wat doesnt kill u makes u stronger..

after all the struggles and after nitez of tears, i finally came to my senses and ive decided to continue on...
i may be falling back a year, but tat cant stop me from being what i want to be...
before making my decision, i was like telling myself tat i cant take this failure and i really dun wanna continue the course...
after much persuasion and advices, ive finally made up my mind and i will move on..
i cant see myself doing anyting else...some say change to do medicine...
wat diff is medicine to chiro? i might even have to start from year 1 if i switch to med...
they are both equally as challenging and stressful :(
so i have decided to stay back and just do one unit this semester..
ive tot of taking the semester off and return to malaysia so tat i could take my mind of things...
but, im staying....im not going back and im remaining where i am, in perth...

althou this has been the worse bday gift anyone could have gotten, i have taken this as a lesson..
it is, like wat dr beck said...another speedbump in life..
i noe my stuff well, but i dunno how to apply it....well, im taking this mistake and im gonna correct it...i cant diagnose someone by just hoping to pass my exams..
we're toking real patients and real lives...i have to get it rite this time onwards..
i will be one year behind all my frenz...its a shame because i have come to know them better this year....
very upsetting really but i guess i cant do much about it but to excell :)

throughout this hardship, i have also come to realise that i have so many ppl around me to support me and cheer me on...
my parents didnt scold me or anyting like tat...i expected like the biggest bombshell thrown over me but instead they told me its orite and that i shdnt take it as the end of the world...
tat reminds me, i actually tot of doing someting really silly....not exactly taking my life but doing someting really stupid tat could harm my wellbeing :(
well, tat tot has been erased from my mind so worry not :)
my frenz, all tat have supported me and lectured me to stop acting like judgement day is coming, i really really appreciate all that u guys have done...
being there for me..
julz and val drove all the way from the north just to make sure i was ok....tat was really thoughtful of them :D
i really thank everyone who stood by me and helped me get tru tis hurdle..
and who could forget about rave rite? rave spent the whole day accompanying me for my bday and the days after tat....wat would my upsetting days be like without her trying to cheer me up tru a webcam screen?
also, melson who called like a million times to make sure that i was still alive and toking hahaha..
she even wanted to fly over to accompany me...hmm...tats would be nice wouldnt it?

see, i never knew that many ppl cared about me....i called myself stupid and i got scolded for tat..
well, it is true fact tat i am stupid..i cant get my facts rite to begin wif...
i cant blame anyone or anyting about my failure in this....i have oni myself to blame..
i lost concentration and let my mind float together with the clouds..
but then again, i was being affected wif some other factors as well, which i dun wish to tok about..
after the cry tat i had when i was in kl, i could oredi feel tat my life was gonna turn...
and it did....bad bad turn :(

anyways, i am going to move on..im oni doing one unit tis sem and continue wif 3rd year AGAIN next year....
i dunno how am i gonna encounter tat but i hope i'll get tru...
i'll keep moving forward and i hope tat u will walk wif me too....
im hoping tat i could find a job so that by the end of the year, i could go to europe and spend a nice holiday there....also to take my mind off things...
whether onot i make it to europe i will have to see...i shd be able to know if im going onot in the next 2 mths...if i were to work then yea i will have my trip :D
my mum asked me not to be too picky...i dun tink i am actually, its just a bit hard because i haven worked b4 :(

well, wish me luck yo..im gonna need it, both in finding a job and successing in life :D
thankz again for everyone who has supported me..luv ya guys!! huggiez ehehehe...