a letter from a lover...

melson is my ex, melson was someone i spent the last 5 years wif...
we had fun, we shared the tears, we enjoyed the larfz, we gained the trust, and now i have to let everything go because i lost the faith that i had in the relationship.
it is a waste, but the past 5 years was the 5 years that i would not regret...

yesterday nite i received a letter...it was subjected to 'dear'. i knew it was not gonna be someting for me to enjoy reading. true enuf, it was very upsetting. i couldnt let myself cry because i noe i wasnt suppose to. i have to be strong because i have let go of the relationship months ago. i cried when we tok about it the other nite. i couldnt stop myself because it was emotional and its not someting easy for me to do. i was emotionally disturbed!!!

the letter was written wif lots of tears. i could feel it. it was bout how we met, how hard it was for us to live together, how we cried, how we larfed and how we remained together for so long. it oso contain the trust issues and everyting tat i wanted to change. melson noes tat i won't go back to the life we had together because i have made my choice. it wasnt because of brodie, it wasnt because of anyone else. i made my choice based on what i feel and what i noe. things will never go back to the way it was because i have lost faith in it. i have lost the confidence i had in melson and the relationship. so what if melson changed? will it not be the same? why change oni after i threaten to split? why show me changes when we are no longer together? isnt all thats done because we are apart? i have said it b4, do someting for ureself and not because i have asked u to.

if u have changed, i am very proud for u have proven me wrong. but if u changed because u want me back then im sorri, i couldnt accept. anywayz...i wont go into too much detailed. its personal so i guess its oni for me to noe :)