a real one. but he's a guy and a guy is oways a perv. never once serious. i never once took his words seriously. oh well, i never tot he actually took me seriously. today he asked me to play a game of truth or dare. i wouldnt cuz i noe wat his dares are and they are ridiculous. then we ended up in an argument just cuz i din wan to play the stupid game wif him. he said tat i never gave in to any of his requests. wtf? who would? who would be dum enuf to actually do wat he says? here's the conversation we had. i told brodz about it and brodz got really angry n wanted to tok to john. brodz isnt in the conv...its just me and john. i omost broke down in tears when i read wat he said..

.yeah.na.done. says:
u're revelaing what we talked to ur friend?

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
brodie, my bf

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
he can noe wat we tok about

.yeah.na.done. says:
who gave u the permision to say whether he can know or not?? u've no respect for me at all! bye!

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
he is my bf,he can noe wat i tok wif other guys

.yeah.na.done. says:
i dun give a shit.. ur bf is ur bf's prob

.yeah.na.done. says:
telling what we were talking abt is totally unacceptable

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
why? its not like its a secret

.yeah.na.done. says:
so if i would to tell u a secret,it's gonna go to him

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
if its a secret it remains

.yeah.na.done. says:
like i would believe u now.

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
but wat is there to hide about tis

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
now tis is wat i call a fren! watver!!

.yeah.na.done. says:
yeap, the friend u rather he died

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
u never treated me like a fren so dun even start

.yeah.na.done. says:
i'm gonna give him a piece of my mind if he's asking for it

.yeah.na.done. says:
u want to tell him that? go ahead

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
tell him wat

.yeah.na.done. says:
ugh.. y do i even bother

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
does it have to be tis way

.yeah.na.done. says:
wat way?

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
THIS

.yeah.na.done. says:
u asking ur bf to come ask me to be nice to u?

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
no i dint

.yeah.na.done. says:
watever.. he still approached me anyway

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
ure still toking to him

.yeah.na.done. says:
there's nth to talk

.yeah.na.done. says:
i told him im not interested in talking to him

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
ok fine, u wont tok to me either

.yeah.na.done. says:
u know wat... ask him to come talk to me.. let's see how much he knows abt u

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
wat are u gonna do

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
tel him all the shITs about me huh

.yeah.na.done. says:
well he's ur bf... he should've known already, no?

.yeah.na.done. says:
i thought u might have already told him

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
noe about wat

.yeah.na.done. says:
like wat u described it as, "your shit"

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
those are all f-ing lies ok

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
dun u get it

.yeah.na.done. says:
so u've been lying to me?

.yeah.na.done. says:
or are u lying to me now by saying that they are lies

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
u were never once serious

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
how can i be honest wif u

.yeah.na.done. says:
ic... well it's fine then.

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
fine...very common word to say

.yeah.na.done. says:
u know wat

.yeah.na.done. says:
i've thoughts of destroying ur relationship

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
if ure gonna do it i cant stop u

.yeah.na.done. says:
if i really wanted to

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
i am in no power to do tat

.yeah.na.done. says:
but because i once thought u treated me as a friend

.yeah.na.done. says:
i wouldn't

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
if u really hate me tat much then u will do tat

.yeah.na.done. says:
the fact is i dun

.yeah.na.done. says:
yes, u've said the hardest words i've heard in my life

.yeah.na.done. says:
yes, u've not respected me, lied to me and acted selfishly towards me

.yeah.na.done. says:
in my opinion

.yeah.na.done. says:
but it's not enough to make me hate u

.yeah.na.done. says:
cause that's what friends do.. they forget and they move on

.yeah.na.done. says:
feel free to tell ur bf what i'm telling u now

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
i hope u mean wat u said

.yeah.na.done. says:
i am always true to my words

.yeah.na.done. says:
if u've never noticed at all

.yeah.na.done. says:
i've always sticked to my words

.yeah.na.done. says:
when i said i'll come visit u in perth

.yeah.na.done. says:
i did and i was almost there, but u bailed out

.yeah.na.done. says:
when i said i'll delete ur pics after viewing

.yeah.na.done. says:
i did

.yeah.na.done. says:
when i told u that u were hot

.yeah.na.done. says:
i meant it

.yeah.na.done. says:
anyway

.yeah.na.done. says:
dun worry

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
when u said u were coming i tot it was some sort of a joke

.yeah.na.done. says:
i won't bother u anymore

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
who would actually fly all the way

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
ppl say tings tat are stupid...

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
i never believed tat i was ever hot or watever

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
can u pls stop and hear me out

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
if ure a fren u wouldnt leave me like tat

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
im sorri for everyting tat i hv done

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
i never took u seriously because u didnt seem to be serious at all

.yeah.na.done. says:
that's me jezz..

.yeah.na.done. says:
my heart doesn't match my mouth

.yeah.na.done. says:
and yet i still controlled my words

.yeah.na.done. says:
and was careful with what i said

.yeah.na.done. says:
learn to do that urself.. u might not be so fortunate and do that to someone dear

:: duchess jezzie luvs his sexy ass :: says:
its oni u tat i do it to

.yeah.na.done. says:
well.. i guess i'm special in some way then

moral of the story is? i am a full hardcore biatch. i told brodie he should tink twice, maybe 3 times about me. im not a very nice person. i can do lots of tings to hurt ppl. i have hurt many many ppl truout my years of being alive. i never mean all of it. some were done out of rage and anger. i oways say i wont do it again but again and again i do, and ppl still dun take me seriously. they call me weak....well maybe i am. the weakest link :(

met brodz mum ova the webbie :) i chatted n webbie wif brodz for hours today. he was sooooo happy to see me on webbie. i really wish i didnt have to see him tru a screen. i wanna touch his face rite now :( he asked me to move in again. sigh.....i saw pagan's ass again today. omg, nitemare!! he oways does tat grrrr...stupid idiot. im getting my ears pierced when i go back :) prolly getting a small tattoo as well *yeepeee*

im like superbly happy for kelf. someting must have happened last nite at the party. he's like on cloud 999999999!! went to habib to get couple jewelz *piang*. engraving somemore. it was my idea damm it, how dare u get it b4 me LOL....im getting a pair of necklaces as well. it wont be a couple ting but im getting brodz one ;) i wan him to wear it and tink of me :D he bought me a white xmas teddy..omg, its turning BROWN cuz he keeps hugging it to sleep :( poor teddy hehehehe....i luv u baby :)